Note: again, this poem was inspired by a quote. However, it is all mine and in no way did I steal the quote.

Maybe I’m not hot

Maybe I don’t act like the other girls

I am smart ~ But I don’t pass my classes

I like to have fun ~ not that I get out much

I don’t party ~ because I’m never invited

I like being with my man ~ he’s my un-moving rock

I have my own back ~ because I can’t trust anyone

I don’t like to admit that I need anybody’s help

I try to learn something new everyday ~ if I can

I live my life to the fullest ~ the best I can

I don’t like to live with regrets ~ yet I regret a lot

I have my good and bad days ~ mostly bad

I fight with everybody ~ even if they don’t deserve it

Some people don’t like my attitude ~ to well

I refuse to waste my time with those who look down on me

I have a ***** mind ~ what teenager doesn’t?

I have my friends ~ if you don’t like them to bad

Don’t ask me to change ~ because I won’t

Take me or leave me ~ this is the way I am

Would I still be me?

If I cut my hair, dyed it black?

Buy really dark clothes, say **** like that?

Shrink away from the one I love

Never accept what I’ve done?

Become that chick that people fear

While you watch me disappear

Would I still be me?

If I got straight A’s?

You’d think it was just a phase

If I fit in with the crowd?

Didn’t stand out?

Become the angel you love?

Believe there’s a god above?

Would I still be me?

If I told you how I really feel?

Why life is no big deal?

Opened up?

Let you in?

Who in the hell would I be then?

I feel like a softball net

Nobody knows how my frame is supposed to go

So they build it up

Then decide it’s not right

They tear me down again

I’m a softball net held to my frame by my friends

But each friend that holds me is fragile

Like an over used rubber band

Their hooks scar me deeply

Friends come and move around

Some break and fall

A piece of me now gone from my frame

While others grow stronger

Hooks digging deeper

While I continue to fall and be refastened

Something else is thrown at me

Drama

Big, small, fast, slow, friends, home, school

They’re the softball that hit my net

Each new drama rips my net just a bit

Or knocks another piece loose

On and on the cycle goes

Frame changing

Net ripping

Hooks digging in and falling out

Rubber bands snapping

Standing on soft grass

Blue sky over head

Everything is peaceful

Time moving slow

I hope this is real

Inside I feel like ice cold snow

I try to imagine something playful in the clouds

Yet every time they look like nightmares emerging from the hills

I like to sit in this soft grass and look at this blue sky

Some days it helps me get by.

People think so **** low of me

Yet, expect so much

With nothing to give in return

But more lies and remorse

It dims the light inside me

Causes my inner flame to fade away

I need to know I’m valued

Not just caught in the middle

Of this hell hole we call life

I need somebody to comfort me

That person I can call late at night

Even on mute
I type carefully
As if just the sound
Of the keys would wake him
I watch his eyes flutter
Faintly hear his lashes brush against
His baby soft skin with every movement
I listen to his breathing
It finally falls into a soft rhythm
He looks so peaceful, so innocent
I know in this moment
That I could watch him sleep forever
The only thing I’d want is to be there next to him
To keep him safe, to take care of him
Most of all
I want to be the first thing he sees
When his eyes flutter once more
And they open slowly still half asleep
I want to watch the smile
He gets when my fingers brush against
His still warm cheeks
Until then I'll type carefully
My words full of love
Waiting for him
To slowly wake up

Come sit with me
Hold my hand
Tell me you love me

Lets walk the beach
Smell the ocean
Run at the birds

Set out a blanket
For just the two of us
Pretty shells border it

Wind blowing
Waves crashing
People screaming

We don't hear it now
We've traveled far away
Without leaving our spot

Come sit with me
Get lost with me
Stay with me

Forever

I shouldn't be feeling this way
My life is almost perfect
I'm doing good in school
I have a wonderful boyfriend
I get rewarded when I do good
I have a family that loves me

So why am I still feeling lost
Disappointed in myself
Slipping backwards into depression
I think about the past
When I could cut without being seen
Half of me wishes that's how it could be

Right now I feel numb
Nothing to stop me
I could watch the blood pool
Watch it run down my arms
I could feel pain again
I could feel in control

Why do I feel this way again
I have no reason to be unhappy
No reason to self-harm
I have so many reasons to smile
Yet I can't bring myself to do so
I just want to break down
Go back to how I was
Just for a night
Just to watch the blood around my knife

It's dark tonight
I jolt awake
The sound of your voice startles me
Low and angry
It's a too familiar sound
I'm afraid now
In my mind I'm telling myself
It'll be okay
You can fight him off
I can barely finish my thought
Before your hands are around my wrists
Pulling me up out of my bed roughly
I can feel my shirt trying to adjust
From how it was while I was asleep
Your grip around me is so tight that I don't dare move
You drag me to the stairs
Even if I did dare to move I'm to frighten to
I'm frozen to the spot
Are you going to throw me or drag me
You choose to drag me
Making sure each step hurt just as much as the last
We get near the bottom I can make out the lights in the kitchen
I don't want to be in the light
I don't want to see the anger in your eyes
The dark soulless look you give me
You loosen your grip
I pray you're going to let me go
Instead you grab at me until you find the perfect spot
The perfect spot to put all your force into
You throw me across the living room
I skid to a stop in the kitchen
You walk over to me
I know it's not over
I scream for help but nobody's there
I know I have to wait until he's done
I'll slowly and painfully climb back up those same stairs
Mentally imaging the bruises that each one left
I crawl into bed again
Hoping I'll be safe for the rest of the night
I can't close my eyes
Behind them I see his
Dark and angry
I'll never forget tonight

Slowly as the days go by I lose friends

Most that I hoped I never would

I wonder where the friendships went

What happened to the memories?

Now we’re left here at the beginning

Of two very different and separate paths

You’ll take yours and I’ll take mine

Maybe someday our paths will cross again

I hope they do

Because I still have so much to say.

I’m done with this nonsense

Stop trying to interpret the madness inside

Because you can’t break through the outer cover

Don’t say it might take some time

I’m done playing by your rules

I already know nothing will be alright again.

You don't know the real me

Nobody really does

Not even me so why should you pretend like you do?

You can only push me away for so long

Before I walk out of your life on my own

I know I sound like a hypocrite

I’m not one to scold people for pushing others away

I do it all the time

Except I have my personal reason for it.

So be careful…

Make sure this is what you want

Because once I’m out of your life…

It’s very unlikely that I’ll be coming back.

Please just do me a favor, promise me!

Promise that you’ll never forget me.

That I changed you somehow.

Let me know,

That I had somewhat of an impact on your life

Please promise that you’ll always remember me

Losing our friendship was hard enough

I don’t want to go on knowing that I meant next to nothing to you

That I was just one of those friends

Who passes you by

Nothing left to say

Promise me you’ll remember me, good and bad

I feel like that girl who had to sleep on a pea

To prove that she was a princess

I’m not so lucky, it’s not a pea I’m sleeping on

I’m sleeping on a bed of sharp nails

To prove I’m not a **** up

That girl came in from the pouring rain

Couldn’t sleep on the tower of mattressess

On top of that very tiny pea

I can’t ever really come in to escape the rain

No matter where I go I’m followed by a cloud

It never stops raining

On really bad nights it feels like it’s hailing

The bed of nails, the raining cloud

It represents and constantly reminds me of my

Memories, regrets and pain

From my past, my present and my future

So when I finally close my eyes

On top of that bed of nails

Under the dark rain cloud

I dream of a like better then mine

Hoping that one day

I could trade places with that girl

Who sleeps on top of the pea

Sometimes I wish I had never met you

Because had I never met you

No tears would fall

My heart wouldn’t be breaking

I wouldn’t get lost in your eyes

Flirting wouldn’t **** me inside

I wouldn’t stay awake at night staring at my ceiling

Then I remember….

When I lay awake

I can still see your smile

Feel your gentle touch

Still hear your beautiful voice

Tears fall

I’m crazy about you!

And yet I still don’t have you

I love losing myself in your eyes

Days look so much brighter

Smiling isn’t so forced

No matter what you’ll always be perfect to me.

When I was born I couldn’t speak

Nothing was considered normal

Then I learned to talk

Yet, I could find no words to fit my life

I started to crawl, then walk

Wishing I could walk into some answers

Then I began to run

I quickly understood I couldn’t run far

Now I’m beginning to dream

If only I could do better

I can’t stop crying

It all hurts too much

Love seems impossible to me

For all of it just falls away

One day I hope to speak my mind

Talk and be listened to not just heard

Walk into a friends life and stay there

Dream and wish

Cry tears of joy not sorrow

Love somebody and know it’s real

One day I hope to take

All that I’ve learned over the years

Use it to turn my life around

Why aren’t we friends anymore?

Is it because we just gave up trying?

Or is it because we’re opposites?

You’re popular, everybody loves you

You have Kayla, your picture perfect girlfriend

Not to mention you’re a straight A student

To the untrained eye you’re basically the perfect boy

But me?

I’m not popular

In fact most people dislike me

I’m not considered beautiful

If I’m lucky I’m merely pretty

I’m not good at sports, or really anything

I can barely pass the mile in gym in under twenty minutes

I do alright in school, but I’m not genius

Guys aren’t exactly fighting to ask me out

We are totally and completely opposites

I’m not sure what made us friends in the first place!

Apparently whatever it was wasn’t strong enough

Every year I dream about summer

I can never wait for it to start

The end of school and the start of the fun

Always awaited, never dreaded

Until this year….

I toss and turn

Dreaming about the day we say goodbye

I can’t help but wish I could control time

The end of school, the start of regret

Now anxiety grows as the end gets closer

How do I stop this before I start falling faster?

You're not the guy I knew

What happened to my best friend?

You’re not the guy I used to know

Three weeks have passed

Since you’ve said more then hi to me

By now I’m used to only talking at school

It’s been that way since we met

But now no words are being said

We pass in the hall

You just keep walking

You turn your back at lunch

If I log on skype you log off

Why are you acting like this?

Our friendship needs no words

I know you’re upset before you swear

I know you’re happy before you laugh

I know you’re sorry before you apologize

I know we’re best friends before you hug me

But the words you do say,

“I love you”

“You’re amazing”

“Crumble boy”

“Fiesta en mi pantalones”

“But…But… you know you love me!”

Those are the words that make my day

I promise, no matter how far apart we become

You’ll forever be in my heart.

I’m not going to obey you

I’m not a **** dog

This is MY life

Yeah I’ve ****** it up

I’m 1000 times more afraid of myself

Then you’ll ever be!

Don’t you see?

I can’t handle any more pain.

So no I will not be careful

No I will not go out of my way to be safe

I can't take any more pain

So let me feel one last pain

Then I can feel it all slip away

NOTE: I did not write this recently. I am not in danger of hurting myself.

Jump off a bridge

End my life

Save myself

From all these fights

Take a gun

Pull it out

Never even make a shout

Pop some pills

Fall asleep

Never awake

No….

No more…

No more mistakes…

I’m tired of being the reason

For everyone else end of this pitch bl’s sorrows

Lying down at night with the stars up high

I find it hard to close my eyes and sleep

When I know there’s no light

At the end of this pitch black tunnel

It’s as if somebody has taken away my sight

Locked deep inside this darkness

While I’m waiting for hope and forgiveness

What’s happened to me?

To my life?

NOTE: After reading this you might recognize some of it from a quote. I got my idea for this poem from that quote. HOWEVER, I did not steal it I just put my own experience to it and therefore, did not steal it. Thank you.

Life comes with no guarantees

No time outs

No second chances

So we tell ourselves…

Live life to the fullest

Tell somebody what they mean to you

Take too many pictures

Laugh too much

Forgive freely

Love like you’ve never been hurt

Dance in the pouring rain

Hold somebody’s hand

Comfort a friend

Fall asleep watching the sun come up

Stay up late

Be a flirt

Don’t be afraid to take chances

Smile until your face hurts

But it’s not that simple…

I can’t tell that one person what they mean to me

I can’t forgive myself, so how am I supposed to forgive anybody else?

I have been hurt so I can’t love like I haven’t

I’m afraid to take chances

So how does somebody like me live in this live where there are no guarantees, no time-outs and no second chances?

How could I ever tell you that I love you

When we’re so far apart

We’d never stand a change

Almost 400 miles apart

Not seeing you already breaks my heart

So for me to tell you what you mean to me

Means I’d have to think about just how far apart we are

How everyday past is a day I don’t see you

Saying that we’re just friends breaks me in two

Because I know that we could be more

Yet, I know somehow it wouldn’t work

I’m too afraid to lose you

Want to take a step or two

Living a day in my shoes?

I dare you to try to smile, not cry

Walking through my life is like balancing unstably on the tip of a knife

Swirling emotions, so out of control

It’s like your life is a highway toll booth

Each person drives by leaving some drama

Doesn’t stop…

No hello or goodbye

Just another trauma

By the time you’re back in your own shoes

You’ll feel hopeless and confused.

So take a step or two

Live just one day in my shoes

Listen

Learn

Feel

No way you can heal.

Just wonder how much pain I go through

I live 365 days a year, each year in these shoes.

I hear her enter the room
I watch his eyes flicker towards her
He tries not to smile but I see it tugging at his lips
"I'm sorry babygirl, she wanted to hang out"
He types quickly as if he's afraid she'll see
I hear her say "Hi hunny I'm home"
I know it's a joke
Her voice has that silky flirtyness to it though
I have to stay calm
I can trust him.....
"Now don't you two go have *** in the woods"
I try to laugh at my own joke
Hoping she didn't hear it crack
He says "I have to go now"
I sigh and say okay
I tell him I love him and that he means the world to me
It's my last ditch effort to stay on his mind

Days later I get a message
"He's cheating on you"
I know it's from her
I lay down and try not to cry
I know they had ***
I know he cheated
I just don't know
If he's going to leave me for him
How this is going to play out
He denies it.
Over and over.
"Babygirl I love you more then anything nothing happened I promise"
I watch as pain quickly flashes in his eyes
It's my signal that he's lying
That all my thoughts were true
I finally realize and tell myself
"He's never going to truly love you"

There's something that is calling to me
Something just beyond my reach
Bigger, better, begging me to be my best
Maybe it's my writing, the blank pages that stare back at me
Or my drawing, the faded pastels stains on my old ripped up jeans
Even my stove seems to scream use me use me
Bigger, better, begging me and begging me
I feel the pull of this urgent need
I search constantly for the answer
In others words, drawings, creations and inspirations
But I know I'm looking in all the wrong places
I need to look inside myself and find who I truly am
Yet that's just the problem who the hell am I?
Am I a writer?
An artist?
A chef?
A photographer?
Am I meant to be a mother?
A wife?
Am I meant to spend my life at the will of somebody else?
Or am I supposed to struggle to find peace on my own?
I fight this need, this urge, this empty feeling in the pit of my stomach
Yet like a clock ticking in the dead of night
I hear it like a whisper
Bigger....better....Begging.

*written Sept. 14th, 2013

You're kneeling on the ground
Picking up the pieces of your
Once again shattered heart
I'm finding it harder to sympathize
To tell you it's all going to be okay
When I'm not sure if they will be
They say you should never push a loyal person
To the point where they don't give a **** anymore
You've pushed me pretty **** close
How can I pick up your heart when I can't even find
Half of the pieces that belong to my own?
You talk about drinking to make yourself hate her
Not drinking to numb the pain of missing me
No it's to take away the heartbreak of being without her
Is it my cuddles, hugs and kisses you want
Or just the feeling of being loved?
Do you really need me or do you need the company?
Have I ever been anything other than a rebound?
I try not to let myself question it when you say you love me
But lately it's all that runs through my mind
How long can I be a second choice
When do I stop being an option to you?
You built me up so I could finally see my own beauty
Yet now I feel like you look right past it
What's the point of feeling beautiful when the man you love
Is finding all the beautiful things in another woman?
I still love you I always have and I always will
I just need to know if this time is for real
Or if it's just for another four to six months
Then she'll be back, you'll fall for her again
Maybe then I'll save myself the heartbreak
Settle for what's easy rather than what I have to fight for.
Easy over crazy.

one* I am a writer
two I am a submissive
three Life has handed me tons of lemons and I just don't know what the hell to do with them
four I do not know everything no matter how hard I try to seem like I do
five I hate yellow cheese, I don't know why but I hate it
six I love dogs. All dogs.
seven My relationship is more or less complicated as hell
eight I will never be a size 00 again.
nine My job *****.
ten I am not ready to be an adult.

There, those are ten things I know to be true. Do they make sense? Not really. Do they tell a story? No, I guess they don't. But are they all true? Yes.

click* Signed off facebook
double click signed off skype
right click signed out of my games
You don't want to talk?
Fine we won't talk
I will just do my own thing
I will do the minimal
Eat the minimal
Work the minimal
Be happy the minimal
I will only do enough to please you
Nothing more
Nothing less
I will be referred to as
Nothing but your Slave
I will not be your babygirl
She has been lost
You can not tell your babygirl
To never speak to you again
Then expect her to speak to you
She is hiding from you
Does that make you proud?
That you made your little girl hide?
You are a Sir and a Master
That is all.

You say it doesn't matter
That nothing will ever be okay
Things are doomed to be messed up
You know maybe you are right
Just maybe life is always gonna be this way
Honestly though I just take it day by day
I take your craziness, laughter, sadness
I filter it all through my brain
I offer my love, my support and my wisdom.
In return I only ask for a few things
Your love~ To hold me through the night
Your support~ To follow my dreams
Your guidance~ To help me realize my potential
Most of all though I really need your dominance
Because that's how I know my place in this world
That's how I know my role
I am yours
Yours only
So give me another stare
Give me another punishment
Go on about more insane thoughts
I'll love, support and hold you through it all
I promise.

My life's Mirror
It’s like she’s trapped in a fun house

360* mirror where ever she turns

Each showing a blurred reflection

A fake image thought to be her

Words scrawled across the glass

Telling her who she is

Words from both her present and past

*****, ****, *****

Stick to her pale freckled skin

Like tattoos that will never fade in

She pounds against the cold glass

Trying to see past the lies and confusion

While a loud mocking voice laughs

With every hit upon the glass

Another word is added to the pack

She finally falls, slumped against the mirror

Cool to her touch, her tears streak it

She stays down now, to weak to get back up

Her life built upon lies

Like a dream from which she can not wake

There on the floor she’ll stay

Until one day somebody may come

Clean the slate, pick her back up

Erase some of the pain

Help her start over with no lies and no walls

Just a good friend who was secretly there through it all

Chipping away at the outside of the glass trying to break through

Hoping each breath her friend takes won’t be her last

There was one a person who made me feel safe

held my hand when I began to fall from grace

This person is my soulmate the one I miss

he brought me love and unlimited bliss

Then I went and messed it all up

Sent him into a downward spiral

He gave me all he had

I threw it all back

I’m still in love with him

He’s trying to give me a second chance

Okay it’s like my third chance

But I won’t give up

I won’t give into temptation

Even if we’re not together

I won’t be unfaithful

He is my first love

My only love

My best friend

The guy who saved me

The guy who loved me

Even when I was impossible to be around

He was perfect…He is perfect….

J.T.L.

My eyes
Look me in the eyes

Go right ahead

Push deep inside

Past the fear and the lies

Ask me how I really feel

Help me tell the story I live behind

Listen to the words

Of wounds that don’t heal

They hold the paid I hide

Every smile and every laugh

Harder to fake then the last

Watch my eyes

See how they jump around?

Trying to find something, anything

To calm me down

Fill the place in my heart

That I so sadly write about

A mother, who has lost her way

A daughter, just trying to learn to play life’s stupid game of pain and drama

Just trying to make each day just a little bit better.

All of this you can find

If you just take a little time

Look into my eyes

Brace yourself

Be ready to pay the price.

My Brother
He won’t hug you or tell you he loves you

He might ignore you and say hurtful words

He doesn’t talk much and gets mad easily

But he’s my brother

Almost 18, a full adult

Someday he might hug me

Maybe even tell me he loves me

Someday I’ll tell him

I’ve kept that glow in the dark star

Above my bed ever since he let me take it off his ceiling

I keep it there so I can think of him before I fall asleep

So he can be my 11:11 wish

Maybe someday I’ll even tell him

How much it hurt when he’d refuse

To hug me or even look at me

Even in his quiet tough attitude

And brave expression

I can still see my big brother

This poem I wrote for Paul, he died on March 12th, 2010
I was dancing to the beat
You were driving too fast
While I was living one of the best nights of my life
You were living your last.
RIP Paul 3-12-10 (10:38 pm)

I tell everybody I don’t care, that I’ve moved on
I’m fine on my own.
Does anybody stop to think?
Maybe it’s not just them I have to convince?
I also have to try and convince myself.
Life’s just so hard without my best friend right now!
So please come home, save me from this pain
I’m just falling through the air
I already know nobody’s there to catch me at the bottom
Yet, I can’t help but hope that you’ll catch me somehow.

I want this side

It’s not like I'm afraid

Just another side of you

I see him lurking

Peeking around the corner

I am waiting for him

I’m waiting for monster

What will he do to me?

Will he hurt me?

Will he wound me?

Will he “Break” me?

Can he?

I want him

I desire him

No safe words

No listening to my pleas

Ignoring my soft limits

Pushing past them

Playing with my hard limits

Showing me he’s boss.

He isn’t some monster under a bed

He’s the monster I want

To tie me to the bed

Monster….

Will you dominate me?

Can you dominate me?

Mother Thank you (Lisa)
It hurt to leave you behind
You’re my mother
You raised me
Taught me right from wrong
How to walk How to talk
You were always honest with me
About where I came from
Why you chose me
Where my biological parents were
It was you who helped
Mend every broken heart
Put up with my anger
Never gave up
Tried to make me happy
Handled all my issues
Stayed strong when I hurt you
No matter what you always said I love you
Before I walked out the door
Even if we had just finished fighting
I heard you cry late at night
You were wondering where you went wrong
Got up each day
Hoping I’d treat you better
I crushed your every dream
That I’d change someday
Over and over
You tried to hold me tight
I just pushed you away
Made you retreat
Lock yourself and your heart
Far away from me
Today you let me go
Watched me from the door
You just wanted what’s best for me
Mommy thanks for loving me.

If I ran away to Mexico

Would you come for me?

If I drank myself sick

Would you hold a bucket for me?

If I did something stupid

Would you sit with me all night long?

If I got into an accident

Would you hold my hand in the hospital bed?

If I had a breakdown

Would you come to me no matter where I was?

If there was more bad than good

Would you still stay with me?

I want to know that you love me

Even when the days are not so good.

It was hard to see

That one lonely

Blue line

Slide it’s way

Across the screen

Crushing my dream

Of us being a family

I swallow my sorrows

Wipe away my tears

I tell you it’s negative

Just like you want it to be

I see your own tears form

I regret my words

I know a baby

Would have meant the world

I’m sorry I couldn’t

Give you a baby right now

We’ll try again

When we’re older

Maybe then

Two perfect lines

Will blend together

Tell us that

I’m going to finally

Be a mother

That you

Are going to be

An amazing father

I love you

Forever and ever

Camper bed

Comfy enough

Tiny for us

No good for ***

Perfect for cuddling

Curl up right in your arm

Feel you breathe in

Wait for you to breathe out

Match our inhales and exhales

Hoping to match up our hearts

Melting the two beats into one

Drifting off to sleep slowly

Blinking trying to stay awake

Smiling because you say my name

Whispering I love you’s

Closing my heavy eyes

Opening them to you

Brushing hair out of my face

Camper bed..

You are **** and love approved.

Becoming little

Sometimes all it takes is a touch

A simple pat on the head will do

Other times it takes effort

Choosing the right clothes

Coloring the right picture

Even watching the right movie

I love slipping into little space

I feel myself shinking

Do you see it physically?

My eyes become droopy

My breathing slows

My attention span lessens

My **** wiggles more

I tend to curl up

Or bounce around

Do you see it right away

When your little girl comes out to play?

24 Hours

Keep it locked away

Nobody can come inside

Don’t let them see your pain

Push your fears aside

Smile like your happy

Laugh like your not silently cracking

Make it through just one more day

It’s only 24 more hours

Locked inside your head

Living this life in complete misery

Every moment filled with dread.

A poem for Christa

I miss you like a fish misses the sea

I need you like the Earth needs it’s trees

I hope to see you soon like the early morning light

I know this doesn’t make much sense

I guess I’m trying to say….

Christa come home.

Alone

Sitting Alone in a room

Nobody to sit beside me

Words escape from my cracked lips

Fresh salty tears slip from my swollen eyes

I wipe my face and wonder once again

When did my life get like this?

Boys! Excuses!

I’m totally sick of the

“Lets be friends” or “It’s not you it’s me”

EXCUSES!

*******!

Boys….MAN THE **** UP

You need to realize what you have right in front of you

Because one of these **** days

I’m gonna get sick of standing here

Waiting for you to open your eyes

I’m just going to end up walking away!!!

Can’t Get Up

When life gets you down

You get back up

With your friends by your side

And your will to survive

I can’t get up

Life has me to far down

No friends to stand beside me

Nobody to share my pain

Only the moon to guide me

Through the harsh pouring rain