Today I stand before you
Looking into your eyes
I see the man I fell in love with
I've heard you say I do
Now it's my turn

Every day since the day you first smiled at me
Has been some of the best days of my life
It started out small and innocent
You protected me from the rockets
My human shield
You slowly wrapped your hand in mine
It was like pieces of a puzzle
Finally coming together
We shared our secrets
Learned our boundaries
Fell deeper and deeper into love

We started to plan out our life
Telling ourselves we'd be gone
The day we graduate
We'd find our own place
Make our life
How we want it to be
Where we want to live
To build a house
Start our own family
Even if it doesn't go
Exactly as planned
We have each other

Today is the beginning
The beginning of that life
The life I'm ready
To spend by your side
Through the sickness
The health and everything in between
For the first and the last time
Today I stand in front of you
Saying these words

I do

So Cliche we say

We say we’re meant to be

Together forever

So cliche

We’re an on again off again couple

Torn apart by the distance

Brought back together by our love

We make promises on top of promises

I wonder how many we’re going to break

One step forward always feels like ten steps back

Forcing a smile when you ask if I’m alright

Never confessing my fears

Baby names and wedding plans

We think we have it all figured out

Dreams of our beautiful unborn daughter

Makes it impossible to let you go

I want our fairy tale life

Just not sure how to make it work

Scared to give up what I have

For the chance to be with you

A lot can change in a year

What if too much changes

sometimes its hard

sometimes its easy

it doesn’t matter

i’ll always understand

one way or another

my mind is open

I don’t judge

I just help

I understand

I involve myself

I stay

I don’t run

I don’t hide

I don’t push you away

I understand

I pull you close

I feel trapped inside my body

Like a voice that can not speak

While life goes on around me

I’m forced to keep discreet

When people talk to me

I wish to say the words

To let them know

I’m alive deep inside this body

But my screams can not be heard

Somebody hear me please

Lift this curse and set me free

Yet, every night turns into another day

In which I’m trapped inside this dying body

I’ll remember today

Sun shining

Light breeze

School boring as always

Typical Wednesday

Only today..

I finally let you go

No more holding on

To the friendship

I thought we had

When I passed you in the hall

Not once did I feel a pang of regret

Because now I know

That I didn’t ruin this

All of these months

I never understood

What I did wrong

Now I understand

I allowed myself

To believe in what wasn’t there

I ignored the change in you

I forced myself to hold on to the hope

That I could be good enough

When all along

I was good enough

If you didn’t see it

That’s not my fault

Today I’m finally letting go

I’m moving on

You were never my “best friend”

Best friends don’t abandon each other

They don’t pull away

When things go wrong

Wrote this for a friend. She couldn't put into words what she's been through so she asked me to help.

3 years ago

Late at night

She can’t escape

Her dad is at it again

Things flying threw the air

Angry words spew from his mouth

His hand comes down harder and harder

The minutes creep past.

My mom, brother & I

Venture out into the night

She usually comes here

But tonight is different

We’ve never had to go get her

She’s my best friend

I’d do anything for her

Driving slow

Looking for her house

We stop at light

It seemed so bright

Against the night sky

When it turns green

We keep going straight

Out of nowhere

The truck enters our sight

It should have stopped

We had the right of way

It just kept coming

No time to move

Just hold on tight

He ended up on top of us

The airbag hit my face

Glass embedded itself into my eyes and skin

All I could think of was my friend

How could I save her now?

In my mind my injuries were nothing

Compared to what she has been through

Mom had only cuts and bruises

My seven year old brother had a concussion.

She never talked to me again…

Today I contacted her

All I got was angry words

Her saying she hated me

3 years ago I almost died trying to save my friend…

Who no longer considers me part of her life.

When I look out my window

All I see is the sun dwindle

Life my life it’s passing by

It doesn’t stop to say goodbye

Even when I close my eyes

I still feel time flying by

I want to stop it in its tracks

But my life is like a fast moving train

Where most things are done in vain

I know this doesn’t make much sense

But that’s because it will be past tense

Tomorrow when I look out my window

I won’t see the sun dwindle

I will see the moon shine bright

Because it will be the dead of night