Come sit with me
Hold my hand
Tell me you love me

Lets walk the beach
Smell the ocean
Run at the birds

Set out a blanket
For just the two of us
Pretty shells border it

Wind blowing
Waves crashing
People screaming

We don't hear it now
We've traveled far away
Without leaving our spot

Come sit with me
Get lost with me
Stay with me

Forever

I shouldn't be feeling this way
My life is almost perfect
I'm doing good in school
I have a wonderful boyfriend
I get rewarded when I do good
I have a family that loves me

So why am I still feeling lost
Disappointed in myself
Slipping backwards into depression
I think about the past
When I could cut without being seen
Half of me wishes that's how it could be

Right now I feel numb
Nothing to stop me
I could watch the blood pool
Watch it run down my arms
I could feel pain again
I could feel in control

Why do I feel this way again
I have no reason to be unhappy
No reason to self-harm
I have so many reasons to smile
Yet I can't bring myself to do so
I just want to break down
Go back to how I was
Just for a night
Just to watch the blood around my knife

It's dark tonight
I jolt awake
The sound of your voice startles me
Low and angry
It's a too familiar sound
I'm afraid now
In my mind I'm telling myself
It'll be okay
You can fight him off
I can barely finish my thought
Before your hands are around my wrists
Pulling me up out of my bed roughly
I can feel my shirt trying to adjust
From how it was while I was asleep
Your grip around me is so tight that I don't dare move
You drag me to the stairs
Even if I did dare to move I'm to frighten to
I'm frozen to the spot
Are you going to throw me or drag me
You choose to drag me
Making sure each step hurt just as much as the last
We get near the bottom I can make out the lights in the kitchen
I don't want to be in the light
I don't want to see the anger in your eyes
The dark soulless look you give me
You loosen your grip
I pray you're going to let me go
Instead you grab at me until you find the perfect spot
The perfect spot to put all your force into
You throw me across the living room
I skid to a stop in the kitchen
You walk over to me
I know it's not over
I scream for help but nobody's there
I know I have to wait until he's done
I'll slowly and painfully climb back up those same stairs
Mentally imaging the bruises that each one left
I crawl into bed again
Hoping I'll be safe for the rest of the night
I can't close my eyes
Behind them I see his
Dark and angry
I'll never forget tonight

Slowly as the days go by I lose friends

Most that I hoped I never would

I wonder where the friendships went

What happened to the memories?

Now we’re left here at the beginning

Of two very different and separate paths

You’ll take yours and I’ll take mine

Maybe someday our paths will cross again

I hope they do

Because I still have so much to say.

I’m done with this nonsense

Stop trying to interpret the madness inside

Because you can’t break through the outer cover

Don’t say it might take some time

I’m done playing by your rules

I already know nothing will be alright again.

You don't know the real me

Nobody really does

Not even me so why should you pretend like you do?

You can only push me away for so long

Before I walk out of your life on my own

I know I sound like a hypocrite

I’m not one to scold people for pushing others away

I do it all the time

Except I have my personal reason for it.

So be careful…

Make sure this is what you want

Because once I’m out of your life…

It’s very unlikely that I’ll be coming back.

Please just do me a favor, promise me!

Promise that you’ll never forget me.

That I changed you somehow.

Let me know,

That I had somewhat of an impact on your life

Please promise that you’ll always remember me

Losing our friendship was hard enough

I don’t want to go on knowing that I meant next to nothing to you

That I was just one of those friends

Who passes you by

Nothing left to say

Promise me you’ll remember me, good and bad