I feel like that girl who had to sleep on a pea

To prove that she was a princess

I’m not so lucky, it’s not a pea I’m sleeping on

I’m sleeping on a bed of sharp nails

To prove I’m not a **** up

That girl came in from the pouring rain

Couldn’t sleep on the tower of mattressess

On top of that very tiny pea

I can’t ever really come in to escape the rain

No matter where I go I’m followed by a cloud

It never stops raining

On really bad nights it feels like it’s hailing

The bed of nails, the raining cloud

It represents and constantly reminds me of my

Memories, regrets and pain

From my past, my present and my future

So when I finally close my eyes

On top of that bed of nails

Under the dark rain cloud

I dream of a like better then mine

Hoping that one day

I could trade places with that girl

Who sleeps on top of the pea

Sometimes I wish I had never met you

Because had I never met you

No tears would fall

My heart wouldn’t be breaking

I wouldn’t get lost in your eyes

Flirting wouldn’t **** me inside

I wouldn’t stay awake at night staring at my ceiling

Then I remember….

When I lay awake

I can still see your smile

Feel your gentle touch

Still hear your beautiful voice

Tears fall

I’m crazy about you!

And yet I still don’t have you

I love losing myself in your eyes

Days look so much brighter

Smiling isn’t so forced

No matter what you’ll always be perfect to me.

When I was born I couldn’t speak

Nothing was considered normal

Then I learned to talk

Yet, I could find no words to fit my life

I started to crawl, then walk

Wishing I could walk into some answers

Then I began to run

I quickly understood I couldn’t run far

Now I’m beginning to dream

If only I could do better

I can’t stop crying

It all hurts too much

Love seems impossible to me

For all of it just falls away

One day I hope to speak my mind

Talk and be listened to not just heard

Walk into a friends life and stay there

Dream and wish

Cry tears of joy not sorrow

Love somebody and know it’s real

One day I hope to take

All that I’ve learned over the years

Use it to turn my life around

Why aren’t we friends anymore?

Is it because we just gave up trying?

Or is it because we’re opposites?

You’re popular, everybody loves you

You have Kayla, your picture perfect girlfriend

Not to mention you’re a straight A student

To the untrained eye you’re basically the perfect boy

But me?

I’m not popular

In fact most people dislike me

I’m not considered beautiful

If I’m lucky I’m merely pretty

I’m not good at sports, or really anything

I can barely pass the mile in gym in under twenty minutes

I do alright in school, but I’m not genius

Guys aren’t exactly fighting to ask me out

We are totally and completely opposites

I’m not sure what made us friends in the first place!

Apparently whatever it was wasn’t strong enough

Every year I dream about summer

I can never wait for it to start

The end of school and the start of the fun

Always awaited, never dreaded

Until this year….

I toss and turn

Dreaming about the day we say goodbye

I can’t help but wish I could control time

The end of school, the start of regret

Now anxiety grows as the end gets closer

How do I stop this before I start falling faster?

You're not the guy I knew

What happened to my best friend?

You’re not the guy I used to know

Three weeks have passed

Since you’ve said more then hi to me

By now I’m used to only talking at school

It’s been that way since we met

But now no words are being said

We pass in the hall

You just keep walking

You turn your back at lunch

If I log on skype you log off

Why are you acting like this?

Our friendship needs no words

I know you’re upset before you swear

I know you’re happy before you laugh

I know you’re sorry before you apologize

I know we’re best friends before you hug me

But the words you do say,

“I love you”

“You’re amazing”

“Crumble boy”

“Fiesta en mi pantalones”

“But…But… you know you love me!”

Those are the words that make my day

I promise, no matter how far apart we become

You’ll forever be in my heart.