With 2018 drawing so near
I figured I’d take the time to make myself clear
That I never intended to become 20-17 monster of the year
But I actually became the thing that I myself most fear

I never meant to cause this world so much pain
But for my unintentional actions I’ll eat that blame
And to all the people whom left as quickly as they came
I wish you all the best even if you dont wish the same

It’s been the worst year for sure that’s something I will not doubt
There has even been moments where I just wanted to check out
Because no matter how loud I screamed I couldn’t shout those thoughts out
Now I sit back pondering what the root of my pain was really all about

20-17 is where I would like my demons to stay
But I already know in my mind is where they will forever play
They follow me wherever I go no matter how far I run away
So it’s foolish of me  to believe that I will be rid of my pain on New Year’s Day

This year had its ups and downs like a roller coaster of feelings
I thought I had found love when I was actually dreaming
I have wanted to die many times but somehow my hearts still beating
But I don’t know how many beats I have left bc my heart won’t stop bleeding

I don’t know if this makes sense and I don’t really care
I just have to write this **** out bc if I don’t then I’m scared
Of what could happen to me if me and my demons are once again paired
For that’s a dangerous couple who’s love should be feared

Just Ty-