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Frank Nov 2018
You know those fake arguments you have in the shower?
Anxiety is like that.
Except it's all the time.
And you always lose the argument.
Frank Nov 2018
We all have a monster inside
some choose to wield it, keeping it on a tight leash
some keep it locked up, and throw out the key

some choose to embrace it
some are able to fight it

but some didn't win the fight
some are tormented by it
hunted buy it

but

nobody can outrun the monster

nobody can hide from it


It will always find you, no matter what you think you can do.
Frank Nov 2018
Here I am, at my computer

My desk is a mess
empty cans
empty bottles
empty pill cases
empty lighters

My life is like my desk
empty
a mess
and without any hope of being tidied up.
Frank Nov 2018
When did I start d̴r̶e̶a̴m̷i̸n̷g̷?

When did I realise it was a n̴̜̑î̶̼g̸̡̕h̵̦̀t̵̠͊m̷͓̽á̶ͅr̴̪͘e̸͛ͅ?


When did I realise I̵̬̾̋ ̵̠̐͝ẃ̶̜͙á̴̗̻s̷̜̾̈͜ ̵̠̽d̶̻̼̓r̵̺̎e̶̲͑̅a̸̖̎́m̸̰̺̔į̷̻̎n̷̛̟g̶̫͉̒?̵͓̽͂ͅ



How l̵̹̰̇ó̶̼n̴̠͋g̵̩͆ has it b̷̡̘̘͆́̔é̴̮̥̺͓̓͝ę̴͋́͝n̵̯̯̣̍̿̾͠?




H̶͚̰̬̅̋͜ỏ̴̰̖̀w̶̞͙̭̬̆̀̓͘ ̴͓̊̇̏̃w̵̩̽͝į̶̲͑̆͗̚l̵̗̮̼̯͌l̴̥͂͂͋ ̴͇͍̖̾́́̀I̴͈͂̚͘ ̵̰̗̯̺̽ḵ̵̗̒n̶̺͕͠ȍ̸͎̗̲̓̀w̶͓̭͕͛͑ ̵̛̫̗͖ẅ̴̯̯͚͓́ḥ̵̢͙̯̍́̔̉ḙ̸̉͋n̷̻̣̜̏̓ ̴͕̊͜I̷̳̟͒͌̋͜'̷̪̇̕m̷̰͊ ̵̨̳̒͒̈́̈a̵̧̲͈̰̿̑̈́̉w̴͕͎͇̱̄͑͂͑a̸͙̾̂́̃k̵̦͛͝e̸͊̑͜?̶̢̮͗





W̴͖̺͖̭͒̚̕h­̶͔̪̥́̑̐̚è̸̤͒̚ñ̶͖̯͓̱ ̶̲͓̘̺͐̎w̵̟͔̎ï̵̦̤̙ͅl̶͎̰̱͎̈́͘l̶̼͇͚̉ ̷̡̧̡̈́i̵͎͙͍̅t̵͚͌ ̶̪̎̆͆̿è̷̥̲͓͝n̶̠̣͐̓͒d̸̦̣̔?



̴͕̻̣̠̟̼͉̖͂̉͒W̸̯͑̚̕͝ḭ̴̥́̋̍l̴̀̓͌̿̑͘͠­̙̭͓ļ̵͈̼̼͕̗̏̈́̄̆̓̉̄͝ ̵̛̻̐͑̇̓͌̃͜͝t̸̢̪̣̰͍̝̎͐̍̀̽̐́͜ͅh̸̻̳̤̭͎́̈́͆̏i̸̲͚͈͛̿͜s̵̭̥͖̠͍̣̔̈́̔̽̊̉ ̸̙͇̎́ṅ̷͎̻̣̝̉͊́̏ȩ̸̺͚͓͙̐̐͊̽̑v̶̰̐̽͗̔é̴̠̝͘r̶̠̩̉͒̎͛ ̴̨̙̽ė̸̞̮͉̲̏͑͐̅̾͜ͅn̴̬̣̞̲͍̙͊͛ͅͅd̴̡͉̹̫̳͐̀͛̓̾͊̚͝?̵̯͈̞̣͘
Frank Nov 2018
Hush now, its just m̵̗̐͜e̵̢̍ͅ and you.

You're asleep.

We have lots of c̴̠̈́͝a̶̛̞͘t̶̪̊č̵̨̝̊h̶͙̖̎͂i̵͍̰̒͊ṅ̷̮̥ḡ̵̼̲̿ ̸̭̗̌͗ų̴̳̑̽ṗ̵̞̫̃ to do.

It's ok.

Ill tell you everything you did w̸̧̹̗̝͈͌͊̋̅̿͗̚̕ȑ̶͙͎̯͓̓̈o̴̢̭͙̫̠̮̹̬̮̫̫͋͛͛̒̓͐̄͆̓̀͗̑̊̽͝ͅͅͅṇ̶̛̻̑̆̂̀̕­̡͇g̴̢͎͇̩̹͚͈̈́͗̈́̽.

Its ok.


Ill tell you e̸̺̖͖̘̺̼͖̗͕̹̦̺̼͇͇̣̫̮͎̹͕̣͋̌̐̈́̑̂̓͂̆̐̒͒̐̔̒̽̾̆̅̕͘͝͝v̵̙̿͛́̈́̍̀͝e̷̽̂̓̌͗̚­̧̧̢̱̖̬̣̦̬͖̤̲͇̥̥͇͕̍r̵̭͙̥̺̙̜͉̹͕̽̍͆̈́̉̽̾͂̋̕͝͠y̶̡̜̝̮͙̞͖͔̻̻͙̲̒̅͐ͅ ̶̢̧̩͚̝̰̺̜̎̈̀͆͐̉̀́͑̊͂͐̌̒̂̀̃̊̊͘̚͘͜͠d̷͎̤́̔̽̂̑̒͐̑̈́͛̾̈́̿́̊̅̾̕͘̕͝͝͝e̴͋̐͠­̡̠̟̥̼͈͇̫͉̙͕͕͜ṫ̷̡͎̪͈͆͆͠a̸̗̼̤͚͉̟̞̞̥͓̹͔̼̩̟̔̒̏̌̉́́̓̂͒͌̋́͂̑̎͒͜ͅi̷̋̔̅̈­̧̡̡̰͚̱̝͍̱͉͙̎̇͒̈̐̓͛̔̅̔̚̕͠͝ḻ̷̡͖̗̝̿̋͋͜ͅ.̵̧̛̻̼̪̥̘͙̹̜͇͉͎̈́̉̏̐̉̉̋͑̏͆̓̓̀­̥̮̥̜̱̲̱̠͈̦̤͎





Y̸̢̓̌͐̎̒̒ö̴̩̞͕͍͕̣̼̼͕́͗͑̉͋̈́̃̓̀́͊͘͜ͅú̸͐̿̏̒̃̉́͗́̔­̧̨̦͚͙͎̹͈͕̲̻̘̟̩̏ ̶̩̝͈͈̪͕̺̪̼̞͓̙̐́̉̌̒̐́̆̾̂́́͠ͅç̵̧̧̯̹̺̤̙̝̳̺̻̩̲̲̃á̷͕̙̥͍̻̀̚n̴̽̅́̓̀̈́̕͝­͇͓͓̮̰̣͔͉͕̝̓̍̊t̵̨̡͍̰̰̘̖̜̖͐̇͂́ ̵̘͔͇̩̭̤͖̹̺̥̙͇͎̦͓͇̉̆͑́̽̃͑͛̃͂͝s̷̮̜̬̩̞̮̖̪͙̫̪̱̗̠̣̾̈̌̽̉̚̚̕͜t̷̓̾̔̒̎̇͐̚͝­̼̹̖̱̟͈͍̦͈̜̩̃̒ͅö̴͚̤͍͌̑͝ͅp̴̧̧̧̭̼̩̭̗̗̹͔̘̏ͅ ̸̜̅̏̎̐̊͆̌̐̇́̒̍̈́̚͝m̴̧̧̰͕͈̣̬̰̯̰̦̲̣̀͂̋̐̿͛̚̕̚ë̵͍̤́͠.̶̩̞̻̭̯̘̥̪̥̱̰̅



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Because I H̷̢̧̻̭̹͎͚̭̤̤̲̲̦̹̹̣̞̪͈̞̤͚̰̰̞͔̥̠̲̱̮͓̳̞̪͈̺̦̘̲̺͑̅̽̔̑́̆̄̑̿̒͑̏̑̾̌̈́͑͆͘͜͝­̝͎Ă̶̢̧̡̛̰͕͇̹͙̹͕͉͕̞̥̗͔̭̪̣͙̦͔̥͈̬̼͛͑̑̓̏͊̓̄̌̒͗̈́̾͆̓̊̿͛́̊̈́̓̃̀̎̒̽͘̕͝͝͝ͅ­T̸̡̢̮͓̩͉̞̥͍̻͉̯̠̮̩̪̺̥̪̥̤̦͙̤̯̞͖͈̠͎̰̫̬̠̩̯̜͖͙͓̦̞̬̯̀̂̒͐͛̄̋͋͆́͐͋͘͝͝ͅͅE̸­͇̤̖̲̟̲̾͊͆̇̄̃̀̓͊͊͆̏́̕͜͠ you.
Frank Nov 2018
I'm not addicted, I just take it in the mourning to get out of bed!
I'm not addicted, I just take it to sharpen my mind in classes!
I'm not addicted, I just take it to relax afterwards!

I'm not addicted, I just need it to keep the memories away!
I'm not addicted, I just need it to keep my thoughts in line!
I'm not addicted, I just need it to keep going.
Frank Nov 2018
If
If I'm not feeling sick, I can pick up another bottle
If I can still hold the ****, I can take another hit
If I can still hold the e-cig, I haven't had enough nicotine

If the hunger is still bearable, I can sleep another hour
If the assignment isn't due, it can wait another day
If I won't throw up, I can take another bite
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