Joyfulgurl

Joyfulgurl Nov 2022

I have a beautiful boy
And a body I don’t recognise
I’m marked with lines like a map
That shows my journey
It was a one way trip
There is no going back

I have a beautiful boy
And a body I don’t recognise
That has gone through some resizing
But that’s hardly surprising
He needed the room to dance like he does
To grow and kick and move

I have a beautiful boy
And a body I don’t recognise
It’s aged and got tired
But that’s okay
I wouldn’t have it any other way
It’s worked very hard
to make those lashes
Those curls, that smile
That laugh

#pregnancy #postpartum #baby #body

Joyfulgurl Nov 2019

Making Habits

Take my pills
Make it a habit
Remember to eat
Make it habit
Light the candles
Make it a habit

Do it again
And again
And again

Pills are a tool
Eating is my fuel
Candles burn like
The Fire in my belly
That can burn out
But I can relight
Every single night

Joyfulgurl Nov 2019

Bear in a Cave

I want to be a bear in a cave
Not for long
Just til I get strong

I want to lick my wounds
No big deal
Its just until I heal

I want to be left alone
Please don’t moan
I will come home

Just leave me in my cave
Let me be alone to feel
Everything I need to heal
It won’t be long
Until I get strong
and
When the time is right
I will come out

Joyfulgurl Nov 2019

Fate

I wish I could have stopped you
Making this mistake
But now it’s too late
And this is our fate
All I can do it wait
And
Only Time will tell
If we can get through this hell

Joyfulgurl Nov 2019

Doubt

I miss the trust I had for you
I miss living with no doubt
Now Theres nothing but doubt
As I try to work it all out
I miss seeing our future so clearly
And now it’s nothing but blurry
I miss feeling safe
But This is what I have to face
As you knocked us out of place

Joyfulgurl Nov 2019

Capable

I didn’t think you were capable of any of this
And now I know you are capable of all of this

Joyfulgurl Nov 2019

Wind on my face

I miss the rush of wind on my face
As I’m floating on a boat
In the middle of the sea
This is where I want to be
Looking out to sea
When looking becomes a stare
Wind in my hair
At the top of a cliff
Standing as a close As I dare
Looking out to sea
Wind on my face
Being in the sea
Waves crashing over me
Wind in my face
Looking out to sea
Me, Just being with me