I am a villain in somebody’s story
Multiple perhaps
more than likely

And that is excruciating.

I wish I could’ve done right by every single one of them

    So every indention of me left brings only warmth

what happens when you fall in love with somebody

                                          in a dream?

words
pixelated and white
drawing from a blindness of absolution
in my hands

if what you said rings true,
I never grew
and Foresight implied intrinsic lies
I could never rectify

the monsters I pushed and pulled from her
grew loud in my brain
a steady purr
as I sunk
and sink
into the person I never wanted to be.

dull, white lights
and softer smiles
a gentle touch
in hindsight files

replay and replay
in flickering lights
I can't reach out
but I know you fight

the same desires.

tension present and always grows
face to face
where nobody knows

but me and you.

When you really think
what was the end of us all
desire dirt and gold

                  Kelly McManus

All of the learning
was wasted on pettiness
and frivolity

               Kelly McManus

I finally found a pulsing draw
to pull me from my faults
Something that brought my heart to life
and sang beyond past falls
I fell in hard, I fell in fast
and in it I found ways
To free the darkness of my heart
and let it roar in waves.

I can talk about it

Easy

How my body slips between the sheets
The things I do while on my knees

It’s beautiful

I’m proud of the pleasure of my skin
Always looking for ways to win
The attention of what makes me feel good

I can talk about it

But does holding that pleasure
And lustrous needs
Out of the hands of hungry thieves
Deplete my sexuality?

I don’t think so.
I’m no lesser of promiscuous
Because I pick and choose of us
Those I share myself with