Heard a familiar song,
As sleep beckoned once more
Only to close the door
At the the crossing
Where I find you,
Obscure.

Drifted away to sleep...

As it fell upon me,
I heard your voice so clearly,
Looked at your face,
But there isn't a trace
To be found,
Familiar sound,
Something isn't clear.
Something doesn't compute.

A new day beckons,
Awaken,
Rise up,
Live it.

A sound in the crowd,
A face takes hold,
Merely a figment
Of my daydreams and worst dreams,
Come back to this life.

I could hold your hand,
If only I could find it,
Finding you lost,
On the Verge
Of something new...

Gazed
Upon distant
Streaks of
Energy
As they
Appeared
To be blurs
In the darkened
Vault of heaven.

Hello…
Introspect?
You reflect inside,
Deep within.
You need subtle reminders
To look out.

Introspect?
Hello…
You hear a person in the distance say out loud,
“This is my favorite place to watch the sunset in the city...”
Introspect, looks out.

It needs these subtle reminders sometimes.
Suddenly introspect leaves for a few minutes time;
And, it’s so sublime to be out of your mind.

To see the snow kissed mountain peaks in full clarity,
Back-lit by pale pink sky so serene.
For a moment, you forget what was going on inside.
The sunset so saturating,
Orange juice might easily be squeezed from its rays.
Then you eye the towering crystal-clear star on the hill,
And for a few more seconds you forget
Introspect.






Hello…

An intro
Of instrumental
Snow—
Captures
This Void,
And it’s not
Winter
Anymore.

Tracing
This triangle,
Temporarily
Drawn in.

The pavement
Expanded
To the Milky Way,
And I escaped
The presence,
Inside.

Warmth
Of fire
Over cold
Steel,
Unveiling
Someone’s
View,
Still.

Sparks
Flew over
Desert Dust,
A phantom
In this present time.

Saguaros
Lined Hills
At Dusk.

Manifesting,
Stolen hearts
Stealing others’.

Otherworldly,
As if
To discern
No difference
Between
This life
And the last.

Wake up,
Come up
From below
The depths
That hold you, hold me too
This life isn’t real
Hypnotizing melody
Plays out in this reality
Otherworldly songs
Call you
What is it that you want
Me to show you
Living to sleep,
Living to wake,
Sometimes
We just need to
Open our eyes
And know what
It feels like to
Be awake

Simple Life
Is what I live
No need to impress
Taking joy in this
It's freeing
Like birds flying
Butterfly landing
Rain falling
Ocean calling
Sand between toes
Sun's warming
Eyes opening
Each day
Beautiful music
Waves racing
Hot tea and writing
Resting as day
Is ******* to dark
Waking to a new day
To realize
The gift is life itself
Restarting with each new breath.

Day ended,
I drifted away
Because I no longer
Wanted to stay awake,
Where did I go?
It's a place where someone
Loves me and won't let go
It's a place only in my mind
Where I believe it's so

No longer
Trying
To follow
False hearts
To the edge
Of the earth,
Finished
Pouring cups
Over lost love letters,
Lit up by the smallest
Flame,
In this moment,
I’m my only
Friend and enemy.

Silhouettes taunt the human mind,
Then you think you've seen a ghost;
Worked in a historical building,
Thought I eyed a cowboy
Walking by, dusty;
Done with the day.
Shapes twisted in peripheral vision,
Even so, no one was there.
Only shadows passed by.

Took a hand
Not meant
To last

Released its hold
Never looked back

One day, one day
How will it feel?

I’d keep holding
On for as long
As you'd let me

It could be
Real this time
It could be
Real.

Do you ever
Journey to
The Ever Glow?
It’s a mist
Covered
Jungle,
With just
Enough
Fleeting
Daylight
To find
The path
Leading
To
Anywhere.

Danced down
To the merry-go-round
Horses whirled up & down
Spun in circles around
Lifted off the ground
Then gently back down
Lights of many tints
Blended delightfully with
Sugary songs that sounded
Of Childhood memories
And tasted of cotton candy
Kisses on the carousel ride

Close your eyes,
Thoughts
Passing in-and-out----
All the time...
Singing songs
Of many genres.

I think I've
Heard this one
Before,
And the rain
Gently taps
On the windowsill,
And leaves on trees
Whisper-
Sleep please.

The mind playing
Tricks,
With each paradox.

My finger circling,
A square box.

Always
An illusion,
On the outside.

Contradicting
On the inside...
Are our lives,
Sometimes.

They play constantly,
Until drained
And empty.

Diving into
Dark blue waters,
Waves
Overcoming
The undertow,
Pulling and pulling.

It's all in...
What you believe.

Slowly
Unbolted,
An aperture
Inside.

Mind.

A rift
Settles
In.

There is
No measure
Of seconds,
Or hours.

Time.

Finding
Reassurance
In
What billboards
Display
As
Happiness.

Everywhere,
Every time.

Running, running, running;
You can't leave this world.

Behind.

Feeding,
So blind.
Constantly
Monitoring
Others.

Lives.

Judging blindly;
To take a glance
In the mirror.

Sometimes.

Knowing
It's a
Far
Cry
From
Circumstances.

Here.

Is that what
Brings
Us closer
To finding
What we
Seek?

Displayed
In the form of
Material
And Physical
Things...

Nothing in
This
World,
Can
Satiate.

This aperture.

See.

The wind blew
Fast, like shooting stars.

Bridges linked,
Supersonic speeds,
Crossed oceans,
Networks
Of waves
And branches
Traveled
Above
Salt-Water-Smoke;
For miles, bespoke.

Swiftly carried
By air;
To arrive
Out of nowhere.

Shut the doors,
Closed them tight.
Kept the breeze
Out
On that cold, cold
Night.

What happens tomorrow
If today dies?
Fate aligns together
In another life
See you there
Where time bends
And there are no ends

Sand through
Fingers
Finding
It all
Gone
Away,
Back to
The Sea
With
The West Wind.

Eyes opening-
Murky waters
Drowning out
Clear sight.

Before it
Was my
Dreamscape.

Droplets
Clear and
Showering,
Building up
To new
Heights.

Unfamilar,
A new flame.

This shadow
Replays
Night
After
Night.

It vanishes
With time
Only
To call
Me
Near again.

He's standing over
You,
Offering a kiss
As you leave
The room,
Rings falling
Upon a
Wooden
Tabletop.

"It's just a vision,"
You tell yourself
As you
Lay fully alert,
Sending
Words
Honestly
Wrote.

It's dangerous,
Stay away-
But he keeps
Watching you,
Calling you
Back into his arms.

The silence
Soothes you
To sleep.

Now on
Never-ending,
Repeat.

It's just
A
Dreamscape.

I should
Stop thinking
And sleep.

Now or
Never.

Which is better?

You must be
Strong if you
Will carry on
You must be
Able to put
Your heart
Out there
Until it
Can break
No more
What forces
Tears just
Means
You were
Made for
An unbreakable
Love
Story

Take it down to the ground,
Take it down to the cattails
And drown your legs
Up to your knees in lake water,
In nature’s loving arms, again.
No longer a kid, and it’s okay.
Take it down, take it down.
Don’t wait, this day was made
For you, me, for us.
So, just take it down, take it down.
Let the stream and polished stones
Set you free...
Until your feet find growing grass.
Take it down, take it down.
It’s all around,
Take it down
To nature's sound.

Somewhere,
Some place,
Breaking
Glass cages,
Holding us
Back,
Then
Maybe-
Things
Would
Change,
In these places,
Many different
Faces.

What are you feeling?

Just let me
Be like a
Chameleon,
Molding,
And shaping
With
Each situation.

It's the only way-
Automatic,
Adaptation.

For once,
Coming out,
Of hiding.

Magenta
Streaks
Revealed.

Remember when it rained,
Poured down in stripes
It always falls
Melancholy on
Shoulders & shoes
Where do we go
When it leaves
Where do we go
A bird soars out
An open window
To the deepest blue
The words the glue
On mended wings
A bird soars high

All I have to give you are these words.

I can’t take anymore
Maybe I’m better
Off alone in this life
You offered glimpses
Of a love I’ve never
Known, and all
I can do is miss
What we might
Never have. I,
Cried myself to sleep
In an endless river
Dissolved my thoughts
As I painted a picture,
With the words
You spilled.
My hopes soared
High on cloud nine
I thought that
We would
Be falling asleep
In each other’s arms
One night.
I thought that
We could live like
Our daydreams.
I thought that maybe
Our daydreams
Would one day,
Come true.

In the end,
All I have
To give
Are these words
For you

It's hard to let go and hold on

Let go for a little while...

Dangling from a star
In ebony space

Invisible,
Dangling
Hanging on to how it feels
Drowned in incandescence

Lost in the void
Lost in the void

Touched your fingertip
Before floating away

Oh no
Where did you go
Oh no
Found yourself,
The tip of where
You can't see
Or ever go

Lost in the void
Lost in the void

Always dangling there
Waiting for a glimpse
Of something far off,
Galactic

Still hanging on,
Dangling,
Crystalline trellis
Covered head to toe
With heavenly glow
Danced in Jupiter's rain  
Under Callisto's light
And nothing could compare
Shining with a million colors
The whole time
Dangling

Lost in the void
Lost in the void

Not all know the tales
Of sorrow some hold
Deep beneath the skin
Those that also suffer
Can feel it more than
Those that don't know
What hides behind it

Tears fall,
Connecting
All these dots
In the "dot" book,
Like a game...
There once was a child,
With pencil in hand,
Drawing constellations,
Little lines came together,
Tool in hand,
The creator of the universe
Was born

Yellow tabby sits in the window,
Tail sways from side-to-side  
In rhythm with the droplets outside,
Outside where the lake’s surface
Is broken by a thousand beats on its drum,
Pitter-patter, pitter-patter, over and over.
Tears cascade down from heaven’s gates,
And create flowing streams that boil with
Steam and pressure to form a fountain
That splashes from the surface to the sky.
Pitter-patter, pitter-patter, over and over.
Yellow tabby sits in the window,
Eyes move from side-to-side,
In no particular rhythm with the outside,
Outside where the lake’s surface
Is no longer broken by a thousand beats
On its drum.
The sun emerges
To clear the stage.

Materialized
Up
To
The Ether,
Only
To return
Back
To
Earth,
After
You disappeared-
Trying to
Remember...
What
It was like
There,
Looking down
From
The Inside
Out
Into
Another life.

Thoughts break free
That feeling of longing
For you
This is crazy
It could never be
Feelings for you
Make me insane
Thoughts of us
Continue
To break free
Light in the dark
Heart in the cold
Ice in the hot
In minutes you’re gone
These thoughts invade
Thoughts of you
Thoughts of love
Thoughts of us
Continue
To break free

A sky
Scattered
With Constellations,
That's where
I found
Gemini.

Do you really believe
There is
Truth to this?

Pointing up
Above, to
Find
Love.

Falling to
The ground
Soft with
Green
And
Little flowers,
You place one
In your own
Hair and
Laugh.

Me next?
No thanks.

You want to
Kiss here
With
All these
People around?

Lost and found,
We wait
Until we
Are above ground
On a Ferris Wheel
As it spins
Then stops
With time.

My Gemini.

They say,
"Good things
Come to those
That wait."

A Dream
Came True,
In a place
Hidden
From disgrace.

Is this
The end
Of
The escape?

Merely
Blinded
By walls?

Just as
The memory fades,
A sound calls
As if telepathic.

Thoughts-
Always,
Crossing over,
To the opposite
Side,
Of the Spectrum.

Unknowingly...

Like ghosts-
Figments,
There,
In the mind.
(Visiting only for a short time)

Built a bridge,
For you
To climb
Across.

Laying bricks,
So high-
Never
To collapse,
Again.

A voice,
Echoes
Following behind,
Never to
Subside,
Calling
From within.

Throughout.
Through them.

Just Ghosts...

Ever sit up straight,
Deep Am, but you’re
Not dreaming,
Anymore?

To wake in a state,
Where you question,
Existence,
All of it.

Dream state, wide awake, heartbeat, breathe deep, drift to sleep.

It's a scary world
Out there
Run from
Mr. Big Bad Wolf
A story told
To children
To warn
Them of
This world

Steady grip
Pressed down
To pull you up
Held with
All my strength
To pull you up
From below ground
No matter how
Hard I tried
To pull you up
You stayed down

Keep it safe,
Hold it forever,
Never let it go,
Keep it whole,
Not to break again
In this lifetime,
So full of hope,
You'd hold my hand
Close to your heart,
I believe your words
Are true,
Hand on your chest,
Smiling sweetly,
Two hearts
Beat as one.

We all have
Veins,
Underneath
Our skin.

I try to forget,
But keep
Remembering.

Used to be
Pulled down
With each
Word like a knife.

Now I'm
Lifting myself
Up-
Although,
Each day
Is a
Fight.

Just have to
Keep on,
Moving towards
The Light.

Sometimes
I hear
Your words
In my mind,
Then
Those of another,
And another,
It's the same
Every time.

There is
A spirit
Though,
That's always
By my side.

Across an ocean deep,
Heart in box,
You keep.

Eyes fixed on the desert stretching its tired body across the earth

Years fly by and before you know it you are no longer staring across the way on that one certain day,
It's ten years later, twenty, thirty, nearing the end, and you think,
what will I be...

Will I be forever living in a dream,
and is all that surrounds us not what it seems?

The ocean casts cerulean
Its eyes a fatigued gaze
Paralyzed in your presence
Concealed and unscathed

On the surface...

All the while,
My feelings drown in
Your waves,
Reaching out to touch you...
Realizing I'm powerless...
Staring up at your slate sun.

You've been there by my side
This whole time.

I pray only that you do not
Leave me to catch
Your falling embers
When you're gone.

I pray that one day
We'll be with each other always.

I pray that I don't have to wait
Any more months or years
To kiss you,
And for it to be real.

I ask God why tonight,
And tomorrow I'll sit by your side
As if nothing ever changed.

Long-suffering in this hidden truth,
Powerless to say a word.
The reality is my soul is saddened
That you are not here with me now,
All I can do is dream of you,
A smile on your face.
I'll see you tomorrow,
And you might never
Know what I feel for you.

Feet
Stepping
Down
To meet
The soft ground.

Warmed
By the Sun-
Permeating
From Up
And Underneath
Tall Aspen trees,
Following
A Beautiful Stream,
Mossy Rocks
Covering
Natural
Staircases
Leading to
A Tranquil Place
That calls
You near.

Resting there,
Removing
The walls that
Confine you.

It's a Sanctuary-
Peace,
Comes and
Finds you.

Jellyfish,
You look in,
You’re
Reaching
But you
Can’t feel, see.
It’s like
You’re
A Jellyfish,
Moving
Along, be.
In distant
Waters,
But you
Can’t
Capture me.
Leading
Me on,
While I’m
Drowning
Here
In
The
Ocean’s
Waters.
Digested.
Carnivorously
Bright,
No brain.
Falling
In the dark,
No heart?
Are you,
A
Jellyfish?

A Scene
Comes to mind.
Evading reality.
Waves
Of comfort
Covering.
A vast ocean
Of warmth
Descending.
Resilience
The framework
Surrounding.
Safe here
In this passageway
Pretending.

Essence emanates
On clear glass
Scraping hurricanes
Streaks racing
As if rivers
Forming to
See who
Finishes first.

Worn tennis shoes hit pavement on repeat,
Broken records from the past droned like it was meant
To last, all moves so fast, say you just need a little
More,
A few more seconds,
To strike a chord,
To rest and recover, mourn your loss, move on, don’t stop now.
Like a broken record, words and voices repeat and live forever.
Nothing is ever truly lost.
It plays on even when we move on,
Rubber soles hit the cement every day,
Broken records always play,
Leave them in the dust,
Sometimes this is easier said than done.

Reached
For your light
In the black
Of night,
Thought I
Felt it faintly,
Your hand
Fell into mine,
Heartbeat
Frozen,
Would
Your heart
Melt into
Mine...
Maybe
We are
Onto
Something
Real,
This time.

I closed my eyes,
And it was suddenly clear.
The Grand Precipice,
On the Edge of the Horizon Near-
As I escaped into
The “Outer Space.”

So far from here,
To somewhere in-between,
And when I returned
I gasped for air
To catch my breath as
It had left.

I watched it all
Come to be,
As it unfolded
Before me
In a series of images
That were all but
Erased upon waking
As if mirages.
Still present,
Yet unclear-
Only to disappear once near.

I felt complete
In this colorful picture show
As it surreally unfolded
Like paper snowflakes
Falling from “Nowhere,”
Unraveling
Through mid-air.

I held on…
If only in a dream.

Wheels hit
The ground,
Over
And over
Repeatedly
Until
Coming to
An End.
Life All Around,
From
Many cultures
And backgrounds
Unfamiliar, Beautiful.
What are you
Making with bacon?
"Bacon and pancakes."
"Oh, you are shy?"
Just a chuckle.  
Women,
Their bodies covered
Head to Toe
Surrounded by
Laughing Children.
Noodles and
The smell of
Cooking fish
Carried
With a breeze,
On a quiet day,
Unassuming
And simplistic.
In a daze,
Excuse me,
"You have to get off the bus."
"Oh, so sorry."
Tall buildings,
New mazes.
Numbers and Letters
All going to different
Places.
Sad patches
On some streets-
Others
Where people stroll
Merrily, arms interlinked.
"This is my city though,"
The cab driver
Recites after
Giving his personal
Insights
On plights-
Honest and open.
In a small corner
Building
Punk bands play,
And
It doesn't matter
Who you are
As there
Isn't any segregation,
Everyone is accepted,
A man dressed like
***** Wonka
Stands front row...
Another person
Wears knee high
Socks and sandals
Dancing in
A unique way.
All ages, all races.
Different backgrounds.
Various conversations
About many subjects
And no one judges.

It's
My Torture,
A Long Lost Love;
At the same time,
A curse
As these words
Constantly
Haunt me
Like little ghosts,
Throughout
The Day.

....And night.

In dreams....

All the time.

So strange
This world
So strange
Sometimes

Life depicted
So happy
In items
Advertised

So busy
Looking out
Ads bleached
With subliminal
Messages
Magnified
To no end
Sometimes
It's easy to
Forget
To look
Within.

So intricately
Woven,
As if of
Silk Thread,
To gaze
Upon
A Spider's Web.

Sunny Day,
Beams
Breaking
Through.

Green leaves,
Swaying
Effortlessly.

It lays
High up,
Balancing
Steadily,
Despite
A constant
Breeze.

Holding
Securely,
The captured
Souls of
Unfortunate
Fates.

Quickly spun,
Encapsulated
Tombs
Afloat...

She waits
For the next
Prey,
Weaving
Her artistry,
Day by day.

Life-
In a
Spider's web.