What do you mean
I'm not allowed to scream?
When I'm letting go of what once
Was a huge dream
Meant to ignore what I've always
Wanted to be
Im being told what I should go and be
But I'm not good at the lie
I'm forced to live
How do i watch my lights go from
Bright to dim ?
Tell me how am I not allowed to scream?
I live like a bird locked in a cage
My every move controlled
by you with rage
But at the window I'll always look
with some sort of 'hate'
Knowing these walls are the only distance I'll ever pace
I wonder if I'll ever make it out
of this place
But one day you fed me and forgot
To lock the cage, I looked over
at the open window
I close my eyes and opened them again
Hoping my eyes arnt telling lies
My heart in my throat
Not daring to hope
I blinked once again and I could feel
The wind blowing through
my feathers , calling me ...
But I just stood there
And from my eyes fell a single tear
Finally you weren't here
This is what I've always dreamed
Is it finally my chance to scream?
But what's holding me back ?
Do I no longer know how to fly?
Do I want to cry?
Indecisive is what I'll always be
Cause you long ago decided the lie
I've forever lived
And just as I'm about to take a leap
Spread my wings and
stop being the little leaf
I'm really about to leave
I won't need to scream
What was once a huge dream will be
A life I will now live .
But it seems like all I wasted was time
Because into the air I was about to dive
Instead my eyes opened wide
And I saw the light of the sun...
It was morning and
The window was open
The cage was locked....
Just how it's always been
But now I don't think I want to scream
I don't like this constant dream
So this lie I'll learn to love and live
But I will never scream
Though it was quite nice to dream...
Learn to choose yourself before anyone else...