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Honeybee Apr 2021
I’m tired of feeling like my mind is an inescapable prison
Honeybee Apr 2021
I want for someone to hold me and love me
And I want to be able to feel safe in their arms
Honeybee Mar 2021
I ask myself everyday



Why am I so ****** up?



I still don’t have a valid answer
Honeybee Mar 2021
My parents have been asking me if I want to go back
Back to the place that tore me down on so many different levels
Back to the place that shattered me
The place that turned that sweet little girl into the broken and aggressive one that they see today
Back to the place that was so terrifying that no matter where I went it haunted me day and night
The place that was so exhausting but so terrible that I could barely sleep at night
Back to the place that was so awful that I felt the need to **** myself
The place that made me feel that the only way I’d get out is if I died
The place that I lived in for twelve years but will make me question everyone for what they want till the day I am six feet under
The place where I couldn’t even go to school as an escape because it was just as bad there as it was at home
Back to that hellhole that was run by my father



The place that I will never go back to
I may not know much but I honestly feel like that my parents are trying to get rid of me at this point
I’m sorry if I sound like a whiny brat for writing if I do just let me know
Honeybee Mar 2021
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i don’t even know why I try to be fine anymore
who am I even trying to please?
I’ve already hit rock bottom
I’ve lost everyone
I’ve given up on everything
There’s no point in trying to be okay anymore
Honeybee Mar 2021
Being alive
Being happy
Being confident
Is something that I thought I could achieve at one point
Now I realize that was a stupid thought
Honeybee Mar 2021
My emotions and thoughts are just like an ocean
And I’m drowning on the last bits of the boat of insecurities
And I’m barely surviving on the lifeboat of being “fine”
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