I'll miss his voice. The way he'd say I love you or the way he'd sing his L's.
I'll miss laying on his chest with my leg wrapped around his. That was when I felt home.
I'll miss watching him dance. So goofy, and so cute.
I'll miss his hands. His gentle touch, his strong touch.
I'll miss his veins. I loved tracing them with my fingers in awe that they are what keeps him alive.
I'll miss his smile. There was a certain one, and it made everything in life seem okay
I'll miss the way his burritos would fall apart.
I'll miss his kisses. So filled with love, they'd give me butterflies.
I'll miss watching his lip twitch when I'd touch it. It was one of my favorite things.
I'll miss him getting me to adventure with him. He made my life so much more exciting.
I'll miss making him ***. The sounds, the faces, the taste.
I'll miss falling asleep with him, and waking up to sleepy kisses.
I'll miss taking showers with him. Feeling so exposed and letting him touch me all over.
I'll miss making him food. I loved taking care of him.
I'll miss having him comfort me. He always made me feel so safe. Like when we would go camping and I'd get scared of the sounds.
I'll miss having him tell me howcute, pretty or beautiful I looked everyday.
I'll miss his curved toes. And laughing at them and having him get embarrassed.
I'll miss his cantagious laugh. I now laugh like him sometimes.
I'll miss seeing his cute **** when he'd get up to put pants on. And trying to touch it.
I'll miss standing on my tip toes to try and be as tall as him. I never was.
I'll miss trying to act tough and wrestle him. I never won.
I'll miss getting his goodnight texts.
I'll miss picturing our lives together when we're older.
I'll miss how goofy he gets when he's high. Even though I sometimes wasn't in the mood.
I'll miss the weird looking animals that he thinks are cute.
I'll miss him kissing my feet. He's the only person I can let touch them.
I'll miss plucking his eyebrows and trying to hurt him.
I'll miss all the weird selfies he takes on my phone.
I'll miss driving around with him.
I'll miss how excited he was about his pins, and his games. Even though I made fun of him.. I wish I didnt.
I'll miss talking to him. About anything and everything.
I'll miss feeling so loved
I'll miss everything about him.


I keep reading that to get over someone, you should try to remember all the things you didn't like about them. But there isnt anything. I loved everything, all his imperfections, everything.


I wish I would've appreciated all these things more. I wish I would've known the last time that I would've witnessed everyone of these things.

I wish this wasn't happening.

My heart grows a little happier each day.

As the days grow shorter, the wind blows stronger, and the leaves turn darker.

*I ache for this season all year round

There are a lot of things in life that i take for granted, but you my dear should not be one of them.

I was sad for a while, quite a long while.

And i never felt beautiful.

I couldn't sit there with myself without letting my thoughts destroy me, without wanting to destroy myself.

And that caused me to almost destroy the most important relationship in my life.

There was nothing beautiful about it.

But now I'm happy.

Now I'm happier than I've ever been.

And I kindof do feel beautiful, for once in my life.

Because I look at him, and how happy I can make him now, and i can see the beauty in me that I think he sees.

I can see it reflecting back at me in his eyes, in his smile, in his voice.

There was no beauty in my sadness.

But this, where I'm at right now,
This is beauty.

The best feeling in the world has got to be falling asleep with a smile on your face every single night.
Because you can't help but think of his smile,
Or the way you feel when you hear his heart beat with your head lying on his chest,
Or the way he makes you feel when he kisses you all over.



*And these feelings are only getting better.

There's something comforting about crying yourself to sleep with a storm raging outside your window.

The rain, your tears.
The howling wind, your sobs.
The thunder, your pounding heart.

Almost as if you're crying, so the world is crying with you.

If there's one thing i would tell you right now, it'd be that i love you.

I love you i love you i love you.

I've loved you since the day i met you, and I'll love you till the day i die.

Hey Haley, I'm Willem.

From the moment those words escaped from between those lips, I wanted more.

I remember barely glancing up as i said hello.

Because you were the most beautiful person i had ever seen.

But i had already learned that i wasn't going to let myself feel things anymore, let alone let somebody in.

But when i got home, my mind was filled with you.
With your voice,
Your lips,
Those words.

And i knew i needed more more more.

And then we started talking on a daily basis.

And i still wanted more.

You taught me that feeling things is what makes us be alive, and i can honestly say that i was not living until the day i met you.

And before i knew it, 2 years have gone by.

And here we are.

My mind is still filled with you.
Your voice,
Your touch,
Your thrusts.

Your smile,
And your laugh.

And if there's one thing i would tell you right now, it'd be that i love you.

And you've given me so much more than i could've ever asked for.

But I'll always need more.

More of your voice,
More of your touch,
More of your smiles
And your laughs.
More of your thrusts,

And most importantly,
More of you.