The past is the past
But I never understood
What moving forward meant
Or how anyone could.

Rapid fire memories
Could sink this floating ship
Into the cruel undertow
My blur heart would dip.

The fondest of relationships
Have been worn to one side each
And the glued on ruby lenses
Will not let them teach.

Perhaps I shall sink
And mourn what time tore
I do not have the strength
To swim forward anymore.

I am a selfish girl
Laughing as much as I do
Smiling as much as I can
And forcing you to laugh to

Telling jokes you can’t resist
Just to see you grin
Show me your beautiful joy
And maybe I can win

And when you can’t find your laugh
Hand to me your heart
The pieces it’s in don’t matter
I’ll fix what falls apart

Because I’m a selfish girl
And if you’ve had yet to see
I’ll hold your world together
So that I don’t have to fix me

You grabbed my heart
I turned to look
You're the hope that vanished
But it was my world that shook

Your smile is a pick
Strumming at the strings
And as you walk by
Every bird sings

And I am a shadow
The moon to your sun
Made for whispers and tears
Not smiles and fun

I'm stuck in the back
Raising my hand
All eyes to you
And I don't understand

I'm not admired
No one cares for my work
My personality's flawed
Unlike yours that has quirk

No one will see me
With that gleam in their eye
The way they see you
The best butterfly

I absolutely wonder
If maybe you can see
The long and lanky demons
That sit and stare at me

In the corners of my room
They sit and stare at night
In the edges of my vision
Just within my sight

And I just can't help but wonder
Which set of eyes I should trust
The ones that say demons don't exist
Or the ones that say they must

And you must understand
My reality is twisted
What I continue to deny
Has gone on and persisted

And I have to wonder
That if I close my eyes
If the demons remain
Or if they're but a vanishing lie.