Grey - Hello Poetry

Grey Feb 2022

Haunted by dreams throughout the night,
Echoing voices fill the room.
As the sun travels across the sky the gods force me to wait
Is this the lesson of patience,
Is this the test?
Though my heart is heavy & my mind races
I hear the voice,
“Be still, patience. If you long for revenge cast upon us. Justice is swift and true. Be still.”
I make my offerings to Odin seeking wisdom and protection for me
I offer to Baldur to watch over my love.
To Vali I ask for vengeance against the one who harmed her.
Haunted by the echoed voices of the many.
Rage fills my soul and yet here I stay,
Still.

Grey Feb 2022

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I leave it in the hands of the gods.
I ask that they are merciful on her just as they have been with me,
I ask that they are swift in Justice with him as they were with me.

Grey Feb 2022

Cycles

Endless laughs & gaming
Seeing your smile brighten the room,
Good vibes & a connection that even we can’t explain.
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Suddenly the countdown begins,
The cycle continues.
He apologizes, you make it work.
And somehow I am the scapegoat to the underlying problem.
So I am cast aside,
Discarded because I am only one thing.
The Blame.
And because I will always care for you I will be the blame.
Cast it all on me I can take it,
I know my place,
I practice my craft well.
My only wish is that if I could stretch out our time together just a little longer before you say goodbye…
Once again…

Grey Feb 2022

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It’s days like this that I wish the bullet hadn’t jammed in the chamber,
That the car had burned.
That it all ended.

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If only the gun hadn’t jammed,
I held it to the side of my head.
At last sweet comfort of silence for eternity.
An end to all the hurt, the pain, the end of everything no one could understand.
The feeling loneliness gone, no more arguments or longing to be heard.
No more waking up and smiling so everyone knows you’re okay.
No more pressures, just instantaneous end.
Yet it jammed.
And to this day I hate myself for it,
For not finding another way.
Maybe now someday it’ll end in a peaceful way,
She would hurt…
Yet I think she understands
That I am truly exhausted.
I’m ready to go.

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The ravens, the eagles.
They would circle the tree outside my window, I’d heard their caws throughout my lifetime.
My love, she tells me the gods have watched over me for years.
The pain and suffering we’ve endured yet somehow overcome in extraordinary ways.
Yet the same signs, the ravens & the eagles.
We’ve both grew up with them.
For now we both know, the gods watch over us and even now continue to show us their mercy.

Grey Feb 2022

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“Who hurt you?”
She asked softly in the dim lit room.
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“Her among many others, many whom came in the form of love, comfort, safety or the promise of happiness.”
He said while his mind wandered into the dark corners
“She became the best and the worst all so quickly, and I was foolish enough to believe her words of love and kindness for actions do indeed speak louder than words. History repeats and eventually we’re all pawns in her game.”