Golden Flower

Golden Flower Dec 2019

Emotions

I don’t know where my emotions stand,
I wish I could truly understand,
I feel guilt and pain every time I here your name,
I feel unworthy and undeserving of the love you gave me,
You and me ended things because of my family.
And this random guy,
Caught my eye,
But I find myself comparing,
At this point I don’t even know why I’m sharing.

I need so much freaking help. I hate all these emotions. I know I’m young bit I feel like I spend a lifetime with my first love. I keep comparing and comparing. It’s not fair to either of them. I wish I could just throw all my emotions away.

Golden Flower Dec 2019

Creature

Sitting there in the dark silence,
Hidden in the deep shadows,
Watching with interest in your eyes,
I see you every night,
Watching me in fright.
I fear you and you fear me,
Please tell me what is it that you see.
Silent Creature of the night.
Your mystic figure is such a sight.

Golden Flower Dec 2019

Why?

I write and I write,
I dream and I dream,
Sometimes life is not all that it seems,
I think and I think,
Just letting all these emotions sink.

Dec 2019

Semi-literate Poet

1,000,000

Do you think a girl could love a boy who writes for her a million poems? That's what I plan to do.

Golden Flower Dec 2019

My Heart

My heart beats quickly and intensely,
Why am is this feeling forming for you?
You're dorky and broken,
You say some of the realest **** to be spoken.
I feel evil for my heart falling for you,
I had another love and he was kind just like you,
He treated me like royalty,
With his love he spoiled me,
So, Why is this feeling forming for you?
Internally screaming out of excitement and fear;
Why is my heart choosing to make you dear?

I Still care for my ex. Yes, we had romance but it was rooted in friendship, and I'm glad it stayed. He means a lot to me and I hope he only gets the best. But I met this guy and I feel like I'm falling for him. I'm on top of the world when i talk to him and he makes me smile so much it hurts. I kinda feel wrong for developing feelings. I honestly don't know how to deal with this.

Golden Flower Dec 2019

My First

I may not be content but I am at ease
We never fought but we would tease
We both let go of our tight grips
I wish I could say our hands just slipped
We never had animosity, we were always faithful
And for this first love I am grateful
I gently breathe and try to slowly let go
I will always love you, this I hope you know
I won’t hold my breath and I won’t hold onto pain
Just know that your hug is what has kept me sane.
I hold you in my heart and mind,
Thank you for always being so sweet and kind.

He will never end up reading this poem but its okay. These are just things I wish I had the guts to say after our break up.

Golden Flower Nov 2019

Do Flowers Mourn

Do the flowers mourn when one is picked?
I know that question is kinda morbid and sick.
But I’ve always wondered if they somehow know,
Like for weddings and birthdays that it’s their time to go?

Do they feel sorry for lovestruck dames,
That pull off petals whilst saying their crushes’ names,
That pulled the last petal on “He loves me not”?
Do they feel bad that she’s distraught?

Do they compete on who’s the prettiest?
Each person has an opinion of which flower is the best,
Of their looks are they actually aware,
Do flowers even care?