Meet you on false pretenses though it was convenient I was to much appreciative of the the brutal taps through out the night as we slept as friends in the same area
You was a woman with promiscuous intentions but was dealing with self esteem issues as if that had anything to do with it I offered myself to your life as a gentlemen, as you announced I was your first relationship and I took that in consideration and treated you as gentle as welded flowered should be tended to.
We shared moments and made memories conversations was of future reference of the possessible of stablemates in hence there was bad times mistakes were made and I push you to things I believe was in the back of your mind in the beginning
You gave Me faith when doubt was an option, taunted by racism in your family but was tested and failed miserably by the flesh trust is a broken bridge that will not be cross because it's not stable.
So together was shared with phone calls and day visits only when work allowed and company was no more secret was in midst of it all  "We" were tainted "us" was not involving me anymore exploring was a concern of mine friends really want friends trying there luck with you as you express your singleness.
Apologizes was said forgiveness was given but the memories couldn't not be forgotten
And words cutting deeper than a knife reaping what I sow moving on looks like necessity.
Blames became the accuser avoidance allowed satisfaction stability became a problem though the feeling was not mutual in cahoots with a certain lifestyle looking forward why turn around convenient for *** nothing less nothing more til the feeling demobilized and there was no more.
Dwelling, emphasizing, considering, clarity became the only solution mentality changes  self-respect  development to another person  Time and patience leads to forgive and forgetting
Tears are shed the lives are lead with  misconception and deception to be repression among others I love myself and respect my choice to be is to live to hurt, to be hurt and not be held by chains and etc observance.

Even though I still struggle with sins in my life, here on the earth.
I sin less then I did a year ago , he has forgiven me for the sins.
For on the cross, he died for my sins so that I may be free,
For no not one can get to heaven for his works here on earth.
But by trusting in the only one that lived an sinless life here.
You can get to heaven through him, the Living Savior the Christ.
For he loves you so much that even if you were the only one.
Whom believed in him, he would have still went to the cross.
Because he loves you and me that much, that he feels we are to die for.
But this is the greatest part he raised up again and sent the Holy Ghost to us.

I’m walking to my grave everyday
A step closer to being saved
It says it on the sign
Jesus saves
Come in, take a pew
Conversions at two
Bit like the Pub
Come in, take a pew
Have a few, looking great
How do you do
Both battling for my being
The all seeing
The neon sign
Both providing spirits for the weak
Who do you seek
It’s a dilemma everyday
Yet one I play
I take a pew
Raise a few
Look up to see
Our Father and me.

We walk not of this world way, but by Faith.
For each of us has been promise different things.
Yet we still walk by the same Faith as the other.
We each are on a different path with him as well.
Some Faith may stronger today, but not tomorrow.
For Faith is by hearing, then believing it is true.
We all have the very same objective here in life.
It is to finish this race=Journey that we are on.
Thus then being told by our Savior well done.