Aren't I one of a kind
But they say we're all the same
We all grow up then we'll soon
Perish oneday
What's up with my DNA
isn't that what makes me different
This isn't how its supposed to be
I was told I was perfect
So it seem bones
Are the same as the clones
My personalities everyday
They're all indifferent

I tell you it's right
but you don't understand
you're still a child my love
won't you please grab my hand?

you're mine dear one
I won't let you go
cast away all this violence
and maybe, possibly grow

Your eyes shined so bright
when I gave you that piece of candy
that contagious smile of yours
might one day come in handy

So please don't die out
You're all I have left
a child who plays with spoons
otherwise known as a mini-heart theft

let me right a poem
about sad things
but nothing sad
is reality
so let me right a poem
about nothing
….
nothing is pretty boring

I understand I'm not good enough ........you tell me every night.So no need to waste your breathe

yes you were a kind heart
a character who cared for all
but I don't know when or how
you took such a great fall
indeed you were a kind heart
never letting a cat astray
but in this scenario
I'm the cat
and you're walking away

Sometimes I wonder
why the poems I make in my head
aren't as pretty as I sought them to be
Nor as giddy and bubbly
As I thought them to be
But I guess when facing hand and keyboard
It's another story entirely

Swirls of Blue and Black
Filled with memories that take me back
Shading in and constantly erasing
Poking dots in my thoughts and tracing
Coloring cherry red perfect lips
Shading her chest to her curvy hips
But she has no eyes
since she is just like I
Stuck in the void, listlessly
We swim in our consistency

at 3:18 am the cat's are crying in hunger
at 3:18 am a child has been born
at 3:18 am somebody gained a brother
at 3:18 am somebody touched a thorn

at 3:18 am a pound was gained
at 3:18 am a child became lame
at 3:18 am someone's flushed face drained
at 3:18 am a commoner was framed

at 3:18 am a child cursed fate

shadows may cast upon you
people may seem to haunt you
love is there to reward you
cries may seem to relieve you
tears are there to darken you

glimpses
yes I can see glimpses of your future
yes you see
it is just the unpleasant bore
I know all the things you may abhor
and all the people
you selfishly lured
if you are the deceiver
than come aboard
we'll welcome you to the land
of heavenly torture

Stuck in the flowers
the deep ugly stealers
purple and pink
vibrant as a heart
naïve eyes
shining like a star
Miles away you  see
vibrations flows from head to feet
Creating theories in your head
That they were perfect
and life was stead
Feet away you see
flowers are dying
and mosquito's feast
Crows are flocking
clouds are forming
Inches away you see
The naïve eyes
are fading  from glee
what happened to the cake
candy and party
You look on dejected as can be
You wondered why going to America
was everyone's fantasy

So I may never see you again
till death
can we still be friends
now why are you on your knees
and now you say
your love will never cease
you bend down and say please!
must I use telepathy?
because I love you
and it will never cease
Love is a word
that doesn't use emoji's
Now, I beg you to marry me

what exactly do you do
when people cry
don't you ever wonder why
it seems they've lost all life
but with words
of the severely unheard
may calm an empty mind
and bring back a purified life
that was never meant to cry

I want to love and remember
I want to hold, if forever
This pain that welcomes me close
The pain that loves me the most

But in this struggle for retribution
There's the wait and anxiety for recreation
The pain of hating what you loved the most
To this feeling I have become the host

The cuts on my wrist, they hurt
But not as how I've been kicked in the dirt
I yearn for the tranquil in pain
I yearn for it to take me away
again...

I saw you one day
at the mall
man you were
very tall
you looked at me
with a glare in your eye
remembering the fact
I never said goodbye

yes I'm still waiting patiently
waiting for someone to return me
I have gained too many enemies
Look at what they have done to me
I'm scratched and I'm bruised
I've been beaten
and I've been used
I've been thrown
and disowned
Although I just hope
my master returns to me

a creeping cat
without its feet
a bright fire
without heat
a pounding headache
without its head
a heartbreaking story
without its dread

people are there
then they're not
they disappear in a land called
the crowd
they whisper beautiful words to you at night
then wouldn't care if your alright
they hurt and break your swollen heart
then they ask what they've done wrong
you tell them
trust is such a fragile thing
and you've broken it
so why try to mend it

the stars
they frighten me
as the people
bow down to the
yet now 29 years later
the nice people
have become haters
so the stars
are no longer lunar
that only makes them
more scarier

not everybody in the world has emotions
My brother does mom and dad
I don't
so I guess I have to make my own
you're the only feeling I ever had

indifference

don't tell me you're trying
because I'm still dying
Don't tell me you love me
when I hate it when you give me sympathy
Don't tell me I 'm perfect
because all you say is nonsense
Don't tell me these dumbs lies
you'll probably make me cry

I turned my hate into a contract
I made what it was to be
I turned my love into weakness
it was more of simple than easy
I turned myself into a wall
and let the darkness take over me
I turned my allies into pawns
that can bow only to me
I made myself the king
while the bishop was turned away
This is the game of life
not an easy thing to play

I waited for you
patiently I did
i waited for you
with milk and bread
I waited for you
but you died instead

I thought I understood but I actually don't
I thought I was worth your time
But I'm actually not
I thought I was worth a crime
But it seems my importance in your life is non-existent
yet apparently I'm worth your filthy lies
I'm not the brightest in the world
but I know I don't deserve this

how come in a family photo I'm always the one taking the picture

Today is a day
simple as can be
but for all I know
It was meant for me

For today is the day
I must be free
of restrictions rules
and political parties

Now you should know
how it would be
if you were a little girl
with a chance at liberty

I don't care
look down on me
it's not fair
don't follow me
can't you see
I'm a little weak
just I BEG
don't look down on me
it's worse than mortality
but since you cant see me
I'll just end this melody
before it tries to follow me
death is my only free
so I beg and if I plea
Do not ever follow me

let the sun shine
doesn't it look divine
why aren't you smiling
everyone's crying but you
We know you feel the same too
so we'll let you go
a place where nobody knows
we'll set you free
So you can shine with glee
so we'll let the sun beam
and the stars await
you're happy now
isn't this great!

It was true
They were through
Nobody knew
of his bad crew
But now they see
His bad deed
And with their greed
they let him be
And so he grew
But nobody knew
of his bad crew
So when it came
When he was to be claimed
He withdraw
A sword of hearts
In each were darts
They never knew
The little boy
was heartless too

perfectly fine on this piece of paper
perfectly fine you are
perfectly fine on this piece of debris
perfectly fine you are
perfectly fine in the back of my mind
perfectly safe you are
perfectly fine in my imagination
perfectly fine you are