If I say I love you
Does that make me weak?
Am I stronger for not showing
Or is it better that I speak
I'm crazy when I'm with you
I'm crazy when I'm not
If I say I love you
Am I better off or not?

My mind is doing circles
My stomach feels the same
I don't know just what I'm feeling
Is it real or just a game
My body just can't figure
Which way that it should go
I'm sure the right direction
Is one my heart will know

I love you girl, like crazy
You know you tie me up in knots
I'm worse when I'm not with you
You control all of my thoughts
I love you girl, like crazy
I'm just a wreck when you're not here
I don't trust myself completely
I need to hold you, have you near

I am a little bit
Scared
I am perhaps
Scarred.

I think you might have
damaged me.

My heart has
shrunk

My head pulsates with
Pain.

You've planted
something
poisonous

And future carnage
lurks within.

Tonight, I am torn again
Because I am who I am.
And because I am me,
I am judged for it.

Tonight, I am torn again,
Because I talk to
Voices in my head
And I can't sleep or seem to eat

Tonight I am torn again
Because I seem to have lost a friend
I know I must not be mad
Yet there seems to be no end

I don't want to answer questions
Oh those I've had enough,
Would you please, please,
Just let me be tonight because

Tonight, I am torn again.