Carved out words, placed upon flesh
Sleepless nights curse me;
Yet there is no need for rest
My mind is heavy
For this is my burden
I feel there is no place for me;
In the world I was born in
Dark thoughts trouble my mind
Third eye wide open;
Yet I still remain blind
Upon flesh I place thee
Murals of regret
Hoping that one day
I will finally get rest

Let me tell you about the girl I love
She’s something real special
Making feel things I never thought I’d feel
Always telling the truth, keeping it real
Not interested in the mass appeal
I suggest everyone get to know her
She’s a queen;
A real high roller
Evolving everyday
Trying to be the best she can be
With a higher state of mind
Third eye open;
She could never be blind
Ball of anxiety and sometimes a groaner
Stimulate the proper spot;
All of a sudden she a moaner
Inspiring me to be a better me
She’s everything I wish I could be

I walked through the forest late last night with hopes of getting lost and never being found. The air was cool and welcoming. It was quiet and yet all I could hear was screaming from the wandering souls that had become lost in the woods. People avoided the forest for these reasons alone, but I found comfort among these wandering spirits. They were the closest things to friends that I had. People always judged me before they knew me whether it be because I was different or because I was weird. I didn't feel judgment passed onto me when I entered the woods. The spirits have offered a welcoming hand to me since I first started walking through this Gothic paradise and I had felt something towards them I could never feel towards another human being. Not quite sure of what that thing was, I still never questioned it. It felt too natural to be questioned. They spoke to me frequently and without hesitation, always speaking their interests and thoughts to the fullest degree. Some spoke of their old lives, about how life was most cruel towards them and their loved ones. Some didn't have loved ones which is what brought them to this safe haven in the first place. One spirit in particular spoke words I'll never forget. "To the tallest tree I approached and up the tallest tree I climbed, never looking down, in my hand the tool to my release, the keys to the kingdom if you will. Around the arm I tied one end of the rope and around my neck I tied the other end and without looking back I sent myself soaring into paradise."
Those were the words that shook my world, leaving an unsettling feeling in my stomach, but at the same time it left my mind feeling calm and UN-shook. A part of me feared this tale and the other embraced it like a mother's hug. I felt inspired to follow in this spirits footsteps. So I did, never once questioning my motives. I asked the spirit to guide me to the tallest tree where he experienced true nirvana. It humbly agreed and began onward.
We approached the stump and I looked up unable to see the peak of the mighty forest guardian. 'Onward you go", the spirit began, "For it's quite a journey to the top”. So I began my pilgrimage to nirvana. "Good luck and peace be with you my friend", the spirit said before taking off. “Goodbye my dearest and only friend” I said back to my spiritual guide.
It felt like a lifetime, but I finally reached the summit of the mighty guardian. I saw the rope the spirit had used to find paradise, still tied to the arm. Looking down I could see a body attached to the other end. For it was the body of my guide, it appeared to still be rather fresh. The body took the appearance of a young man, His age appeared to be about twenty, about the same age I was. I pulled the rope upwards to me so I may release the man's fleshy past. When I finally received the body I noticed something rather strange, something about his face in particular. His face was mine and mine his. Now frightened I dropped the body suddenly, it now falling down the side of great tree. I climbed back down the tree quickly, almost losing my footing and mimicking the actions of the man's body.
                                                                                    
When I reached the forest floor I began my search for my guide so that it may answer my questions. After searching for some time I finally found it. "Grand spirit", I started, Why does your human face resemble mine in every detail?" "Because I am not just some ordinary spirit" it replied, for I am something much greater". "The tale I told was not my own, But yours my dear friend". I was in utter shock, Unable to comprehend the words spoken to me. "But the memories no longer serve me". "When you found nirvana, your memories of your old life were taken from you so that you may only have peace." I had no longer felt shock, instead the feeling of gratitude now overwhelmed my conscious. I was at peace for all eternity and this kingdom now my home. Thank you dear friend for showing me a fragment of my old life, for now I will bury it along with my body.
Shortly after I said my goodbyes to my guide and it made its way onward through the forest so that it may guide other lost souls into nirvana. After burying my body I began to wander through the forest once more, only this time with knowledge of the events in my life. This Gothic paradise was my home and I wouldn't want to live anywhere else, for my journey began here and it will end here as it was always meant to.

Goodbye world
This is where we part ways
I remember when we first met
When I was still just a child
Blind to the truth
Blind to your ways
But I learned fast
That good things don’t always last
No matter how much you want them to
You’ve knocked me down
And picked me up
You’ve made want to stop breathing
You’ve made me want to see you in a new perspective
But that would be useless
Seeing how you never change no matter how you look at it
I’ve finally had enough
I’m filled with your hollow promises
And I’m ready to move on
This world was good while it lasted
But good things never last
And it would appear that neither do I

My job is a writer;
Coffee shops are just a hobby
I would rather be in the lobby writing
Than be behind the counter
Wearing green and black
Trying to convince every customer;
To cut me some slack
Because I accidentally messed up your drink
You now spew words of hate
Things that make me want to *****;
In the kitchen sink
Learn that I'm only a man;
Trapped behind this bar
I'm more than just the person;
Who hands you your drink;
While you sit in your car
So pass me the lotion;
So that I may show you what you are
No longer will you spew your words of hate at me;
No longer will I ***** in the sink
Learn to be a better person;
Now shut up and take your drink

All for one and one for all
Everyone, now together;
Will soon be divided my an imaginary wall
Some people's hatred for difference has come out to play;
And our children's future will soon be filled with dismay
With a tyrant in power;
We begin to divide
We no longer desire to conquer the unknown;
Yet instead we fear it
With fingers in our ears;
We can no longer hear it
But if we could hear it;
Do you think we recognize?
The sound of injustice;
The lack to sympathize;
With those being oppressed, who only seek shelter and help
Yet we would rather ignore the cry;
Sit inside and do nothing;
Let our world fall apart
Oh how the people are suffering
We bat our eyes at the thought;
Of a man so unjust;
who's only care is a wall;
And the removal of rights;
Of those bleeding heart liberals;
The ones who bear scarves on their heads;
And the ones who love the same gender
But end of the day;
It is he who is at fault;
Not the blacks, Muslims, or gays
A wall will divide;
But we can overcome it
Join hands brothers and sisters'
And let the strength of our love overpower this tyrant
Let us tear down the wall;
We will not be divided

Walking through the fields of grass
No shoes upon my feet
I can feel the earth below caress my soles
Reminding me that the world knows peace;
And it wishes to share
This wonderful gift, by showing what it means;
To be kind and gentle to another being
No need for unnecessary violence
We could learn a lot from nature
If only we would listen
Open our hearts and silence our mouths
Let the voice of peace enter our hearts, minds, and souls
Perhaps then we could too become peaceful beings

I met this girl today
She reminded me of you
Long brown hair dripping over her face
Cold lively eyes brightening up her space
Ice runs through her veins;
And a fire burns in her heart
She inspires me to be a better me
Kind of like you
But you’re gone now
Unsure if you will ever return;
And now the space you held in my heart;
Is replaced by an ember that burns for truth
I met this girl today;
And oh how I long for her to be you

Loud sounds, endless yelling
Pointless bickering is all I'm hearing
My life is too crowded, can I come into yours?
Yours is filled with love and laughter
My life has no place for me anymore

It’s Friday night and I’m on the hunt
Out for some *****;
Looking for a honey with a big ****
Got the secret ingredient;
For my special elixir
Going to show up and dump it in her mixer
When she get drowsy I’ll take her home and “fix” her
Early morning regret;
Only for her
Because I’m a *******;
Don’t really care
People found out and now I’m on trial
But I’m a future all-star;
My actions won’t be held accountable
Set free and ready to strike again
Hanging out the homies;
Making jokes about how it began
She’s become depressed and paranoid
I’ve pushed her over the edge
Unable to push the past behind her;
She ends it all with a noose around her neck
I won’t change because society won’t make me
Is this how all women’s fate will be?

Words lost in a current of thoughts
Never will I be able to express my true feelings;
To you or to the world
For they have been washed away
Like tender kisses upon your cheek;
They are wiped away by an uncaring hand
smeared across the face they once were perched upon
Now just a memory;
Of what was, or could have been
Something quite wonderful
In an ocean of words;
I carefully fish for the ones that best describe my love;
But alas, I cannot find them
For they evade me
I lack the proper bait to coerce such thoughts
But I will try and try;
Until the day approaches;
The day in which I finally catch my thoughts;
And are able to share them with you
Please be patient;
Wait with me;
Do not become lost in the current as well
Remain with me, until you can see
The words I shall soon capture;
And place before thee
Trust I know what I know;
And shall soon speak
My love for you is forever
It will never be lost in the stream
Remain with me forever;
And you too shall see
For the words now upon me
Will always explain everything

Woke up this morning and began to stare at the sun
“Hello buddy, you look like you could use a hug”
So then I jumped;
Stretched out my arm as I reached for the atmosphere
“Here I come, there I go”
Reached the sun and hugged it I did
Then I burnt to a crisp
Turned into ash
Began to float into to galaxy
I wish I never hugged the sun
But now it’s too late

Here I come
Here I go
Chaos follows close everywhere I go
Don’t get close or defeat is what you’ll meet
Tears of an angel perched upon my cheek
Waiting for you to miss me
As I swing from the tree
Free as can be
This rope hugs me better than you could ever make me believe
Feel that tension in your chest?
That’s sadness and regret forming a hurricane
Now get ready
Here comes the pain
It first drives you crazy
Then leaves you insane
Say goodbye to your sanity
Good riddance
I didn’t need it anyway

Dear best friend
I just wanted to say
I love you;
And you turn my skies blue when they’re meant to be gray
You make my heart beat faster;
And time begins to slow
You may not always know how much you mean to me;
And I want you to know
That you are my favorite flower;
And I will do anything to watch you grow
I know times are tough for you right now
You believe you have lost your way
But I need you to know right now
That I will do anything to turn your gray skies blue again
I will be here to hold your hand
For you are my little flower
But before anything;
You are my best friend

We are the kids your parents warned you about
The ones society says to avoid
We want what’s best for us;
We don’t care what’s best for you
Step out of our way
When we’re passing through
Get in our way and no good will come to you
We are the future and the past
The ones who will either live forever
Or burn out like a star
Forever roaming the afterlife tormenting those who doubted us
So remember this when you see our faces
We are the ones who will be here tomorrow
The ones you need to watch out for
We are the hooligans
And we are proud

Translucent skin, take a look within
Does it make you smile?
Does it make you grin?
Can you sense my pain?
Agony and defeat
Virtual reality has nothing on me
My life isn’t real
Or perhaps it is
Never to be sure
This could be the end
Guess I’ll never know
Traversing through the void
My quest for higher consciousness begins

The world will try to break you, forsake you, and degrade you
But it is this process that ultimately makes you;
Into a better person
A god of sorts
A stronger, wiser, smarter person
A much better being
An upgraded version
Let the world take from you what it wants
For that is what it will do
Because at the end of the day
Who is there to pick up your pieces?
You

Here we stand, in the land of frost and fire
Where in each living person’s heart
Burns a small fire
But a small fire may grow and burn ever brighter
It will burn a great distance and lead one towards their desires
But fire does not burn in one who is not living
Their mind filled with hate
And heart locked up tight
With frost on the lock
These creatures know no pain and have only one desire
To decimate their foe and ***** out their fire
These creatures stand tall and their numbers grow larger
If we do not stop them now, their frost will put out the fire
Do not fear bearers of flame
Thou enemy will fall, in the glory of flame
A battle is brewing
Between frost and fire
Frost may have strength in numbers
But the flames endow ones desire
And our desire is victory
Among the battlefield
Where the enemy will fall and their numbers will yield
So it begins, the sound of steel clashing fills the air
Within an instant the sound clears the air
We are victor, the ones who bear flame
We shout to the Heavens, so that they know our name
The land once known as frost and fire
Is now known only as the Land of Flame

It’s late at night and under the bed I hide
I can hear the door opening
He’s coming
I cover my mouth, no time for sound
I can’t let him hear me
For if he finds me I’m doomed
For now I hide in the shroud of shadow
Heart filled with doom
He draws closer
It’s as if he’s breathing down my neck
My heart is beating fast
Sweat collecting on my forehead
His footsteps stop just in front of my bed
He’s coming
He reached down under the bed to feel for me
He’s coming closer
He grabbed me and ripped me from my cover
He’s here
He looked deep into my eyes and began to steal my soul
He now has his prize and moves towards the window
He opens it wide and spreads his wings, ready to fly
Off he goes into the night with me by his side
I am his now
I no longer suffer or cry
For now I am a child of the night

Take me away to the land beyond the stars. Allow me to frolic among the cosmos with feelings of melancholy. Join me in unholy matrimony and gaze into my eyes and see the past, see the pain, oh how it never lasts. Listen closely. Can you hear it? The sound of new beginnings being erected in the distance. Quite lovely isn’t it? It makes you believe that things will be ok, that new planets will be found, and we will never decay. Hold my hand as we make our endeavor into the multiverse and know that we will never be done. Humans will envy us and aliens will wish to be as fearless. Blind to failure, we continue on, into the unknown we have grown very fond. We will explore all of the endless silence and the great beyond.

I feel I haven’t written in a couple of days
Probably because my mind has been in a haze
Slowly stopping, coming to an end
Like a car with no business driving on a dead end
My mind is weak, numb, and fragile
I am no longer young, forgiving, and agile
I have grown old
My sanity is breaking
I no longer feel like writing
Perhaps my mind is dying
This whole time I’ve been lying
To myself and to you
To whom my affection reigns true
I can no longer go on
Join me, will you?

Start from the bottom
Work your way up
Go through the daily grind
Until you throw up
You must work hard to advance
In a system that’s corrupt
Business moguls run the game
How am I supposed to make the climb up?
If I’m down here, looking up
At the ivory towers claimed by the corrupt
How am I going to get my chance?
To make a name for myself
I am no different than an old toy forgotten;
And perched upon an old shelf
The system is broke
It no longer works
It is corrupt and unjust
It’s time to find one that works