Slit wrists leaking deep crimson
Thoughts of suicide;
It’s only a matter of time
Until I do it
With no thoughts of regret
The only thing I look forward too
Has it happened yet?
I mean have I already died;
And just don’t remember
Body already cold;
Not even December
Mind is scattered;
Can’t trace the thought
Of being alive
Or perhaps I’ve been deprived
Of life everlasting
I can’t remember the last thing;
I did when I was alive
Perhaps I have lied;
And the outcome is
I had never died;
Because the truth is;
I was never alive

It’s Friday night and I’m on the hunt
Out for some *****;
Looking for a honey with a big ****
Got the secret ingredient;
For my special elixir
Going to show up and dump it in her mixer
When she get drowsy I’ll take her home and “fix” her
Early morning regret;
Only for her
Because I’m a *******;
Don’t really care
People found out and now I’m on trial
But I’m a future all-star;
My actions won’t be held accountable
Set free and ready to strike again
Hanging out the homies;
Making jokes about how it began
She’s become depressed and paranoid
I’ve pushed her over the edge
Unable to push the past behind her;
She ends it all with a noose around her neck
I won’t change because society won’t make me
Is this how all women’s fate will be?

As time goes on, I can feel it leaving me behind. Caught in-between the rift I struggle to tell what is real and what is not. The world is a blur as I move at the speed of light. I am frightened that I will never catch up. I am frightened that I will never be able to tell what is real and what is not ever again. Why is this happening? Why am I losing my grip on reality? My days grow shorter and it’s impossible to tell when they begin. Immense pressure placed upon my head. It is being crushed by the rifts of time and soon I will perish without even knowing why. Time has consumed me with intentions of never letting go. Trapped in-between when I only wish to grow.

Take me away to the land beyond the stars. Allow me to frolic among the cosmos with feelings of melancholy. Join me in unholy matrimony and gaze into my eyes and see the past, see the pain, oh how it never lasts. Listen closely. Can you hear it? The sound of new beginnings being erected in the distance. Quite lovely isn’t it? It makes you believe that things will be ok, that new planets will be found, and we will never decay. Hold my hand as we make our endeavor into the multiverse and know that we will never be done. Humans will envy us and aliens will wish to be as fearless. Blind to failure, we continue on, into the unknown we have grown very fond. We will explore all of the endless silence and the great beyond.

Cantankerous beings wishing only to travel
Hallucinatory drugs to help our minds unravel
Soaring, flying, dreams about dying
Can only tell the truth;
No need for lying
Universe held in the palm of our hands
Seducing the world with evil;
Was never our plan
Flourished forests with evergreen trees
Vast blue oceans;
Containing a variety of beings
We come to this planet;
With intentions of peace
A different breed we be
Not old and not new
Carrying new world ideas
That will move the world forward
Onwards fellow beings
Let us rebirth our lives;
Come with us will you?