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Elexer Nov 2019
You don’t know me
Let alone my intent
Actions do not always
Self represent
I don’t feel urgency
In explaining
My conscience so vaguely clear
Words from nofx
Elexer Dec 2015
Find your frown
Is here to stay
And you want Jesus
To run away

Aztec eyes
A vacant smile
Yawning comfort
Your modern style

Heroes of stories
Told when we were young
Powered through
The song that was sung

Your ancient ruins
Are where you left them
Your hands are fine
As you side with him

Savage thirst
Sophisticated hunger
All are the same
It's all a blunder

Turn to dust
Cinder and smoke
Gust of wind
Whirling stroke

Done and gone
Going gladly
We forage for what
We desire madly

Burn it to a crisp
Burn it to the ground
Burn it all now
Burn what I found

We are flawed and we are now
I wonder why and i wonder how
Elexer Aug 2018
Nothing is ever as bad as it seems

Because nothing is as bad as losing the girl of my dreams
I hope someone appreciates the complexity and double meaning of the title. I thought it was pretty clever.
Elexer Jan 2016
With the world the way it is
The way it seems to be
It's an opportune time
To explore the sky
And the world around me

I wake up with a thirst
For blood and death
I hunt with others
It fills me with excitement
Makes me feel alive
As far as the world is concerned
I'm not here
The Earth rotates
My heart turns to dust
My mind wanders
Drearily, wearily
Becoming cloudy
With each second
I feel the sun pulling me
Lost, i look up
All i see is moon
With a witch on one side
And a snake on the other
The One in Charge has no answer
Silence fills the air
My feet tremble
The ground shakes
For a while
The moon turns red
And clouds dance
Across the purple sky
One is reborn
The wind and a wolf
Howl in harmony
For a moment, we can all
See the world
And go back
To making it better
I wake up
To a bright, white moonrise
Elexer Apr 2017
Intro: trouble born
Chapter 1: Getting a grip
Chapter 2: Best friends and child love
Chapter 3: A stranger type of thing
Chapter 4: High School, dealing
Chapter 5: College and Ladies
Chapter 6: An aside, intermission
Chapter 7: Mausi........
Chapter 8: What comes next (in progress)

And so the chapter comes
To a sad close
The highest of highs
The lowest of lows
It wasn't bad
It wasn't lousy
But now I say
Goodbye to Mausi
God i hate this. Not sure why i write this stuff. It just makes it harder. But she deserves a proper going out. Love you Mausi. Part 2 is soon.
Elexer Apr 2017
Brooklyn Bela
Isa, Hella
Sometimes called
Abelias
A graceful girl
Lust angel
Ethereal

When the stars align
You will be mine
When the world turns thin
We'll be together again
When mountains are rivers
And volcanos shiver
And voices are seen
And the cut is clean
When chants are for me
And you care to see
And life is worth living
And taking is giving

When no longer
My actions prevent me
From truly showing
How much i love you
That is when this will mean
Much more than goodbye
Dragging this out. Part 3 soon.
Elexer Apr 2017
I never felt
Like I was meant
For this world
Until you came along
I used to feel happy
When I thought of you
When I was around you
Now I feel undying sadness
Don't feel bad
It's my fault
You're innocent
I forgot that
I'll pay for my crimes
I'll wish you were around
I'll hate myself
But I will never forget
You always loved me
Even when you didn't want to
And I ****** up
So now I have to say...

Adios, my sweet, sweet girl
Last one I guess. I loved her more than anything, and I never meant to hurt her.
Hag
Elexer Apr 2017
Hag
Your eyes they have this glowing
You were more than I deserve
After all our shame and suffering
I turned my back to everything
Or anyone
And put you first
But are we really in love,
Completely in love?
Did mentioning make
Your skin start to crawl?
Started off living and broken
It unfolded like a dream
Dazzled by the very thought of it
Like the way dreams are
Supposed to be
If I'm not what's to come
I will sleep with it
I won't carry that on
And we will lose in the end
And we start the whole pattern over again
And over again
Are you truly in love,
Absolutely in love?
You're happy enough
Are you fully in love?
If I'm not,
No point in carrying on
Why spend half the time indifferent
And the other half alone
I will live with my regrets
Learn from accepting me
And be done with it
Start the whole thing
Start the whole thing over again
Hag by Band of Horses
Elexer Nov 2015
This is a haiku
I hope everyone likes it
It's snowing on mount fuji
*game grumps reference*
Elexer Nov 2015
There is no such thing
In this so destructive life
As a weak martyr
This haiku ***** but I kinda liked the way it sounded in my head. So whatevs
Elexer Dec 2015
You look to your dreams
An idol is an idol
Or so it may seem
Elexer May 2017
He would never talk
But he was not shy
She was a streetsmart girl
But she cannot lie
They were perfect for each other
You can say it now
Cause in your heart its love

My feelings
Are more
Important
Than yours

Drop dead
I don't care
I won't worry
Nonsequiter aside, it feels like her thoughts on me. Words come from the Strokes. I'ma have a stroke. Or stroke a cat. Cats are cool. Thanksbye
Elexer Sep 2019
I had sadness
And it stayed
Then I found happiness
And it strayed
My heart, it’s
Still so frayed
Where to now?
No decision made
Elexer Feb 2017
If I know only one thing
It's that everything that I see
Of the world outside
Is so inconceivable
Often I barely can speak
Yeah I'm tongue-tied and dizzy
And I can't keep it to myself
What good is it to
Sing Helplessness Blues
Why should I wait for anyone else
And I know, I know
You will keep me on the shelf
I'll come back to you someday
Soon, myself

If I had an orchard
I'd work til I'm raw
If I had an orchard
I'd word til I'm sore
And you would wait tables
And soon run the store
Go there in the sunlight
My light in the dawn
If I had an orchard
I'd work til I'm sore
If I had an orchard
I'd work til I'm sore

Someday I'll be like the man on the screen...
Helplessness Blues. Fleet Foxes. ****...
Her
Elexer Nov 2015
Her
La quiero
La necesito
La amo
Someday my spanish will be good enough for me to make this longer
Elexer Nov 2015
If the world has found another new
Terrible disaster from which to endure
Then it will need courage, strength too
Wisdom from one who will ensure
The safety from harm and more,
Banishment of evil for the sake
Of the good people, a princess of lore
There is a sacrifice you need to make
Oh, hero of time, we need you now
More than ever before, so go
Do that which weakness won't allow
Fight the evil, defeat your old foe
The hardships you will face are known
There is so much here at risk
It's dangerous to go alone
Take this
This probably *****, but i had fun writing it, and that's all that matters.
Elexer Apr 2016
Hero,
Legend,
Idol,
His loss will mean the loss of control
Gave all
He could
Give
The greatest to ever live
Elexer Nov 2015
Home is where it all begins
Where memories are made
Where they are always kept
Where favorites are found
The passion is never lost
Home is where it is safe
The enemies of the world
Can no longer reach
Where communication
Is prevalent and promises
Kept and made
Where nothing else matters
But the person inside the person
Home is where love is born
Where hatred dissipates
Adoring tastes of life
Where rhetoric and theme
Are not relevant anymore
But most of all
Home is where you found me
It's where I'll always be
They say home is where the heart is. I like to think it is the heart of the ones we hold dear. That is where I call home.
Elexer Jul 2019
Did your metaphorical skull get bashed in and bleed
By those who you always assumed were after your hopes and dreams?
Elexer Mar 2016
How does it feel to be
One of the beautiful
People?
Now that you know who you are,
What do you want to be?
And have you traveled very far?
Far as the eye can see

How does it feel to be
One of the beautiful
People?
How often have you been there?
Often enough to know
What did you see when you were there?
Nothing that doesn't show

How does it feel to be
One of the beautiful
People?
Tuned to a natural E
Happy to be that way
Now that you found another key,
What are you going to play?
Words courtesy of The Beatles
Elexer Mar 2019
If several hymns were sung
Making the world spin, might,
Even one,
Have rung for you and I?
I hope it is the case and,
I do wish it were true,
That I can
Give my heart just to you
Elexer Nov 2015
When do I try again?
I honestly don't know
It's only been a day
But it feels like weeks
If I try too soon
Will it be a mistake?
Or is it what she wants?
I honestly don't know
Should I take a chance
Or wait for her
As long as it takes
It's what she asked for
But it's so hard
I'm caving under the pressure
Elexer May 2019
I hurt
Because those I want to be around
Those I want to hold
For a thousand years
I can’t.
Elexer Feb 2016
You check and you see
I know, i know
I'm okay, or am i?
I don't exist to you anymore
I'm a figment of your past
And maybe i'm wrong
Maybe you're right
Maybe it is dark
But i think it's bright
The future could be
Joyous for us
If you just tried again
I know, i know
I can live without you
But a fraction of my heart
Is on life support for now
Hoping for your return
But it won't happen
This isn't a fairy tale
No happy endings for me
There never have been
But the same goes for you
You missed it
Because i do this thing, see?
I make a happy ending
For others, see?
But you skipped out
And i no longer exist
Just know, sweet girl,
I'm not okay, nor will i be
For the rest of my life
So you check, and you see
I know, i know
This is how things have to be...
Elexer Jan 2018
I lie in bed thinking
Here in the beginning
Whether I'll be losing
Or what I'll be winning
Somewhere along
In the days and nights
I lost who I was
I lost my mind
When it all fell apart
I can't recall
Who was there
Or what I saw
The grip I had
Was loose at best
It was nothing, there
When I did confess
Hell is looming
Heaven is gray
God and disciples
Hate me anyway
With no hope
No reason to go on
I turn to what
When it's all gone?
I lie in bed thinking
Here in the end
All I know is
I know I didn't win
Elexer Dec 2018
I’ll think of you
And you’ll think of you
And they’ll think of you
But who will think of me?
Well no one will
But it’s okay, my love
Because I don’t deserve to be thought of.
Elexer Nov 2015
I did it again
I messed up
Something good
Something my heart
Was going crazy for
I looked where
I knew i shouldn't
But i didn't really know
That this would be
The result of that
I only wanted to see
For myself what exactly
She was about
And i don't regret it
I told her that
I never would have
Known the wonders
Of her life that i love
Never never never
But now i will always
Remember those things
And cherish them
No matter what happens
And i'm keeping my word
I haven't looked at her there
In her small corner of the world
But she is mad at me now
She wants space
And all i want
Is her forgiveness
I'll cease to exist
And curl up and die
If i lose her
Before i even had her
If i lose my
Mystery Girl
Elexer Jan 2016
Human nature
Is to defend
And to love
Those to whom
We are close
Or have been
In the past

Animal nature
Is to scurry
Or to fight
Those who
They do not understand
Or have not
In history

I think about this
And get confused
That i seem
To be dealing
With animals
Rather than
Human beings

I look at the two moons in the east
Point to them with my index finger,
Thumb pointing up, like a gun, and say:
"Bang, bang."
Elexer Jun 2017
Such a weird feeling
To be around you
I've never felt
So happy, and yet
So utterly sad
At the same time
I've never wanted
To **** myself
So much, while
I'm smiling, and laughing
And thinking about what could be
If i just don't give up
I have this outlandish idea
That you don't want me to give up
That i have to show you
Truly how far i'll go
I would tear down this planet
And build a new one
Just so you'd have a new place
To go to get away from me
Trust me, love
As much as your instinct tells you not to,
Let go, and trust me. Please
Elexer Aug 2019
Sometimes the world makes me feel
Like I never existed
And I existed
When she was laughing...
Elexer Nov 2015
Pay your debt
Make your bet
You wept and wept
Over the promise you kept
And all the while
You face the trials
Of your own never ending
Death
Elexer Mar 2018
There are places I remember
All my life though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life I've loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more

Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more

In my life I love you more
Words from the Beatles. I should get zero credit
Elexer Jan 2016
There are places I remember
All my life though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life I've loved them all
But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more
In My Life by The Beatles
Elexer Jun 2016
It was not the beginning
But somewhere in the middle
Where we met
That I started really
To realize what it is
What my life is sure to be
And you know, the nights
I stare at nothing
Into the darkness
With words that never come
Thoughts that never float
I don't know where they come from
But I do know where they go
They end up in this dusty corner
In the b-side of my mind
And there they stay, quietly
Until it's time to unwind
This is when I go outside
Sit on the porch, look up at the sky
And think of the things
Like you, where you are, and why
Then I hope for the best
Send my wish to the moon
Go inside acting like nothing happened
Nothing ever happened
Because nothing ever happens
That's how it has to be
Elexer Nov 2015
You can trust me
You can believe me
When i say
I've been there and back
I've experienced it all
Not in this life
Some other time
That's how i know
When you ask that question
And i don't have an answer
That's how i know
And i could take it
Or leave it, but
The reality is,
It won't happen
Not the way you think it will
You're predictions
I'm sorry, honey
They're false
Now you can stay here
With me
Or you can go back home
Where no one cares
Like i do
Where they aren't gentle
Like i am
Because i know you
You're fragile
A butterfly
Or a fragment
Of a soiled puzzle
On the surface of a pond
But i would rather, i would
If you stayed
Right here with me
Forever, with me
In the midst of the stars
Elexer May 2016
In the morning
Waking up to
Terrible sunlight

All diffuse
Like skin abuse
The sun is half its size

When you talk
You hardly even
Look in my eyes

In the morning
In the morning

In the doorway
Holding every
Letter that i wrote

In the driveway
Pulling away
Putting on your coat

In the ocean
Washing off my
Name from your throat

In the morning
In the morning
Part of The Shrine/An Argument written by Fleet Foxes
Elexer Jun 2017
In the morning
Waking up to terrible sunlight
All diffuse like skin abuse
The sun is half its size
When you talk,
You hardly even look in my eyes
In the morning, in the morning
In the doorway
Holding every letter that I wrote
In the driveway, pulling away
Putting on your coat
In the ocean
Washing off my name from your throat
In the morning, in the morning
In the ocean
Washing off my name from your throat
In the morning, in the morning
When the tide came in
The isles would never let you stay
In the nighttime, with the light on
Every light, all day
In the ocean,
Leaving me no time to obey
In the morning, in the morning
In the ocean
Washing off my name from your throat
In the morning, in the morning
All words from the glorious Fleet Foxes
Elexer Sep 2018
...I just can't.
Elexer Jul 2016
In a daze,
Turned into lust,
Of frivolous effort,
Pleasure came differently.
It was the moment,
The feelings,
The emotions,
The passion,
The idea of it
Were all what made me happy.
And that was enough.
She was beautiful,
And she was lovely,
And she was all i've ever wanted.
I was hungry,
And I was fed,
And I am satisfied.
Nothing else matters,
Except for me and her,
And the moments we get.

To pull, to reach
The glasses come off
Enjoyable for each
So tender and soft
Elexer Jan 2019
Escaping sky
Elusive moon
Why must you
Leave so soon?
Black and short
Orange and long
Is this where
I belong?
Drunk and sleepy
Beautiful still
So inquisitive
Full of will

Your need for nicotine
Is a cute routine
I’m lucky I saw you
Three hugs, too
Elexer May 2018
It's never over
My kingdom for a kiss
Upon her shoulder

It's never over
All my riches
For her smiles

It's never over
All my blood
For the sweetness of her laughter

It's never over
She is the tear that hangs
Inside my soul forever
Words of Jeff Buckley
Elexer Nov 2015
It's ok
I know someday
I'm gonna be with you
Elexer Nov 2015
Hold me close
I need you so
I want you in my dreams
Beautiful words courtesy of Tom Rosenthal
Elexer Mar 2016
I said
"I need to clear my head"
But i'm lying in bed
Pursuing the dead
And you can make the claim
To remove my name
Say "it's not the same"
But this isn't a game
It's my life, you see?
What can i be
When you're not with me?
You once said "patience is key"
But what's there to gain
Of all this wretched pain?
It'll drive us insane
What else should we feign?
The clothes we wear,
Or how much we care?
Perhaps, your hair,
The way you wear it there.
I don't know
The solution though
To the problem of our woes
Or where our feelings go
But i know one thing
I've heard the Bell ring
And the Tabby cat sing
There's something more i'll have to bring
There's something more i'll need
I must take the lead
And leave the greed
And accept that i will bleed
Elexer Nov 2015
Well morning came
And it dressed the sky
In a lovely yellow gown
Now the shops they are
All opening
In that narrow hallway of downtown
Filled with people who
Are shopping for
Their lovers and their friends
So they won't ever be lonely again
Well a forest fenced
becomes backyards
Like songs are born from sound
And the apple fell
And it taught us all
We are chained here to the ground
So here we go
But there ain't no escape
Yeah, these streets they're just dead ends
So I won't ever be happy again
Well, it seems you too
See a painful blue
When you stare into the sky
You could never understand
The motion of a hand waving you goodbye
But as the story goes
or it is often told
A new day will arise
And all the dance halls will
Be full of skeletons
That are coming back to life
And on a grassy hill
the lion will
lay down with the lamb
And I won't ever be lonely again
But until that time
I think I had better find
some disbelief to suspend
Cause I don't want to feel like this again
Bright Eyes - I Won't Ever Be Happy Again (alternate)
Elexer Sep 2016
It was a cloudy day
And everything was okay
Then the sun came out
And it made everyone shout
"**** THIS ****, ITS HOT"
Elexer Jan 2017
I will never forget
How they treated me
After I did everything
To show how much I care
I tried so hard
And I see zero effort
From them
Old as i get, i will never forget it at all.
Elexer Jan 2018
You, you used to read Karl Marx
Alone in the bath
Whenever you were low
Whenever you were low
You made cakes out of love
And love out of hugs
'Cause that is what you do
Yes that is what you do

And you made a paper boat
And you sailed it all across the floor
To the harbor by the door
Tom Rosenthal, he's much more poetic than I could ever be.
Elexer Oct 2017
**** them with kindness
**** them with love
Love those who **** you
Love fitting like a glove

Walking to avoid branches
Getting hit regardless
Hung up on the little things
As much as you want to discard this

I can't shake the feeling
You don't understand
That what you're doing is stealing

With my heart in your hand
The feeling revealing
I'm slipping like sand
Elexer May 2017
Eat.
Drink.
Breathe.
Figure this out.
Sleep.
Find happiness.
Find love.
Find pleasure.
Enjoy some anger.
Enjoy the little things.
Fix it.
You need her.
Fix this.
Stop.
Stop talking to that girl.
Stop!
Fix it again.
Try again.
**** yourself.
Try again.
Remind her how much you love her.
Don't talk to that girl again.
Seriously, don't.
Stop talking to her.
Forget about her.
Keep this a secret.
Tell the truth.
Tell her nothing.
Tell her everything.
**** yourself.
Thank her.
Consider yourself lucky.
Keep this going.
Don't let this happen again.
**** yourself.
Don't be sad.
Find happiness again.
Eat.
Drink.
Breathe.
**** yourself.
**** yourself, Alex.
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