its "funny" to you that i'm broken
its "funny" how I cant sleep at night
with horrid thoughts running through my mind
its "funny" to see me brake more and more
its "funny" to you, how i'm slowly dying inside
its "funny"how its all for you
its "funny" how I broke my pieces to fill yours
its "funny" how i'm so dumb to not realize sooner that i'm just a filling.
A tool.
For you to freely use.
its "funny" how you lied everyday as we breathed and lived
its "funny" how I trusted you
its "funny" how I loved you, so blinded
and now i'm laughing to the sound of my minds, heart, and soul break into two for someone like you.

to be real
in a false
world

is like wearing
a corset made
of your own
bones

your heart
weakly beating
beneath your
armour

it pulses red
fist shaped
and ready
to fight

the creatures
that lurk
like spectres
in the dark
corners of
your mind

it's not up
to you if
you win
this fight

only you
try, you
try, you
try

he walks, never alone
for the darkness fallows
he sighs, as heavy has winds
he glances, with eyes darker then the soul
he laughs, as darkness spills
he speaks, lies swim in the ears of his listeners
he lives., slowly dying inside
he runs, trying to escape the darkness he let in
hes dead, he was never alive to begin with.

The light dims
And the shadows lurk
The sound of a braking limb
Echoes in the distance, in the endless hole of emptiness
The owner of the heart cries
But no one is to hear his sorrows
He is lost
He is forgotten
Yet he has not put himself in this aching pain
But she did
She used him until he was nothing
She threw him in this hole
Into this state of heart and mind
Into this feeling lost inside
Left to think
Why?
Left in the thought of
What did I do wrong?
Left with no one but himself.

He got use to this way of living for a while
Until she stepped in
She tried to bring a light
Tried to fix the broken
But instead
Foolish girl, he took you down with him
And the light leaves
His hole is filled with a replacement of hers
And now she walks around broken
Echoes bouncing on the walls of this hole
And now she's crying as he did and screams to the world
And he leaves her as another did to him.
And the never ending cycle continues.

Let go of comparing.
      Let go of competing.
      Let go of judgement's.
      Let go of anger.
      Let go of regrets.
      Let go of worrying.
      Let go of blame.
      Let go of guilt.
      Let go of fear.

Have a good belly laugh at least once a day
.
                 and
      Before you pray....Believe.
      Before you speak....Listen.
      Before you spend....Earn.
      Before you write....Think.
      Before you quit....Try.
      Before you die....Live

While you're busy doubting yourself, other people are intimidated by your potential.
                                                                                                 Jon York   2019

I write of life
I find the keys to unlock the chains
holding me back hidden in the pain.
Today
I write of hope.
A light in the darkness,
love in a world of hate.
Today
I am me,
no mask to hide my truest self.
today
I smile.
Today
I dream,
of lighter days and starry nights
and endless skies.
Today
I do.