This guy was looking at me
With his mouth wide opened
He’s never seen girl’s legs before naked I guess
Not in a real life
What a lucky man he is today

My coffee is ordered
Just two minutes - I’m home
Welcoming the new day
My bed is jealous
I was cheating on it last night
Sleeping somewhere else
Sleeping at your place
In your big arms
You told me that I’m so tiny
That can fit in half of your hand
Or something like that you said
I like when you’re saying something like that
I like feeling like I’m your little doll
You can buy me clothes, buy me dresses
All the colors you want
Do what you want with me
I will follow any anywhere
If you treat me right
I might even become one day
Your lovely wife
I’ve given you my yes the other day
When you asked me
Will I marry you
And I didn’t even hesitate
Not for a second
For the first time
I finally knew what I want
Was I expecting it?
Not at that time
But yes
I’m saying yes to you
And to everything
What is about you
And now I’m passin your hometown
The city you haven’t been to
Quite for a while
You don’t even remember
Was it 4 years or 5
For you it doesn’t matter
I like when you’re saying this word
Because of your accent
So funny that now
I’m not even paying attention
To it
And it’s not important
As what language we speak
Where we both are
Where we’re from
Not important it all
I’m often forgetting
It’s so meditating
When you’re going by train
All these noises and rocking
Making me feel like me again

Lemme be a lil old school with this ink on the paper
Can I live in the moment alright and not care about later
Lemme be free as a child, dancing awkward
Lemme make all kind of mistakes,
Even impossible ones
I do feel like imposter
Wherever I go
Whatever I do
Maybe that’s what I am
There’s no escaping
Well **** that
I got burnt thousand times
So that no more scares me
Here I am high and dry
As pretty much always
Perhaps you should fall really down
To build up your wings and fly
All my ex roommates
Are getting married
Are making children
While I’m growing the list of my exes
I cannot relate to their problems
I’m probably too much of a problem myself
So that’s why all of my boyfriends eventually
Got rid of me
Or I got rid of them
Final applause to the old maid
You made it through again
Survival of the heartbreak
Make it plural
So that’s my silly poem
And no morality in it
It’s just a little part of story
About me

I don’t remember
Was I ever happy
Tell me about it
I wanna know
What does it like
To wake up with no fear?
How does it feel
To fall asleep without anxiety on?
Sing me a song
About how life is easy
When all is good
And you’re okay
Show me this dream
I want get closer
I want to touch it
Please don’t go
Stay
How are you so calm
When I’m all trembling?
How you’re so sure
While I’m in doubts?
And getting nervous tick
From the fake smiling
But smile of yours is true

Emotional replacement
Distortion
Got out of control
Lost in proportion
My intuition and my hesitation
Are playing with me
I’m not passing this test
Can’t give it a rest
And I’m protesting
And hoping for best
It’s my manifest
I’m on a quest
And questioning
All that I’ve learned
I feel like I’m locked
Between past and the future
But trying to put myself first

And I would give it a try
If I knew this is mine
But getting hopeless and cry
I’m alone all the time
With wrong people around
Who are messing with me
Oh I wish I was free
Let me make it all clear
I’m unhappy with being like this
From outside I’m adult
But deeply inside
I’m like abandoned child
Who doesn’t know what is right

You’re leaving bruses on my skin
Cracks on my heart
Tears on my cheeks
And then you’re leaving me