If I'm under the gaze
of the best amongst us
or us at our best

This breaks the crust
pauses the lust
I am hushed

I am involved in the
deconstruction

I am pulling lines
snags are breaking

do you now flop
on a warm beach

regret or enjoy
the warm sand

This time stuff
spilled all over

An' I wen' in t'
yesterday

an I watched
myself gettin' o'er

bein' me all day
in no pa'ticular way

I've just watched poetry
explode on someone's face
it went, literally,
all over the place

sawa gawa
tino sabi
its what you maybe
kimo say be
No not apricot
these wordss
if you're Endicott
that guy that guy
was knew once
for us ford us
im not insectual
wawa while
some guitar

Let's not wonder
what you meant

Methinks and then rinks
just to be unwrinkinkable

I can no longer
fathom the thinking
I used to keep
Twixt I and you

I imagined most of you
and all of me
and I knew
what we thought

I existed in the non existence
of thinking
hard all the time
on guard

I've abandoned thinking
as where I live
just visiting here
over from now

Then these be
pearls
Otherwise
hmmm

I was watching a cartoon
when I realized it was you
and me

finding our magic powers
comrading the hell out of
conflict

Or our portrayal of life
as such drama filled
reason

for a poem a good one
that elicits surprise
joydom

I meant something
not sure what
it was so
important

That's a space
to be filled
put something here
that has

and then

activated I strip
the moment

down for parts
I can reuse
being a poet
and all

digressing from
a hammer
of an evening
reaching

across a table
as if it was a
scene I saw
good blocking
elicits heartbreak

How shall I forget you
when I can't remember you
a conflagration appears
in your place
shrapnell sharply
holes your image
where my happiness
hung itself to dry

I don't know
why I left here
or even how
When is
under
investigation
no stone
will be
unturned
certain
one of them
knows why
and will
rock

In every sip
a poem
a song
in the aroma
alone
and then
I swallow
and allow the flow
take me home

Nothing just happened
again
Despite my best efforts
again

She and her and her
again
at some distance
again

why won't they listen
again
to my angry outcries
again

I am plastic
a vessel
a moment ago
I was choosing
to enjoy any moment
I might have
Then I read
a sad poem
here
and felt
crushed

For the one
who isn't drained

In a dramatic
turn of events

I waited until
Waiting uncomfortably
wait wait wait
and hold still

park it you

Maybe I'm a draft
of I imagine
the hope bringer

I sulk not
oh wait
I sulk
differently
and over
that too
I sulk
Ooomph
Don't you
Ok Ok
Ahll stop sulking
doom up for you

there

Much more many things
including mostly nothing
than me

An uneasy warbling sound
strung to your inner ear
from here

Clinging to a mattress as if
it meant to fall up from here
through me

Using my time well 'twer
a refrigerator magnet
holding firm

Erupting or blossoming
from aptly named carpet
another diem

Well
I am not staying
where things
make sense
Wait
What am I saying
What am I missing
I don't want them
to make sense
I want them
to wondrously
confound me
Lucy
Check

<my voice here
trying to be silent
arranging chairs>

I know that I'm operating
egregiously
uh we must flea
eh, free just me
in effect of lee
and am off the rails
that's not where they go
I just can't see that's me
nice off the rails softly
chumbling everything up
but listen sorry don't why
circulating between sips
behind the curtain quips
looky at that me and you
guffaw, you...<Rorschach test>
did you see your you there

tunneling through
reaching
balloon space
and I fit

I'm interrupting
your reaching
for this right now
I'm interrupting
everything
you think
you're thinking
right now
as if I'm the blues
playing just loud enough
you get carried away
into the blue blue blue
anyway you can

Do something
I'm just trying
to write a poem
and I need
something
not boring

and they
asked me
are you
calling me
"not boring"
I wish

Nah Zactly
that
No

You'd be close
if you
broke

Again while
breathing
time

And retching
lookatme's
smile

Si me
and tell me
love

I thought about you
all night
I pictured you
on and off

Taking it
as a good idea
we should
finally make time

I've penned this
opening volley
hoping you
feel a rush

And now I wait
languorously
for your
repartee

I waited for you
to love me
in anger

Your decisions
and the pressing
of all I am

Into your pocket
tucked down
nonchalant

I'd like to blah blah
I have so much
blah blah to offer
I believe

Blah blah
and want you
to believe
all the blah
so we can
believe blah blah blah
together

Can't you taste
the synchronization
over anachronism
all the dusty deities
thirsty so thirsty
have you been drunk
by them

Or go away
ok pretty much
most of you
nearly all
of you
should not
take my offer
mmffff ****

I can't make any room
for my broken heart

break faster and more
often I tell it

it screams and screams
back at me

of the gravel and root ends
its assed across

and you in your
comfort and joy

that was a ploy
I know

In your grit
for it

You'll form any
shape

So here you ventured
a line or two
and I kicked back
whatever arose

it is within
all this caution
all this old
let's not **** each other

lexicon of hejeebees
we have to give
each other
for nothing

when we really
really want
something entirely
to ****

You invented god
and hell and demons
and I'm really tired
of it and you

inventors of misery
laying in the sun
on our backs

Invent God
chirp to themselves
congratulations
and salutations

Daft fools writing poetry
I don't know why

Drinks or religion
i'd ruther be
an honest drunk
than a lying liar
of mythology

I will take you
to bed with me
drink

I will gulp you
down at once
drink

I hope you do
your job tonight
drink

As we all
find our way back
to humanity
and shed
mythology
and all its
twists
on us

Yes, you can exhale
and needn't worry
that these mf'ers
define you
as not
acceptable
here

They are not acceptable
here
and may take
their condemnations
over unruly
hardons
and blow

Yet, middle ages
still rule some tho
I think they recognize
their own demise
and are uglier
than even
their usual

It's here early
and I'm flat
wisdom is a pretense
I think
pretending
I have
something
here
for you
I don't

Let's take a different direction here
because this direction well

it hasn't paid off I don't think anyway
maybe this is about to be dreamy

and it is
really

dreamy like a cartoon hero
with cartoon lovers

smiling cartoon smiles
and the credits roll

under this typing
a keyboard

pulled from petroleum
probably, squeezed, formed, bored

with the formulaic way we fit
against everything we want

Look, I love you
and
you don't love me
simple right

It is too bad
I'm
your best friend
foff

Oh, wait
you're my
best friend too
foff

I'm losing my humanity
they has exited
stage left

It appears
this always
happens

yes more
to come and
more...

Not me
I'm stretching
and filling
Now up

So i
need more humans

Better and more
connections
reduce sag
And enable spring
and singing

Enumeration's vein holds you in place
a number to be counted upon
I might even expect it
to speak into my day
clowning 3 of 5
over 4 of 7

Is this delightful we wonder
to know our odds
and evens and where
we should try to use
reasons
for reasons

I am not counting you as here
so that deep feelings arise

I'm trying to have
a conversation
with you
while undergoing
self administered
electro-shock therapy
I think I will be
elucidated morely
by the nexxxxxxxt
oh helloly

Short and unreconciled
to the ledger
riven, (oh I like that word)
riven with now's salt
I meet you finally
as I have always desired
and you are - no can't use that again
enthralled,  oh ick, enamored
entranced, aenema'd out
with a shout of
***

We endeavor to be clean
or *****
and bleed one-sided
blood

File claims about clams
all shadows and shams

Are you doing anything
right now?

Would you want to

Normal amounts of water
in my abnormal sea

I don't have
that

I know I'm toeing
a line somewhere
I'm a good boy