Motionless


Still

Still like the air that surrounded us

Motionless beauty 

And here we sit

Still

Watching, and calculating 

Who would speak first?

Disrupting the peace of this natural situation 

Are you cold? Would you like a drink?

But I sit here

Still

Soft white petals on the moonlit surface

“Aren't they beautiful?”

You asked

But the light behind your eyes was anything but

We talked for hours upon hours as lillies danced

And then we sat again

Still

Still as my breath when I asked you out numerous times

Still as my heart when I asked you to be mine

Still as the frozen lilly pond we put outside our house in winter 

We warmed ourselves inside being anything but

As I praised your body

Still as the air that surrounds us in the doctor

Nine months later 

Still as the child spirited away from you

Lilly

Still as our quiet cold house

Motionless mourning

Spring came and the lilies bloomed 

And I found you floating in your favorite pond surrounded in white soft petals

Still

I stared 

And sat there

Still.