I try to go out to feel wanted
I try to stay close to friends to feel comforted
but nothing is clearly working
when I'm in a filled room or not
I still feel alone and the feeling never stops

I put on a smile,
I do my make-up
but when will my friends ever wake up
to the reality of my insecurity
to the pain I'm trying to scream but no one seems to hear me

its hard trying to put my feelings out there
its hard trying to express when I know they wont care
at the end of the day you have nothing to say
so why tell you in the first place

this empty lonely feeling feels like it can never be filled
no matter where I go, what I do
this feeling wont subdue

its hard to tame these emotions
when I don't have an escape button
its hard to say how I feel
when I don't know what you're really thinking
I'm afraid of it all, afraid of this world

so you could say I like being alone sometimes
but it has grown too attached to me, it has taken over my body
I never should've let the loneliness in
but it was the only thing there when I needed it

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As broken hearted as i may be
No one is as strong as me
Shattered like a vase i may be
But put me back together and I'll be fine you'll see

Put me in a storm i may emerge
Put me in a fire i may burn
But put me in the ocean, I'll float ashore
Of this one thing I am sure

It's all about Finding Peace in any situation
Cause life isn't guaranteed a happy ending

when I see you I cant help but smile
you take me to a place I ain't been in a while
the way your eyes find mine
it keeps me wondering what I'd find
beneath those cotton fabrics
is a man made of bricks

the one I must not dear touch
for you do not belong to me my love
I can only dream that day would come

fighting the urge to stay away
you pull me in closer with those soft silky words you'd say
you ****** me with your curled lips
placing your mind upon my hips
the tensions rise and I cant find myself
I'm lost the arms of the man who belongs to someone else

no we can not do this, our love is forbidden
no we must stay hidden
we can not fight for what is not ours
I must let you go be in the arms of another
your rightful lover

she may not be able to love you like I can
but the ring.... Is on her hand

I don't know how to feel anymore
you took my heart and threw it out the door
I'm lost for words, and I cant seem to over come the hurt

I'm trying to love but I don't know how anymore
you took my heart with you when you left me
now its just a black hole in my chest you see,
things wont always go my way I know
but you didn't have to kick me out for good

I loved you and that's all I ever did
and this is the payment I get
so confused, so lost, so cold
not knowing which direction to go

I just don't know.... anything... anymore

Our love is like a rose but it still has its thorns
it may be beautiful, but it has its ups and downs
Our love is like the sun, it will never grow old
till death do us part, no for eternity do we stay strong

Our love is like the ocean breeze,
it comes and goes as it please
our love is like the birds that fly
one day we're low , next thing we're high

Our love is like the leaves in spring
we fall, but when the cold season's past
the only thing our birds can do is sing

Our love is like four seasons
our love has every meaning
our love has every reason

Our love can never be forbidden

Doesn't matter how bad I want you
I know you'll never belong to me

No matter how much i love you
I know you'll never love a perfectly imperfect human like me

It's just reality

I can read between the lines
I can see the truth and lies
It would all be clear before my eyes

But i haven't seen your truth, or your lies
I cant find the space between your lines
Like troubled waters you appear
Hard to get you still so i can hear

I can't see the bottom of your lake
Your depth is like a never ending maze
So much to know, so much to say
Yet you find it hard to articulate

Your mystery is intriguing
You always leave me wondering
What's next to happen
Finding you was an adventure
Helping you find you will be like helping find treasure

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Leave me in the graveyard , till my time has come
Lay me down to rest, I'm tired , I'm done
Rock me back to sleep
I'll dream a good dream
Don't wake me up, don't want to wake to this reality
Throw me in the fire
Watch me burn, turn the heat up higher
Watch me as I melt, drink me like liquor
Bend me and mold me, just the way you want
Hopefully one day I'll be enough
Take my heart out on the surgery table
Dig me and ***** me with your needle
Watch me as I bleed
Don't need your help, don't need to breathe
Drown me in my own blood
See if it will make me tough
Grind me till I'm nothing
Beat me till I'm something
Take me and break me
Use me and abuse me
Treat and mistreat me
Always deceiving
Take away my eyes, don't want to see what I look like
I'm such a mess...
Thanks for your help.



                    D.A.S