I hope that while I'm getting myself together,
She doesn't lose hope

The dude that never wants problems, or
Do not have a thing for danger
Always gets confronted by trouble

That's why I make danger my business
I'm the suspect
The accused
The guilty
Not the witness

I never got into picking on someone who feared me or just wasn't dangerous at all

It's the head first collisions
And blood baths
That make my **** hard
Everyone isn't like that though

So
If you don't have *****
No matter what position you are in
***** **** *******
Even soft butts

So you know what?

Grow some nuts

She's looking for this perfect guy that only exist in heaven.
But she don't pray on him
She prey on weak men
Little that she know; the smaller the meal,
The more servings she needs
So her deeds seem like she doesn't wanna get saved
Her last dude make her resentful
Her new spirit is sinful
Yet, she looks for a guy to be forgetful
Someone who turns to the other cheek
Who don't mind when she creeps
Just praise him every now and then
All the things she thinks makes the perfect man
She won't even settle for a priest
And she far from a Nun herself

How many perfect men do you know?
None.
Or else...

I can't live my life this way
A family of Decency
Why would I go stray?

I can't live my life this way
My mother is a mother
Why is my girlfriend something other?

I can't live my life this way
I'm brilliant
What ever happened to being resilient?

I can't live my life this way
Doing anything for the dollar
What's wrong with being a scholar?

I can't keep living my life like this
Because I wasn't born this way.
I learned this...
But I learned a lot of ****
Negativity wasn't all
So what's my excuse?
Whatever I think of would be a lie
So what's the truth?

Truth is...
I'm not really ruthless
Fact is...
I'm acting
To let it be known...
MY MOTHER IS STRONG

How can I betray her this way?
By treating women that way
How can I take the love she gave me
And
Consider the way she raised me
And
...
Disrespect
Not provide
Not secure
The WOMEN

That's almost all she ask of me
That is my role right?
As a MAN
Born by a WOMAN
Born from a WOMAN
Made in a WOMAN
Share the blood of a WOMAN

But I'm not MAN enough to take full responsibility of a WOMAN'S
Child?
Counterpart
Friend
Lover?

What am I then?
Feminine?

Naaaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwww
Can't be
Just a suckah
For not standing up for what I know

Naive to my neck
A Knee deep *******
Full of ****

She was my grit
I let her slip through my grip
Her love was off the charts
How can I erase her from my grid?

Pin point affection
Shot directly through my heart

She was suppose to be the apple of my eye
But I slept on her
Literally she was my foundation
Because I stepped on her
She always tried to give me a hand
But I kept from her

Soon as she tried to leave
... There's welts on her...

I got my nerves, for my heart to be on my sleeves

To try to dictate her life
After she gave all she had

Selfishness surging through my pores

I didn't comfort her
But had a problem when she walked towards the door

Say no more
Yeah I'm lyrical
But I wonder if I'm ever gonna be ...

... be boyfriend material