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 Mar 21 Khoisan
Arii
Someone
 Mar 21 Khoisan
Arii
I’ll burn and
Break and
Desecrate
Myself

And
Pray
To some
non-existent god
That

I

could be

Someone
else

Someone
More

Someone.


Some.



One.
somone.
 Mar 21 Khoisan
Arii
Another year rolls
around.
Another step into the world,
out

there it is,
there it stays.

In front of me,
and I think;

What to do, what’s anew?
I could step into the downpour
and let the rain
fall down on me.

But I sit at home
Lay down
and let my mind wander.

What to do, what’s anew?

A million empty promises
I won’t see through.
Love making new years goals every 31st December knowing dang gosh well I'm not gonna get any of them done.
 Mar 21 Khoisan
Arii
I always loved the sky.
From its bright sunny blues in the morn’
To its oranges in the evening
To its pinks at early dawn

To the warmth of the sun
To the cool of the rain
To the thunder in the distance
To the snow and the hail

To the fluffy clouds in the day
And stars that shine at night
To the moon and the planets I
Couldn’t reach if I tried.

I always loved the sky.
For I could always become a part of it.
 Mar 21 Khoisan
Arii
Reflected
 Mar 21 Khoisan
Arii
My reflection
stares back at me

Water feels how
Soap tastes in my mouth,
Like a pile of worms
in my ears

My reflection ripples
in the surface
Of the clear liquid
My features warp like
A portal
Wrinkled fabric on a table

It feels like my face is
really twisting
Into this broken
deformed
mutated
Monster.

I hate that image

God, I wish it’d
disappear

for once
 Mar 21 Khoisan
Arii
Really?
 Mar 21 Khoisan
Arii
Sometimes nothing feels real
  Like I’m floating in some fever dream
     And unable to heal
          I gaze at the stars and think

                What if it’s all faux
                         What if it is all a dream?
                                      But it feels like I’ve stooped too low
                                                 To wait around and see

                                                                   Play around and
                                                                see

                                                                                Maybe it was never real
from the start

       Maybe the only thing fake was a part
                  Of
Me.
 Mar 21 Khoisan
Arii
What if I’m not enough
for
  you?
I know that I’m not enough
For
  You.
Is it too much to ask
For praise,
  a smile,
   a laugh?
But I’m met with silence
And it’s breaking me down
When will it be okay?
When will you at least
glance at me to say
That I’m anything worth
acknowledging?
Is my effort in vain?
Am I walking the wrong direction,
Or was there never a right path in the
First place?
Do you hear anything I plead,
Or was I never talking to you at all?
To a brick wall?
No,
To the empty expanse of void where there’s
  No
   one
To hear my words
Except myself
I want to hear your voice
But I can’t
Because at this point
I can’t hear anything.
Not because I’m deaf
But because you were right
And I got tired of my own
                                                Voice
But for my sake,
For my life’s sake,
Is it too much to ask
That you’ll wait for me at the end of the tunnel
And tell me
That that light
Was ever a chance worth taking?
Or
Was it never meant
for me at all?
 Mar 21 Khoisan
Arii
Sometimes I feel like
I’m stuck in a dark cage
With nothing for company
But a tiny, tiny flame.

It gives off
a comforting warmth.
It’s nice having company,
But still, I am torn.

I fear for the day
It’ll extinguish in a second or half.
I would feel not but sorrow,
For I do not have

A lighter, or a matchbox
To bring back its light.
What can I do,
If not, beg to keep it alight?
 Mar 21 Khoisan
Arii
Here, Now.
 Mar 21 Khoisan
Arii
I
can’t
Tell.  if
The      sky
Above       Is real

Or not          Quite there

Quite near                            Enough
To hold                                                   The stars
In the                                                                             Palm of
My hand                                                                                         And be
So glad                                                                         That I
Can see                                             The light
That shines         All through

The night.       Will it

Go out? Will it?

Will      it?

Go
out?
 Mar 18 Khoisan
JL Vega
We met
We talked
We pretended
We laughed
We considered
We agreed
We exchanged
We left
It was like a kiss from a rose
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