Ariel

Ariel Dec 2019

Tried to get you outta my mind
But my heart has you in rewind
Everyone says you'll hurt me again
But I honestly don't care in the end
I just want you and only you
I tried to replace you
To make him into you
I honestly don't know what to do
I've made him feel so blue
But oh the touch of your lips when we kiss
Is something I always miss
I'd move anywhere for you
For you there's nothing I wouldn't do
My heart is yours
It's like a curse
A spell I never want broken

Ariel Dec 2019

Cole ❤️

I may not be the prettiest or the smartest girl but I will love you the hardest I will alway make time for you and never have you second guessing where I'm at or who I'm talking to cause I only want you I may not know alot about hockey but I'll still watch it with you I may not have the patience to go fishing but I'll support you in doing it and go with you if you'd like heck momma sue goes with Richard and reads a book I could do that for you ill even bait a hook and buy you supplies I may not be the best at playing pool but I'll still go with you and have fun and learn more and improve my skills i may not be the easiest to deal with at times but I promise you I'm worth it i may not be the perfect girl in any aspect But I promise to be perfect for you Because I love you
And you're perfect to me
And I love the way you smile when you're next to me

Ariel Sep 2019

It's not you it's me, or is it?

My Mind Is Screaming TOday
Saying *** YOU'RE Not OK
STARTED As A normal day
THEN MY Thoughts began to decay
Thought Of Me And YOU
HAPPY THOUGHTS
THEN Outta The BLUE
The Thought Of Losing YOU
NOT BECAUSE YOU can't love me
But BECAUSE Im Unlovable
This Is Why They Always LEAVE
I'm Mentally broken
I'm too needy
I Attach so quickly like a leech
They ALL End Up LEAVing
ONE TOLD Me I was the best but left me anyway...
If I'm THE Best THEN WHY Give Me Away?
I am happy....
So WHy do I wanna cry today
I Am Beautiful in and out...
It's MY Mind That's the one that likes to shout....
Am I Unlovable...
Or DO I convince my self I am?
DO I Make Them LEAVE...
Or Do I LOVE TO Hard?
Is IT Actually them like they say
... or is it me...
And I'm Really Not OK

#mentalbreakdown

#mental #breakdown

Ariel Jun 2019

The bottom

I feel my life slipping through my hands
I honestly don't understand
I had my own place, a car and friends
Now im at my dad's with a broken car and just him
Watching all my loved ones lives come to an end
On June 13 of 2019
Is this the bottom or does it get better?
My face have never been wetter
I want to give up and give in
But "it will get better" ok.... When?
This is not a suicide note...
Just a thought that my mind wrote..

#riplexi
#10/27/95-06/13/19

Ariel Apr 2019

I'm not quite ready

I saw you Thursday
You were a bit different if I'd have to say
You smiled and talked to me...
Acted as if it never happened
But for me I still fight it everyday
I start fights with the new guy
But he knows. It's me healing from an old guy
He knows all about you
Why'd you message me...
Why did I come out to see you...
I don't want you or love you
Not anymore
Someone else is fightingg to get in
But I haven't let him in yet
Because. I have it locked from the inside
Due to the pain from the old guy.
The old guy being you

Ariel Mar 2019

Is this healing?

You messaged me today
I listened to what you had to say
My heart didn't hurt
You didn't try to flirt
You apologized to me
And said you'd like to see...
You'd like to see me and catch up
I said okay
I could talk to you today
Is this healing
Because I have no feeling
I have no feelings left for you

#healing

Ariel Feb 2019

Brandon

It's about time
Time I tell them your name
Brandon
Gorgeous blonde hair
Hazel eyes...
But they're filled with lies...
You're not my type..
You're far from it
But I fell for. It
Was it worth it... Brandon?
Was it worth it...
You said I was different from the rest...
That I treated you the best...
Now I'm sitting here crying...
Because you Said you loved me...
Now those words I cannot trust...
A knife into my heart you ******...
Now I can't have a relationship....
Because my self I cannot trust...
And I won't do what you did to me...
To someone else...
Fix your self...
Because you broke the girl who loved you the most...
Worst part...
She.. Me..
I STILL LOVE YOU!

#brandon