everybody would have seen it coming
i've been waiting my whole life to die

I carried in 20 pounds of groceries today...

Food I'll never eat.
Crawling back to bed I think
About the 20lbs I'm missing.

Everything is fine.
Going to the grocery store was...
Almost passing out

Weaving in and out of people
Staring. Why are they staring?
The metal under my hand as hot as my face.

It's suffocating.
This metallic taste.
I'm so hungry.

Everything is fine.
Is what I tell
Friends and family.

But nobody knows
I go straight to sleep
When I get home.

I want to die.
But I'm too scared.

So I silently cry under my sheets
With no energy to
Get up or eat.

you don't really know anything about me
I've changed so much since last week

you never ask me
now you're wondering

was it something you said
is it going to hurt

you're annoying me
so I'm closed off

I'm so tired of feeling guilty
why don't you talk to someone besides me

for those of us whose arms bend backwards
I see you behind the mirror
And I know you die
The moment those headphones are in

I'm a loser

I lose everything

I lost you

lost myself too

am I crazy

why did everyone leave

all my dreams were stars

they died

surrounded by black holes

I lost all the stars to the night sky

I lost the sun too

I'm a loser