Pull down the shades so that no one can see.
I'm locked in with you now - what's on TV?
I'll rip off my nails and tear out my hair 
by morning you'll wonder how I bruised there. 
Just you and me lying down on the couch
you can bite off my tongue, I'll still play house. 
I'll pour you a drink, do every dish,
shove a spoon in my eye - I'll be your *****.

To fry a heart—

Hold it
with one hand.
Tap it gently,
create a crack.
Use both thumbs.
Insert your thumbs
into the crack
and gently pull
it apart,
drop the contents
into a hot pan.

2. To whip a mind—

Chill the
watery liquid,
start pouring slowly.
Begin whipping.
Be mindful
to prevent
splattering.

Increase speed:
soft peaks
will start to form.
Watch closely:
when it
gently folds over,
stop.

For stiff peaks, whip'
to straighten out
without collapsing.
Sweeten
if desired.

Don’t over-whip—
it will
turn to
butter.

3. To bake a body—

Combine
the dry parts,
add water and mix
until a sticky
dough forms.

Knead
hard.

Leave her
in a warm place,
until she doubles
in size.

Let her rise.
Then turn her out
on a flat surface
and shape her.

Let her rest,
then bake her
'til she’s golden
and sounds hollow
when tapped.

Let her
cool down.
She is
ready
to serve.

Bring a goat or sheep
or the accused or the mad
or a hostile woman-
so near the knife’s edge of the sea
that their blood will spill into the brine.

The sea is bountiful,
but it must be fed.
Dark clouds gather.
You will smell it before you see it-
a black column of rain
blowing over the horizon

And the twisted bodies,
will roll in the surf
like empty shells
until the tide pulls them out.

Pink and round and new,
newborn baby smooth.
Cross my hands it’s true
no more saving you

this is a prayer called Clonidine.
It is the best song I will sing.
Baby it ain’t no thing it’s just
a prayer called Clonidine.


See the red sun before the gale,
feel the wind that shreds the sail.
Waves they crash upon the sand,
over and over, in Neverland.

This is a prayer called Clonidine.
The last song that I will sing.
Baby it ain’t no thing it’s just
a prayer called Clonidine.

Let Clonidine lay me down,
I don’t wanna hear another sound.
Eyes rolled back heaven’s been found.

No longer pain, just ecstasy.
Endless ocean calm and free,
no longer swimming against the sea.

This is a prayer called Clonidine.
The last song that I will sing.
Baby it ain’t no thing it’s just
a prayer called Clonidine.

Let Clonidine lay me down,
I don’t wanna hear a sound.
Eyes rolled back heaven’s been found.

No morning follows these lullabies,
no birds will sing, no sun will rise.
Just silence now, a velvet shroud—
all tucked in, heads are bowed.

Jolly green shuttles in my hand,
prepped for launch, no place to land.
Cross my hands, calm and still—
This is a prayer called Ativan.
It’s the last thing I can stand.

Let Ativan lay me down.
I don’t wanna hear another sound
Eyes rolled back heaven’s been found.

A lunar landing, breathless, cold.
The stars are near, heartbeat slows.
Darkness deeper than the chill—
A cosmic flight in a little pill.

This is a prayer called Ativan,
medicine so profound
let Ativan lay me down,
I don’t wanna hear a sound.

no more pain, just ecstasy.
A world away, peaceful and free,
no longer fighting against me.

This is my prayer, my last will
a sweet embrace in a little pill.
Good drugs lay me down,
I don’t wanna hear a sound.

This is a prayer this is a prayer this is a prayer…

I met you on the edge where light begins,
crowning gold op’ning the eyes of my soul.
In me you touched a vast, unfolding plan
to love brightly once, and once be made whole.

Loves long extinguished, ghosts of the jet sky:
waking stars distant embers of last night
will arc toward shadow and what has begun:
our joy the blaze of summer at its height,

I felt it then — the dimming of the flame,
a steel ice wind cutting flesh off the bone
a final green flash, a trick of the light
you dove through the waves and I was alone.

You were my day. In a bright arc we passed:
through hope, through joy, through grief. My first, my last.

He sleeps, while I writhe.
My legs sea serpents dancing
to an ancestral song,
silken skin, smooth, reptilian —
I’ve ached too long.

He dreams of clocks and duties,
while mystery gyrates —
Calypso’s desire in me.
But his passion’s pulse,
more near to death than sleep,
lies drowned, flattened;
a ghostly galleon on the seabed.

There must be more than this —
my belly, blood, breath agree —
for pulling, twisting, gasping,
I must myself please.

At long last, spit out, washed up
of rolling waves, upon longing’s shore —
a salty, glistening, uncoiled creature,
in the light of the new day’s sun.

Today there were birthdays
today there were deaths.
Today shimmered like gold,
and shattered like glass.

There were some gains,
there was some loss,
somewhere there was sunshine
somewhere there was frost.

Cheers and hurrays
and loud ringing phones,
some made their money,
others stayed home.

Some played great music,
some sat in stillness.
There was birdsong and bombs,
there was health, there was illness.

There was a massive typhoon
there was a sweet gentle rain
some they were grateful
others complained.

Some had full bellies
others were starving
some they were healing
others were dying

Love it bloomed bright,
others fell to the floor
grieving their losses
wailing just one day more.

But while others were busy
and nature was too,
and life was
unfolding ever anew,

I stopped for a moment
to promise you this:
my love you forever,
sealed with a kiss.