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500 · Dec 2017
Within
Cameron Dec 2017
The emptiness within.
The longing for something greater.

And yet the total lacking that is deeply embedded inside my mind.

Why does it have to be this way.
Is there no one who will receive.

And yet hope lies with those who don't even know they provide it.

Maybe there is a chance that something will change.
I know I have the ultimate say in the end.
435 · Mar 2019
Untitled
Cameron Mar 2019
She's falling through my arms
Slipping through my fingers
There goes the girl I haven't met yet.
418 · Jan 2019
Untitled
Cameron Jan 2019
My favorite
songs are the ones
that make me forget
what silence sounds like.
401 · Jan 2018
You
Cameron Jan 2018
You
The person in my life I never quite new how to talk too.  

How can I help?

At every chance I get, I swear I try to let you in.



Isolation won't comfort you.



You might think being alone will make you

stronger.


Is it just

A cry for aid?

Or maybe you were like this from the start.



I don't want to see you like this anymore.
395 · Jan 2019
Double bass
Cameron Jan 2019
A glass, half full
Slides down the wooden surface
and sits comfortably in your hand.

A new glint in your eye,
as the jazz band plays
and the old patron snuffs out another cigarette

Something like hope it seems.

A new urge to fulfill the pursuit of happiness,
funny that it was born in such an unsuspecting place.

I guess it's true what they say about clouds and silver linings,
just a shame it had to wait till now.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Np8PJDGq_A&ab_channel=60otaku4
294 · Dec 2019
Untitled
Cameron Dec 2019
Isolation is protection
Protection is aloneness
Aloneness is sorrow
And sorrow leads you back
Back to those you love.
290 · Jan 2018
Untitled
Cameron Jan 2018
Every night, lying awake, staring at the ceiling.

Pretending that things will get better.

Pretending that it will pass.


Empty even now. When I should be happy.

When the problem has been resolved, and the feeling still remains, more problems are revealed.

What can I do to change it.

I know sitting here will do me no good.

Does writing these even help?

Has my escape been corrupted?

Does anyone even care?


Sounding pathetic, as usual.

The only thing you're good at is feeling sorry for yourself.
Why don't you just do us all a favour and ...

Surely there was more to you than that. Has the soul left you?

Has the essence of what made you gone to a far away land.

Does it call to you?

Do you want to join it?

Who are you? Really. Look at yourself. Make up your mind. Living in a constant cycle of disappointment, unfulfillment, and misery is no way to live.

Just stop talking

Just stop trying to make others relate

Just stop typing
267 · Jan 2018
Pt2
Cameron Jan 2018
Pt2
'Merely misunderstood' he used to think, but now realises the problem lies much, much deeper.

The chains tighten as he clambers for a breath of air, holding him prisoner for the appeal of an audience.

Kept alive for the entertainment of others.
261 · Jan 2019
Fears
Cameron Jan 2019
I am. Afraid.
I am afraid of getting any older, and still accomplishing nothing of note.
I am afraid that I will let my family down.
I am. Afraid.
I am afraid that I am wasting my time.
I am afraid that I will alienate the people I love.
I am afraid I will lose them.
I am. Afraid.
I am afraid that I am dishonest with myself.
I am afraid that there are sides of me that I can't control.
I am afraid that I will change for the worst and not be the best version of myself.
I am. Afraid.
I am afraid if I bite my tongue anymore it will fall off.
I am. Afraid.
244 · Dec 2019
Gentleman
Cameron Dec 2019
A great, and solemn ending
For the esteemed gentleman

A life lived for others
Not lived at all

Never seeking own joy
Never seeking anything

Was he ever alive to begin with?
240 · Jan 2022
Blessings and Curses
Cameron Jan 2022
When the problem has been resolved, and the feeling still remains, more problems are revealed.

It is a simple modicum of truth, but a truth nonetheless. For this is the path that awaits us all.

Around every corner you believe lies the answer you seek, when in reality, there are never truly any answers, only more questions, and only more unravelling of oneself.

And if you endeavour to go deep enough, you may never return.
238 · Jan 2018
Pt4
Cameron Jan 2018
Pt4
Later in the night, when the crowd was gone, and the creature was left alone to his tears, and bloodied body.

A man approached him in his solitude.

The answer to his problems?

Or perhaps, just a gateway to more.

That remains, a mystery.
234 · Feb 2018
Untitled
Cameron Feb 2018
I don’t belong in this world anymore. The color has faded, and the rain has come. Where there was once sun, there is only darkness. Where there was once happiness, only sorrow and pain.

There he stands. The tall looming doorway, almost as inviting as his cold, lifeless embrace, but an embrace nonetheless. I just want to cry. I just want the stars to take me into their embrace, so I can float far above this planet, and leave it all behind, but at the same time, I never want to leave. A coward maybe?

‘Where is my mind?’
232 · Jan 2018
Come with me
Cameron Jan 2018
I just wanna get away from this place.
                                                                   Escape all the
                        Noise        
                                  And
                                         Confusion.

Just pack up.
                      Take a
           Leap
                   Of
                       Faith.

I wanna dance, sing, cry, and do it all over again.

I just wanna
                                                 Live

I just wanna
                                              Be Free.


Wanna come with me?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hdpzbm93_AY&ab_channel=Cabvno
217 · Nov 2018
Potential
Cameron Nov 2018
Potential is a double-edged sword.
It can give us the power to achieve our goals
To fight the ineptitude within our souls
To slay the demons

However if not wielded correctly, potential, or rather, the lack of proper harnessing can be devastating,

Each day, noticing how much better you could be.
You would think that would be a good self-motivator
Yet you don't move forward,
You sit upon a throne of meaninglessness
And you've given yourself the title knowingly,
But still, you don't strive for better even though you know it's the right choice.

Why?

Potential is a double-edged sword.
215 · Dec 2019
Untitled
Cameron Dec 2019
Triumphant victory, sews seeds
For a catastporhic downfall.
210 · Oct 2018
It goes on
Cameron Oct 2018
It's a dark city night
The streets lit up dimly by streetlights
A gentle rain pours down on my face
I don't mind it though
The rain gives me comfort for some reason
Even makes me crack the occasional smile

I stop to think about my life
Wants to travel - doesn't want to work
Wants to make a name for himself - doesn't want to try
Wants so much more
But just dragged down by this nagging feeling.

It's a pain
Been with me since I can remember
I'd just like to be free from it ya know.

Be something more than myself.
Still me, just. Better.

There is so much I want to do and yet I can never in a million years see myself doing any of these things.

Why is this?

Who knows.

The pendulum just keeps on swinging regardless.

Maybe I wasn't taught certain things in life.
Maybe I've already missed my chance.

Life goes on though.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ptwcZ574blo&ab_channel=akaknopfler
206 · Jul 2023
The King
Cameron Jul 2023
What words are given strength?
For the speaker and the listener dance within the air,
Each attuned to the truth of beauty and the blessings of the eyes.

Yet the Jester seeks chaos and releases his vile machinations beneath ignorance,
Determined and unbroken,

But the semblance fades quickly in dark corners and empty spaces,
And the outward chaos points in once more,
To strike as the archers arrow,
Or the butchers blade.
199 · Apr 2019
Sad lofi boi
Cameron Apr 2019
Recently I've been trying to think thoughts that I like the sound of.

Instead of letting my head been the roaming ground of nihilism and self-doubt, I'm trying to take life one step at a time.

Treat people with no prior prejudices, act in a way that makes me proud, and appreciate the fact, that everyone around me finds life just as hard as I do.

We all bear the burden that is life, and we each have a responsibility to ourselves to not let it go to waste.

All those cat poster sayings really are true...
197 · Jan 2018
Untitled
Cameron Jan 2018
Why
do
I
bother
?
196 · Jan 2018
Away
Cameron Jan 2018
I think they’re gone

But

I can still hear faint traces of wandering sound.

Trying to tell me different things.

I think i’m safe for now.

As far away as possible from the demons.

Each time having to face them. Telling myself I am in control.

If it wasn’t for the lights in the dark then I’d surely be lost.

A puppet of my own mind.

Thanks to them, I’ve once again made it out.
196 · Jan 2018
Whoops
Cameron Jan 2018
I'm trying hard.

To some people it comes more naturally, but too me,

I'm in way over my head.

I do think I'm doing something with the right intentions though, but I just don't know how to do it the correct way.

It's frustrating, and infuriating, and I think I've already messed up.

Might as well quit while I'm ahead.
194 · May 2018
HuMaN AE
Cameron May 2018
The darkness within ones self is truly terrifying,
And knowing that darkness, and facing it,
May be even more terrifying.

Confronting the deepest parts of our subconscious.

We have all had these battles with ourselves.
At the time winning or losing may seem incomparable
to the pain you might feel.

But facing our monsters, and telling them that we are the ones who are truly in control,
Can give us the strength to conquer the world.

You can win.
I think :^)
194 · Jan 2018
Space
Cameron Jan 2018
There's nobody out there, beyond the wall.

A vast empty space, littered with the bodies of people I once knew.

It all feels like a lifetime ago, but part of me could’ve sworn it was just yesterday.
189 · Jan 2018
Again
Cameron Jan 2018
The sun has been frozen in the sky ever since I can remember.

But now something has changed.

No one understands it, but everyone fears it.


A cog on the wheel has finally turned.




The machine has restarted.




It's moving beneath the clouds, charging for the horizon.

No matter how hard I try to make it stop, it's relentless march continues.



Down it goes.




Darkness.
182 · Jan 2018
Night falls.
Cameron Jan 2018
As the light fades,
Fear tends to manifest itself in various forms.

Simple things, like the beast under your bed.
A flicker in the corner of your eye, or a noise you swear you heard.

Or maybe it runs deeper.

Crawling under the sheets, whispering in your ear.

Misleading your dreams, and turning them into nightmares.


Begging for the sunrise to come, but when it does,

The realisation that it will

never

stop.

Each night, plagued by the same fears as before.

The daytime spent, with only momentary satisfaction.

And once again,

Night falls. Madness dawns.
182 · Sep 2019
Untitled
Cameron Sep 2019
Does anyone really know
The Real Me
?
181 · Jan 2018
Control
Cameron Jan 2018
Something is going on inside me and I can't seem to stop it.


The wheel has been turning since the day I was born. I can see that now.


Was it always leading down this path?


Did it always have to end this way?
180 · Jan 2018
Pt1
Cameron Jan 2018
Pt1
The beast, a creature that once stood tall and proud, is now mocked by the chains, and people, that hold it.

The children, who would've once cowered in fear, now point and laugh as it struggles hopelessly.

The shadowed figures in the background exchange goods just like any other day.

'Bring down the monster' the crowd cheers.
178 · Jan 2018
The Mask
Cameron Jan 2018
The Mask comes on and off in it's own time.

I don't get to choose.

The Mask drives people away.

People I don't want to lose.

The Mask mocks me.

I fear that soon I won't be able to force it off.
176 · Jan 2018
The Problem
Cameron Jan 2018
How do you tell someone when they are wrong?

Is it better to just let what is so deeply ingrained carry on?

I suppose it's the easiest thing to do.

To let your courage take a rest whilst the underlying problem persists.

Never weakening, never fading, but only gaining more control over it's host.

And all I can do is watch.

A bystander to the destruction caused,
and a victim.

What is the right answer in a situation with no positive outcome?
176 · Jan 2018
Untitled
Cameron Jan 2018
Hidden behind you
Each whisper in the ear, a
Light tap on the shoulder,
People don't understand.



Moments pass when it's not there

Each time, managing to convince me, maybe I'm safe.
175 · Mar 2019
Untitled
Cameron Mar 2019
Being aware of how little you know.
Is a truly smart thing.
172 · Jan 2018
Pt3
Cameron Jan 2018
Pt3
'Maybe it was my fault'.

'I should've known this would happen'.

It seemed that now, the end was in sight. Everyday was just a slow advance of time, he thought would bring him his doom.

But,

He wasn't getting off that easy.

Each day, just like the last. A wall of pain all around him.
168 · Dec 2017
Demons
Cameron Dec 2017
I was sure that I was screaming for help.

But it turned out it was only in my head.

A head filled with noise from who knows where.

Yet I was deadly silent. With the only sounds coming out being muffled cries, as if there was somebody with their hand over my mouth.

It was just me cutting myself off with my own thoughts.

Letting loose the demons in my minds. Letting them take control for a short while.

When this will end I don’t know.



But here I am. Still screaming for help, with only myself to hear the cry.
168 · Dec 2017
Sheep
Cameron Dec 2017
The lack of color seems obvious,
But the sheep remain ignorant to it’s spreading control.

Some choose to stand,
But the majority refuse to unite.

The constant supply of waste put in the food pile, surely testament to the failure of the farmers.
But nothing changes.

The sheep remain pinned in by the dogs,
And the bland cycle continues, until the day of the slaughter.
162 · Oct 2018
The corner
Cameron Oct 2018
Just up there, around the bend
Is the thing that people have been telling you about your whole life

you're unsure how to feel about it
but there it is anyway

relentless
unyielding

on a continuous path with it's destination set to you.

Now it's up to you how to deal with this thing. you can shrink

run away

hide inside a familiar place and make no progress

The easy path

Or

you can stand tall
stand resolute

try with all your heart to do what is right, and make yourself proud

The hard path

The choice is yours.
162 · Jan 2018
Untitled
Cameron Jan 2018
I've been alone for so long now.

The problem keeps getting recognised, but nothing is ever done.

Is it down to me to make the first move?

How can I.
159 · Oct 2018
no
Cameron Oct 2018
no
Well looks like it really is over now

No one to blame but myself

again.

No ones fault but mine

again.

Had one good thing and I lost it.

All throughout my life it seems things like this keep happening.

I seem to be the variabe causing chaos for me and others around me.

But I'm trying to not let it whittle me down.

The mood inside is so dreadfully low, but the stiff upper lip must remain.
152 · Aug 2018
Framed
Cameron Aug 2018
A world concealed within a single frame.
Free will held back by a glass wall.
Within your grasp, but at the same time so very distant.

Having the freedom, to be free, but choosing the ignorant option.
Choosing to remain as a single, isolated being.

Questions rise up in your mind. Such things as good and evil, but does any of that matter, when trapped in a tiny box of your own making?

Something is lacking now. Something leaves a hollow feeling in your heart. You know what it is, but you can't say it out loud.
145 · Dec 2018
Untitled
Cameron Dec 2018
It's that time of year again.
My head in my hands.
Thinking about what progress I've made.

Nothing.
The end is near.

I just want to burst into tears, but I can't seem to manage.
Even that, I can't do.
A disappointment.

But I want to live.

There are things I want to do,
So many things.

So

I'll keep going,
Even if it's painful
Even if it's hard

I'll keep going.

For me.
So I can become the person I want to be.
Because if I don't do that, no one else will.

I will keep.
Going.
135 · Jan 2018
D u n o
Cameron Jan 2018
The dull green taint of the land.
The bright sun that blinds the eye.

The end of it all.

But,

The beginning of something new.
134 · Dec 2019
The rain
Cameron Dec 2019
I would always be the one to leave the room.
To stand in the rain

And stare longingly into the distance
Hoping and waiting for something
Or someone
That would never come

My ideals forever under lock and key
Preserved behind a wall

Sadness and fear swallow me whole
knowing that
I will truly
Be alone

For all time
131 · Mar 2019
Wake up
Cameron Mar 2019
Realize that your actions, affect those around you.
Realize that suffering, pain, and loneliness are all parts of life,
But they do not define who you are.
Realize you have the potential for greatness.

W A K E  U P
128 · Nov 2018
Untitled
Cameron Nov 2018
Everyone looks the same
until you get to know them
127 · May 2021
Redemption or Dismay
Cameron May 2021
My home is gone.

The world I knew and all those who came with it have perished. Now I am all that remains.

The heat of the day and the chill of the air at night have altered things in ways that I cannot describe.

I fear that madness has gripped my soul. Each day feels like an hour, and each hour passes so quickly.

All the meandering and aimless purpose that I pursue is for nothing.


It seems that even the dust that surrounds me has a destiny far greater than I.

Perhaps if I endeavor to leave my somber nightmare things could change. Leave it for pastures and people unknown.

However, I don’t think I can muster the strength nor the courage.

Both of those have long since faded and mixed with the sand beneath my feet. I know deep in my bones that is what I must do.

But perhaps it is buried too deep. Deep beneath the colorless ocean of flesh that sits atop my breaking body.

To find it would be a miracle.

Redemption or dismay lies ahead. The fortunes of the world lie in the palm of your hand. Seek and you shall find. Turn a blind eye and you will perish never realizing the true potential of your being.
126 · Dec 2019
Untitled
Cameron Dec 2019
The man is me,
My thoughts culminated onto paper are a reflection of myself,
Of the demons inside,
As well as the light that faintly shines.
126 · Mar 2019
Untitled
Cameron Mar 2019
Sometimes I feel a sense of overwhelming beauty in the world,
So much so that it brings a tear to my eye.
Is this what God is?
Or is God long dead?
126 · Apr 2019
A - Flat- D
Cameron Apr 2019
A phoenix from the ashes
Once again struck down,
by the darkness.
It's hopes and dreams ripped from its chest.

Leaving only an empty cavity.
Its life goes on though.

In a semi-conscious kind of way -
it's alive.

Although it thinks it died years ago.
Only to realize on its deathbed that it's too late.
The time has gone.
123 · Aug 2019
Self induced dread
Cameron Aug 2019
It seems the madness has truly intertwined with my soul.
My face is no longer my own.
My persona is out in full force.
Each day I question my own reason for being.
My own reason for living.

My mind is a maze I can no longer traverse alone.
I often get lost in those grand hallways of my cruel imagination,
and I fear that soon I may get led astray and never find my way back.

What is this feeling?

This painful longing.

This imposing dread.

This endless terror.

.

I am afraid.

So very afraid.

I do not know what to do.

Sometimes I feel as if I am not even human.

I cry, but no tears fall from my face.

I weep, but no sound leaves my mouth.

What is this feeling?

What have I become, but a walking carcass where a man once was.

.
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