Jonas

Jonas May 20

Sometimes you do get lucky
You meet people who don't use you
Up
Don't wear you
Out
Like the rest of them

Who don't just try you on for size
Force you down
Rip something
Wear and tear
And then throw it back on the shelf
For someone else to sort out

What's that about?

Jonas May 17

Zillennial

Bitter erinnere mich, daran
Wieder mehr wie ich selbst zu sein
So wie ich früher war
Als kleiner Junge zwischen Wiesen und Wäldern
Noch zu viel Angst vorm Fahrrad fahren

Erinnere mich
An jeder Pusteblume zu pusten
Knallerbsen zu werfen
Kastanienmänner zu bauen
Und Blütenschnäbel auf der Nase zu tragen

Erinner mich
An Flieder zu riechen und Sauerampfer zu essen
Gummistiefel zu tragen und in Pfützen zu hüpfen
Den Regen auf der Haut zu spüren
Schneemänner zu grüßen, Schlitten zu fahren
Und im Gras zu liegen, jetzt im Sommer
Den Blick zum Himmel gerichtet
Dort wo die Vögel fliegen
Zu jeder Wolke gehört ein Name
Zu jedem Stern

Erinnere mich bitte daran
Denn ich vergesse so schnell
Was wirklich zählt im Leben
Zwischen all ihren Regeln
Erinnere mich, damit ich wieder frei atmen
Und das Leben genießen kann

Jonas May 17

Real progress

When will we be finally able
To bottle

The silence of mountain tops
After a long walk up and the wind just drops
That smell
After the first summer rain
Just stopped
Of fresh cut grass and fig leaves in the sun
The bite of a cold winter night
And the taste of your lips on mine?

Jonas May 17

Caged animal

Locked away
Forced to be domesticated
It turns cannibalistic
Eats you up from the inside
If you don't feed it a little
If you keep it starving
Away from daylight and fresh air

It will grow larger, growl louder
Taking up more and more room
Tunrning you hollow
Till you have to pay mind
Or it gets strong enough to take over
The reigns
And run wild
Time for payback

You can't deny your own nature
If it feels trapped it will try to get out
Finding violent ways
Fighting for control
With the animal inside
Howling to be heard

So don#t forget to let it walk around
From time to time
Stretch out it's legs
And get some pets

Who knows
You might gain a friend

Jonas May 17

Untitled

Had enough?
Looking to stop
A quick way out, taking the exit?
There's two at the front, two at the back and four in the middle
Pull the cover and push to the side
All you have to do is jump
Feeling anxious again?
Yeah that *****

But look
Imagine how far you could go
Where you could be one, two, three, ten years from now
You'll be taking off, flying
To hot to handle

Gran says be careful around the stove
Wear mittens

Jonas May 17

Stop

I'm so sick of it

Sick of all the insecurity
Sick of being silent and invisible
Of being used and exploited
Just another number in some system
That I grew into
Sick of being forced to do things
That are "mandatory"
But without reason or logic behind them
Outdatet
Sick of being taken for granted
All the disrespect
I'm sick of nodding along, being understanding
I want to be done with it

But can't get out of my skin
Not for long
Not running on a dead line or anything
But I'm feeling like I'm running out of time
I'm missing out on so much
Again no better yet still
I can feel it slipping through

So I go away
Looking for a better place
For me, to stay
Look for people who care, who appreciate me
And know how to show it
Maybe
One day I can call a place my home
One day
It's gonna be okay

Jonas May 16

A letter to my younger self

Walk a mile in my shoes
No, better even
Try running

Borrow my eyes for one evening
To see the world
From my point of view
To see as I do
To see how I see you

Maybe then you'll believe me
How great you really are
I do
I really love you

Maybe then you could see it too