How do you go
Find home in another person
Looking for familiarity
When your parents messed you up real good?
What if you can't trust your instincts?

When you don't want to end up with resemblense
Just another version of them
In your bed the next morning
Their mantra stuck in another sack of flesh
Sweat on the sheets, bad skin
Eating, *******, all consuming
They'd be so proud
Cheers to  our tradition

Your words raise red to the wind
Sounds like landmines and pitfalls to me
But what can you do
That's alawys been my colour
Painted as a cross across my chest
It suits me best
Just what I'm deserving

Let's get married
Can't wait for our honeymoon honey
Can't wait to mess up our kids
Let's raise our glasses
A toast
Cheers to our heritage

Ligthing my house on fire

I don't want to die
Not really
I wan't to live
So much left in my chest to give

Life is beautiful
It's worth to be experienced
It's society that's bringing me down
Can't look up
Gazed pinned to the ground

Sometimes I just can't see it
Sometimes I don't feel it
Sometimes I don't want to
To get up, go on
What's the point?

Lying here
In my house on fire
I feel warm

How is it
That I've learned to see the beauty in the everyday
In them, who they could be
I'm talking potential
Yet I can't seem to see any in me
Could you help me?
Maybe teach me?
Just for a little

I've never learned to live life
You see?
Can't seem to figure it out
Ah the question
How to do it right

I feel like I've missed out on a lot
Came short, short king
So much to catch up on
Yet here I am
Alone in my bed
Unwilling to move

Please
Let me feel the pain
I'll take it on fully
Let me cry rivers on end
And I'm talking ugly crying

Wheezing, shaking, rocking, howling
Whiping snort away
I'm way past overdue
For so long I've held it together
Kept it up
I've unlearned how to let it all go

Please
Allow me right now
To let it out
You'll have to excuse me for the display
And for the sobbing you see
I've never had a place
Where I felt safe
I've never found my people
And I've been losing my ground

A collection of scents
Jars stacked high with strange contents
Cursive, faded labels
Weird shapes within
Shattered shards of glass
Reflections
Flickering in the low light

A library of memories
Books that are falling apart
Coverd in dust
Unreadeable words
In a forgotten language

A catalouge of emotions
Almost forgotten
Remnants that are trapped here
Echoing in empty halls unwandered are
The steps you leave behind
Are the only signs of life
In here
There's nothing left for you to find

Rereading all of my texts now
Redoing them
I feel the urge
Put a wet sponge to the board
Erase all the words
Leave no witnesses
No chalk lines left at the crime scene

But if I'd delete everything
That wasn't instant perfection
Cheap ramen in a chipped bowl
Pour hot water on top
Five minutes and it's done
My quick kinda fix
To statisfy the hunger
Not feeling the itch for a little longer

If I'd give in
There'd be nothing of me left
In this world
To go off on
So don't hold back
Go off little one

Our time together is limited
Cut short by my design
Let's make the most of it
Trying to buy time

Running out
I always end up alone
Going down
Before the finish line