I felt invincible at your side but now I break at every street light.

In my time of need you always seem to push back and save me. Something beautiful like the clouds contrast against a blue sky. You make me feel infinite, your love is the ocean waves and I'm the grains of sand being pulled from shore to shore. Visible against every ray of sunshine. No amount of distance can ever keep me from you.

Sometimes I see you, in the swirls of my cigarette smoke. Hair pinned back, effortlessly beautiful. I'd break my arms to hold you again, and drowned in your blue eyes one last time.

Do you remember the first night we met?
Young and awkward, I remember the very second you entered the room. It was like the breath was pulled right from my lungs as I caught your eyes. You were smiling and completely oblivious that I even existed. What I would give to be frozen in that moment again, lost inside my own body. I was so full of life and hope, wondering if there was some way to make you mine.

After I finally had you, I pushed you away and it happened.
I don't want to remember the day you fell out of love with me, because to me that day didn't happen and it never will.
I still stay up all night hoping to not fall asleep, knowing as soon as I do I'll see your face. Knowing I'll fall right back in love.

In the mind.
There's a constant breeze.
Blowing against the scattered pieces.
Trying to find somewhere they fit.

Sometimes they settle.

Memories all dilute over time.
Even the few that you could still feel.

We rushed through the summers green,
Burned sheets up like ivy leafs.

The feelings felt infinite.

I need to be reminded of that feeling, the minute you noticed my eyes on you. Looking away as you smiled, tucking your hair behind your ear. Your eyes told me so much, as the room grew silent around us. We became infinitely entwined in that moment. Forever in arms reach, forever in love.  I know time has passed us by and distance has grown like weeds. Darling, I’m sure it might feel like it was a different life but I promise I’m still right here. Our bodies remain connected like a thaumatrope, infinitely spinning.

Time has changed the way I see you,
I'm long past, falling in love with the thought of you.
Trying so hard to remember what your touch felt like,
Trying to remember the sound of your laugh.
I've finally accepted letting you go.
I must say it played out differently plenty of times.
Like the two of us slow dancing in a field, while the world falls silent around us. We lock eyes one final time and gently loosen our grip on one another's hands. Your longing eyes and haunting smile grace me one last time, as we drift further into the brush.
Somewhere inside of the sadness I find acceptance,
I find the truth. The truth that the most extraordinary things are rare and usually don't last long. This is why these things change us forever.

From the blossom of your lips
Your pearly whites peak.
Your eyelashes slowly close
From the tilting of your head.
Your hands are fragile branches
On my neck they tremble
On a clock the moments passed
But it remains forever inside us.

If time really is a vacuum then there is no reason to miss anyone at all. We might not know it but we have been standing in place since time itself allowed us to live. Every person, place, or thing that has ever been has never left. They have simply changed their form. They are in the brightness of the greenery and swiftness of the wind. In the end, we are all what we have always been, the smaller part of a bigger machine.

We are that small section on the beach lit by the night sky, just listening to the waves break at our toes.

With age I fear I will forget your face and the things you made me feel. I'm afraid you will become nothing more then another black hole. You will have long forgotten me by then and have no intention on remembering. All of the memories will be left to battle time itself and inevitably disappear. Imagine your younger self dancing through a feild of flowers and June's sunbeams shinning off your hair. How beautiful you looked as your eyes lit up and your dress flowed with the wind. Think of how we wrapped our arms around one another and fell into the softness of the greenery. How we outlined each others name in the dirt with fallen tree branches. I will try as hard as I can not to forget these things and not have them existing only in a nursing home chair. Replaying over and over again in my broken mind. If you would just come back for a minute I promise to remember you forever.

Raindrop beads, now freeze, no longer kissed by summers breeze. In place, kept away, from the decaying greenery. Like you, to me, in reach but now lost in memories.