Bor ehgit

Bor ehgit Nov 2015

The clouds still remain and the sea still crashes to shore. I don't know how I wrapped myself up for so long. I almost forgot the feeling of sunshine on my skin, the weird satisfaction of seeing your breath in a winters mist. I forgot these things because I simply had no space for them. I held so tightly to the things you said my own voice began to fade. I've missed you everyday since. I realized I became nothing more than a person trapped in a photograph to you. I could have been anyone on that day and that wouldn't have changed a thing. So today I will I dig a hole on the beach and sleep beside it. I will allow all the beautiful memories to leave my head one by one as I dream of them. They will eventually settle inside the sandy hole I've dug for them, and wait to be swallowed by the tide. I will awake tomorrow without knowledge of your existence and I will begin to remember myself.

Bor ehgit Oct 2015

A simple and perfect love.

I'm tired of thinking what if, ever think maybe we DID make the right choice. Maybe I am as happy as I will ever be and maybe I just haven't allowed myself to accept that. I'm constantly battling the perfect images from the big screen and trying to recite lines from the most romantic of poetry. The truth is it's simple and I see that now. I love her and she loves me. No need to try and be people we aren't, we are regular people and that's perfectly fine. Our kind of love tends to slip through the cracks or be brushed aside. Personally I think that's the best kind of love, the kind that is only meant for two people. A love that lives through you and dies with you. Something that truly is one of a kind and something that will never be mimicked. Your friends and family may never understand or accept the things you do but who really cares. It's your life and it's my life so why not live it for us and do the things that make us happy. Babe if your reading this you truly are the best part of everything for me. I couldn't imagine dreaming of you any longer, I'm glad I found you.

Bor ehgit Oct 2015

Time against times

With age I fear I will forget your face and the things you made me feel. I'm afraid you will become nothing more then another black hole. You will have long forgotten me by then and have no intention on remembering. All of the memories will be left to battle time itself and inevitably disappear. Imagine your younger self dancing through a feild of flowers and June's sunbeams shinning off your hair. How beautiful you looked as your eyes lit up and your dress flowed with the wind. Think of how we wrapped our arms around one another and fell into the softness of the greenery. How we outlined each others name in the dirt with fallen tree branches. I will try as hard as I can not to forget these things and not have them existing only in a nursing home chair. Replaying over and over again in my broken mind. If you would just come back for a minute I promise to remember you forever.

Bor ehgit Oct 2015

Autobiographical

I want to remember the little things, the very detailed little things.

Bor ehgit Oct 2015

The wave

I can see you now staring out the window of your high rise, gripping tightly to your morning coffee. Almost frozen in time as your mind plays back memories like an old projector. I'm sure somewhere in that mess of years there's something that still sticks. Like outlining constellations and making the same wish on every star. I always wished that if you fell I'd have a net big enough to capture you. I was only able to admire your essence for a brief amount of time but you are fused into all of me. I hope that I was at least able to leave a small lasting mark on your heart. I'm hopeful that, that the one wish, I repeatedly make will someday come true.

Bor ehgit Oct 2015

Red

I felt invincible at your side but now I break at every street light.

Bor ehgit Oct 2015

Between the leafs

It took Octobers chill to send you back through my bones. What a strangely pleasing gesture, it seems all of time is just simply stuck in different places.

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