Be still my child
Silence your thoughts
Be still my child
Let go
Surrender yourself whole
To the light that surrounds you
See the dots connect before your eyes
Let beauty catch you in moments least expected
Let go of the oars
Let the river of energy guide you
Be still
Child of The Universe
Vibrate and Resonate
Trust your soul
It knows the plan
More beautiful than you can fathom
Be quiet
Listen to the vibrations
Feel the vibrations
See them work their magic
Sweet product of the flow
You are a reflection of it
With open arms
Stars fall onto your lap
Dripping with cosmic synchronicity
You are a reflection
You are energy
You are beauty in it purest form
You are the plan
You are the oars
You are The Universe
You, are.

How do eyes
hide lies
How do eyes
paint the disguise
You wear so seamlessly
You  whisper words of
forever so dreamlessly
But naive
I
will
buy
it all
and fall
and fall

Deeper into this
picture perfect wonderland
I will have this
fairytale overrated brand
Of what it is to be
in heart racing
Butterfly inducing
Stu-stuh-stutterr causing lo-luh-lust
Because everyone knows
that wide eyed girl
Lost
in
her curiosity
Who wandered astray
and came upon
your animosity.

Time slows
Tick
Tick
Tick
As my impatience grows
Tick
Tick
Tick
Thoughts flowing like waterfalls
Crashing against rocks of reality
Tick
Tick
Tick
I pick at these walls
With aching fingers
Tick
Tick
Tick
Wondering where is my sanity?
The ache lingers
Tick
Tick
Tick

You know what I love about taking a road trip to LA?

Looking out of the window

Watching as the miles and miles of hills overlap one another

Seeing the neat rows

Hundreds of them

Each field a new shape

Each a new fruit

I love rolling down the window

The breeze whipping my hair around

Too lazy and too care free to tie it up

Letting that earthy smell fill up the car

Realizing I need a new playlist

Stashing my favorite candy in the back, yumm

But what I love the most about it all?

Knowing that after those 6 hours have stretched 5 hours too long...

(you always said I had the patience
of a 5 year old)

I can at least comfortably have a spot on your bed

Is our destiny encrypted in our eyes?
when I look at your pictures I wonder if you too knew the hell of a life you were going to live
I wonder if your pain was inevitable
if life had other plans for you when you were at your happiest
and I can't help but wonder
what you were thinking during those moments,
the sweetest ones,
and your last ones
Was this **** storm weaved and intertwined into your DNA?
You couldn't consume the pain
Couldn't extinguish the fire within that robbed you of your last breaths
You couldn't consume the pain
So it consumed you
I'm betting there was so
much more
I'm betting you were so
much more
Than this
But now
That's all you've allowed yourself to be