It's funny how you seem so tough

I know you've been through something tough

You think that you can stand your ground.

without making a single sound.

you think your fine

until one lie

destroys your world in just one night

you had a relapse so you hide the bruise not giving anyone any clues.

your a fraud

your a fake

your just a mistake.

Stop trying to act like your okay,

Your hep will come in many ways.

If I could unfold
I would be told
to forget the past, run away
and face today
they wouldn't see
my biggest plea
to take a knife
and end my life.
What they would see
is a girl like me
who fought to keep her friends happy
In the end
I fell again
but no one was there
No one would care
that someone like me
suffered by three
just to keep her friends happy.

One day
One day when I stand on the edge of a bridge
I don't think I'd care if I really trip.
I'd rather slip
then move on again,
cuz in my head I just want it to end.
All the painful nights,
again and again;
all the blood I lost,
because it won't end.
I wish it could stop
instead of keep going
it's like an endless river flowing.
If I cry out,
would you hear my shout?
or would you let me waste away?
Would you tell me i'm nothing?
or tell me i'll be okay?
you hurt me once
you hurt me twice
you even hurt me a thousand times.
Again and again
you don't want it to end.
you want me to hurt
like never before.
One day I'll say,
I can't do this again.
So, instead i'll hang
from my closet door.

When I found out
I couldn't make a sound.
No words came out of my mouth.
That night I cried,
like never before.
My small world,
wasn't perfect anymore.
It's funny I remember it like yesterday,
how memories just won't fade away,
unless time comes out to play.
I often find
myself thinking at night,
how much my life could be different tonight.
If time had waited just one more night.
When I think of myself during this time;
I find that time
has made me stronger in life.
I can't control it,
I can't stop it,
I can only make the best of it.

One hit, two hit, three hit, four.
Slowly i'll pick myself up off the floor,
I'll hold my head high,
as they walk by.
They lay on my chest
giving me a quest,
to get rid of the thoughts,
I should have never bought.
I will not lie,
I will not die,
instead i'll rise,
i'll silence my cries.
Getting stronger everyday,
one day i'll say,
I'm a child of God,
and I have moved on

You heard my plea

But you dont see
That what you said
Is not what i read
I try to pretend
Like this isn’t a trend
it makes me sad
it makes me mad
It makes me confused
On how you spill the “truth”
It’s only a matter of time
before you realize
The moment when I stop fighting for you that’s the day you’ll lose me two