he said theres

nothing that feels as good as being in my arms

nothing that could take my place as he rocked me gentle


while we consummated the beginning of us-

silky smooth

skin to skin-


laughter fills this room as we play our lovers game,


soulfully i cried out a time or two yet i held my ground as he filled me

lustful bodies dance in the darkness

hands entwined as we melt together



silhouettes transforming single shadows into one

the worlds topsy turvie

spinning

as i float beyond cloud nine over &ove;; we fulfilled our bound bringing us closer


Ohh ooo umm uhhh mmmmm

so close

I felt his tears his heart beats in tune with my own

our breathing becomes rapid

while motions increase to an unheard tune only us lovers can hear

He pushes deep i open wider moving just the same dancing faster as we switch positions

front to back side to side riding harder
&
fast slowing to catch my breath slowing

as our ****** causes an eruption this wasn't supposed to happen & now that it has



I crave him constantly



I can still taste him ,

smell & feel him......

we're more then friends,
more then
just dating one another

we have a bound unlike any other & right now

I'm content with us being together........

Call us what you want but trust me when

I tell you we're so much more than

Lustrous Lovers

Magnolia's and black Roses
comfort me,
I lay awake as you
softly
breath low lower- fading-

wondering how
I've let you get into
my thoughts & now
once more into my bed...

tonight
I've come awake at the
touch of
your hand,
roughly you've penetrated
the core of my being...

softly a breeze stirs
from my cracked window
and the smell
waffled with your scent
lingers in this bedroom,

Black roses & sweet magnolia's...

I looked over your body too many times

Your eyelashes
I've counted each curly
one a million times,

those high check bones
I've touched & caressed until my hands went numb.

You never move and I hardly breath
thinking it's not right but Ok-
Oh how you danced
with in my Vally of seduction
and
become intoxicated  
as you dranked in my nectar- honeycomb.

I wanted you- I wanted this moment ,
I did want to love you and
in a lot of ways I do but
laying here now as I stare at your form

lifeless on my bed I feel it wasn't
just your misleading
pain & your lying games
that brought me to the breaking point...

It was the man
I finally saw who told me once..,

I am worth more!

tears of freedom
streams down my face as
I lay here watching you,

watching the slight breeze from
my cracked window shifts
the thousands of petals all around
you & all
I can do is cry with
a
simple smile on my face.

My rooms filled with the smell
of you
&
Magnolia's & Black Roses.

Always Me Ayeshah

Petal kisses
                                                     trailed my body
                       once upon a time
                                                  
             ­    I felt you come into me

                            as I cried out and you held  me
                     ..............

                                         I spoke of joy,
                             cried again
                                              and
          
                                                         yelled out for-  you            

                                       And once more
                              
                        because of the the  pain,

                                      I lost
                                       loved and
                            gave up too soon,          
                                         what to do
                        
                       when too many times          

                      you've been my man
                         even as
                I pushed you so far away-
                                                    
                         it was harder & harder
                            to come back,
                  
                                      whats left

                                      when    
                                       
                     all you do is give me "you"        
                                    
                           ­                 and

                      I give half of me
                 ............
                           I'm scared
                                  
                             ­     worried and
                            don't want to


                           be here

              don't like living this way

                               yet I stay right in your arms

                                again& again
                                                      ............
                          
                            I wont fail again

                         wont fall anymore
                                  
                                    
                                        then again
                                        
                              I already did,          

                          sinking low      

                       so low
                                      
                                        I find myself                
                                 looking
                  
                          to you for a life line
                                          
                     ­                    a life time of happiness is mines
                                            
                                            if

                I'd take that leap with you          
                            
                  a leap of faith

                   is all your asking          
            
                                   ­    but
              
                       I can't commit
             cuz        
            
            in all honesty
                        
       I belong to him
    
                    (someone else)

                                      Always Me Ayeshah

Ohhh my  racing mind, closing my eyes,
head spinning
as I turn  with arms out
in a circle....
breath catching in my throat

Craving, jonesin-  feverishly needing... time to think
re-invent myself- -  re-invent my life
my desire for the unknowing ,

I need to escape this burden
this un-holy god forsaking feeling of misery...
love came to fast and now I can't let it go,

can't gain control but yet

I've lost nothing, and some how I
'm loosing everything.

thinking wondering, watching as time flies
and I remain a figment of what
we could be could of been...  

us, you, me, we

MAYBE SOMEDAY
BUT RIGHT NOW
I am learning--

learning to love anew again
without the falsehoods caused
by my own doubts and pains,

Your guessing what I mean as
I wrote and still write
in my mind
but
I guess you'll never
understand
the mind
of madness!

I love you!
Always Me Ayeshah

I don't know if your
good for me,
I don't even know yet
if I want this or not.

I been feeling mixed up...
Been thinking too- what "if"
I'm making the wrong
choice in choosing you?

How can I risk
oh so much with you?

Is it right for me to want this- yet
I know in some ways
your
tainted?

I got feelings that scream
yes
but other beg me not to,

yet when
I see you, hold you and feel you
I lose all my thought process.

I look for the impossible in you
or so it seems to me.

Give up or stay- work this out
or let you go your own way?  

I don't know what I'm pose to do
but I do know that at this point in time

I'll be taking us

one second,

one minute, one hour,

one day & one step at a time!

Always Me Ayeshah