Gratitude to the ones who taught me
Many thanks to the powers above
So long I've dabbled with the ones below
So long I've searched for the one who knows me

Physical inventions cause me to not mention the motive the reason the world I believe in
The here and the now
The land left unseen
Bridging the gap to say what I mean
To say what I've seen
To tell you a story that sounds like a dream
Knowing the voices in my head are fiends
Saving myself by silencing screams
Saving myself by killing what's me

Tell no one the things you know
Speak violence and mayhem and slaughter, despair
Burning your heart out and living in fear
Drowning that fear in the anger and lust
You cannot help but search blindly for trust.
Guidance is light but you were born blind
Searching for secrets and seeking divines
Hang from your noose that you've woven from vines
I cannot save you, your life is not mine

Lost in the chaos, I've guided myself
Only when my tongue is bleeding do these words my soul reflect, **** this life give me what's next, **** this life give me what's next
Lost in the chaos I've guided myself
Only when my tongue is bleeding do these words my soul reflect, **** this life give me what's next, **** this life give me what's next

Fill my tender heart with sin and bring my ego swift to death cut me down, relentless beating, strangle me then break my neck, **** my soul raw, fracture my jaw, tell me what I should expect, crack the system, mysticism, fortune favors those who bet

Suffocate my demons, clarify my reasons, say what you belive in, say you love the feeling, These words are revealing, no more double dealing, breaking through my ceiling, lacking human reason, never cared for kneeling, cycles are repeating, suffucate my demons, prove that I don't need em, prove that I don't need em, prove that I don't need em

Stop

Criss crossing the fabric
Stiching my woes
Grabbing at pieces
Now where do I go
You say there's a thesis
A method to insane
I say that I need it
You say I'll explain

To be devoured is to enter the unknown, submerged in pleasure foretold in the stones,
Submission to malice that blots out the truth, when souls both collide and the demon takes root.
Lust is the name and its lost in the ledger, for every soul taken misguided by pleasure, your feathers get plucked by each steady measure, you lie to yourself when you think you know better,
It's easy to hate and its harder to feel, that all of your wants lead to Elysian Fields,
Sure of the path but not sure of the cost, the lesson of life is that pain is the boss, Give and they take no one cares if your cry, burning in hell your cheeks always stay dry,
The moment of truth always comes far too late, you've cooked in your madness and dine from the plate,
Fools who know nothing have faith in their letters, faith in their strength to handle stormy weather but crack from the root when you tug on the vine, they act like their God's but can't hear the divine, Stumbling mind lost in passion and pain, medicate yourself and poison your veins, Pump in the truth that you want to belive, praying to God that he'll save you like Eve, Every, lost, chance, to, forgo the past makes you stricken and blind,
The only, tune, you dance, to, is all of the facts that you force in your mind.
It's never, that, easy, to give up delusion and fall into line,
Hiding, from, the, truth, you'll only see when you open your mind
You look with your eyes to follow your faith, never accepting what may be your fate
You do not, seek to believe, you just seek, to receive
Your greatest sin, is knowing greed, you only want but don't know what you need
Hating the truth when it doesn't agree, "But how do you know?"
Cause You Live In Misery  
Mental athletics your jumping through hoops made of fire and brimstone when fighting the truth and you try to defy all the signs and the proof by saying your feelings have something to prove.
You're lost in your mind and you must hate it there, know that your broken and cling to your fear, believe what you feel cause that's all that you know, thinking you're right tell me how does that go? How much success have you gotten to show, How much regrets have you buried in snow, blossoming doubts in the warming of weather, refusing to listen and think it gets better,
How much more pain till you've added it up, intentions so pure but your soul is corrupt
You know your sin and you wear it with pride, expecting a chance when you fail- not this time.

Interlocking masterpiece of retrospective wonders
I feel the tempo of the past, the music pulls me under
I contemplate the small mistakes, the white lies,and the blunders
I hesitate to change my fate if only to disassociate myself if I choose wrong.
I take a chance at inaction and let you set the pace because I realize when dancing with the devil I cannot lead.
I don't think much anymore about anything or anyone but myself.
Selfish yet necessary to avoid the burden of caring about others.
The weight of the feelings and emotions implicating me in their state of being as my words bring their destruction or mirth.
I dislike the human trait of giving credence to logic but falling prey to feelings that only result in illogical behavior
It is the epitome of a creature that allows its own destruction in the pursuit of happiness.
To let no one control your emotions is as easy as keeping them at a distance.
Calculated and premeditated reactions and responses to put them at ease.
To control no one's emotions is a feat much harder than simply not speaking.
Inaction, action, repetition, ever changing patterns.
All that you do and do not will cause a shift in their balance.
Your every move, dancing along the outer edges of their consciousness leading to questions, answers, and emotions that send them off in a plethora of vectors.
They blindly move forward with trust in their reality, one rooted in your kind deception, of acceptance and friendship.
In the attempt to distance and save yourself from the pain, you in turn make yourself a focal point.
Whether infamy or glory, the ones in your orbit will bend and break at your word whether you want them to or not.
Suddenly every decision to please them adds on more and more to a connection that you are not truly committed to.
Every time you scorn them you burn a bridge that in their eyes means much more to them  than it does to you.
There is no balance, just a force forever moving between extremes like a pendulum.
From one extreme to another you dance your way through pleasure and pain  only enjoying a brief moment of equilibrium where you can truly be at peace.
Only when you're alone.
To care is the biggest sin because all the actions and results that follow, good or bad in the guise of caring, are judged by others and yourself.
To pretend to care is the greatest freedom given because the actions will be judged by others but you will always find solace in never judging yourself for the things that you do for others, because it was never for your own gain in anyway.
Peace of mind.
A state of being.
It doesn't truly exist but the closest taste a human could receive is to fake the day to day emotions and proceed to sashay around the people that try to bond with them.
Shaking hands but never removing your gloves.
Always there but only because it is wanted or expected.
Never truly learning what it means to be swept away in a sea of irrational behaviors
Never truly learning that the greatest joy of being human is giving in to those emotions and finding joy.
Always secure.
Always strong.
Always empty.
Always content.
Always supporting.
Always alone.

Cream of the crop, won't you take off your top
It's too late to stop, next your ******* should drop
I'm kissing the ground that you tread like it's hot
Know I've been stirring and cooking this ***.

Holy **** I spilled it

Loose leaf messages, my texts send direct
Oh what I would give to taste your neck
Which scene is next, **** I'm the director
Holding the controls, here's my fill in Hector
Gotta specter detector, the phantom is prowling
Who let the cat loose, I love its yowling

Madman symphony, Bethoven isn't **** to me
Frames of time in history, make nothing more than hits to me
Girl please hit on me, much to give but much to need

Dance with the system, fully electronic
7 more drinks and I might be super sonic
Slick black, blonde hair, what's a sayain born to fear
God is just another power level to me

Can you see?
Nice eyes
You're born to believe
In me, and you, I may have a clue,
Credit to my formula, you love how I adore you girl
Pushing pink buttons on your insides, your insides

Could you just be mine for this night

I feel fear, I excite, was my timing right
All to give, none to take, it's a clean mistake
Is it fake, or half baked, please return the plate

Alone at the restraunt I'm afraid to call your name, the seat you chose was perfect I'm afraid to shake the frame, a thousand simple questions know the answers feel mundane, to start and end our romance I will try to win this game, run jump crouch and hide, take myself for a ride, not like if I **** up ill actually die.

Turn up the sound effects
Moans keep me going
Love when it's snowing
Cocain should *******

Go grab the crucifix
This ***** don't know me
Let her control me?
Can't even zone me

I've gifted life before, just like a mother
Wear me on your shoulder, and I'll love you like no other
Based upon these instances you've never had a lover
Let me show you something new and take care of each other

I got a big idea, trapped in my head
I don't know, if you wanna see this ***** in bed
**** all the foreplay, and just give me head
Don't change the subject, trust me instead

Blessed as the victim, honestly mislead
Surface my kingdom, all my sins were said
Sold were my phenom, change my gold to lead
You want the distance, run across my head

I've gifted life before, just like a mother
Wear me on your shoulder, and I'll love you like no other
Based upon these instances you've never had a lover
Let me show you something new and take care of each other

Bucking the system, I aim for the head
Changing reality, all my kids are dead
Twisting her *******, she said that they bled
Oh no I'm sorry, she said go ahead

As sloppy rendition, go and break some bread
Sharing your story, yet rarely share your bed
Up in the mountains, training in your head
Down in your valley, guess my tongue is blessed

Turn up the sound effects
Moans keep me going
Love when it's snowing
Cocain should *******

Go grab the crucifix
This ***** don't know me
Let her control me?
Can't even zone me

I've gifted life before, just like a mother
Wear me on your shoulder, I'll love you like no other
Tell me am I interesting because I cook with butter
Margarine is made for fiends, creeping through my gutters

Invisible lover
If she screams, just club her
When she's sad, just rub her
If she swings, recover
I read emotions
But can't see your face
All of her pictures
Show me with blank space

Are you just a fill in for my nightmares or fantasies?

They told me you owed this to the powers that be
I told them when you paid it you deserve to be free
They told me that you owed this to the powers that be
To the powers that be
To the powers that be

Set the stage for the odyssey
A story paved in blood
Raining from the crimson sky
On your path to true love

And I could never be without you
I could never be without your smile
All the things you did
Every breathe you take
I want to see you shining brighter

Let me tell you that it's easy to work this out
And you'll belive me cause you're starting to swim in doubt
I'll dam the ocean just to tell you that we're in a drought
I'll make this easy cause you're too hard to live without

Just another take, of a mansion
I'll make a house filled with golden intentions
Just another take, of a mansion
I'll make a house filled with golden intentions

Dripping from my tongue are the words of good intention but please just don't mention the startling fences appear as your walking you thought you were free but the price that you paid was to be part of me and I'm shattered to pieces but I'll rebuild myself and then you'll find your place among one of my shelfs and all wrapped in blue is the hint of respect cause I dabble in dark things I cannot forget

The things that you owed have you paid your respects and your debts cause I'm watching the rift in your chest derilict your hearts hungry your eating yourself from the inside.

Oh what ways can I amuse you today
Making you fall for me over and over and over again
Dragging myself to the end of the bed to make you feel like we didn't pretend
And no I won't say we were better off friends
Cause that path lacks this passion we can't comprehend
When our ship sinks we find a submarine and keep on swimming  days blow by bedroom dances make us willing to engorge ourselves on little revealing dances of common courtesy gone too far
I feel like I'm jumping through hoops made of language from Mars
Some type of subterranean menace beneath the skin endlessly repeating Ill remember how we somehow started but never made a plan to begin
Hearing you call me a blessing a curse and a fill in for verses of life between our duet for the chorus in bed that we share.