Autumn

Autumn Dec 2017

the blizzard sent a whispering wind to find my soul
and what it found was not a sight to see
but a memory to forget

Autumn Dec 2017

i never thought i would hate college
what a disappointment it has been
what a pathetic excuse of a life
because i cannot conform to the mediocrity surrounding me
i am drowning in the hope of what great new person i could meet
and yet
although there are three i can eat a meal with
where are the ones with passion?
transferring will be my savior
hopefully

Autumn Dec 2017

...

and i think what scares me most is that i know
i can accomplish my goals
yet when i get there
i still
will not
reach
happiness
...
what if there is happiness on the other side?
away from here
into an abyss of the unknown
a chance i think i may be willing to take
...
i took it
...
and it is no brighter than the world i left behind
...

#depression

Nov 2017

Dario Outten

Wonder Woman

Oh my wonder woman
When did you forget how to fly?
With you I've kept my goals high
How you've fallen so low
I lost my vision of the sky

Oh my wonder woman
When did you forget how to fight?
You've lost your fire
You're losing your son
My cold heart hidden in this endless night

Oh my wonder woman
And your lasso of truth
With you I've hanged ***** laundry
Regardless of those times it became my noose.

Oh my wonder woman
You've lost the life in your eyes
Oh I know you're tired
I can see through your disguise.

How long must you keep it up
There's bags under your eyes
But your super man is coming
He can hear your silent cries.

Finally crawled out of hiding
Cast all fears aside
Strong enough to help
You turn it down with pride.

You just want him to do what he ever did.
Just stand and watch
Wait and hide
But he has his own fire now
I'm your sun after all
Just more intense
More alive

Oh my wonder woman
How long do you intend to cry
Your super man is coming
It's your turn to look to the sky.

Autumn Nov 2017

Untitled

it is wrapped in a blanket
your mind
cushioned by the coddling of your mother or father or the fake smiles and inspiration your teachers gave you
you have a weak mind a weak will and forgettable face
your mind has been laced with transparency
the drugs of the media are claiming you for digestion

you clap and smile and cheer and
do you know what for?

you put your shades on in fashion and sit back in your comfortable chair watching the fox news channel

oh wait your sad attempt to watch any news has been incapacitated by the phone in your hand and lab top in front of you

you go to school the next day with answers from cheat sheets on google

you blindly walk down the path so many others were forced to pave

and that is why now
when you notice the pretty distractions
you are content

Autumn Nov 2017

Untitled

scavenging in this wasteland i search
i look and unfold
i pick apart
i break open
i crush i smash i ruin
i disassemble
i assemble
i am in search of something
something i cannot place
i look
i hear
i taste
i click
i write
i try
the everlasting search is an ongoing investigation
yet it is an open and close case
the verdict has been made
oh boy i am being so ******* cliche
but how much longer will i search for my question i have not asked

Autumn Nov 2017

Psychic

what dreams may come are up to you,
your actions will predict the happiness.
what nightmares you create are already upon you,
and the torture you experience,
you will have inflicted willingly and consciously to yourself.
you create yourself
and
you destroy yourself
chose wisely
xoxo