You know that feeling where you are just so ******* ******* done and you can't take it anymore
Your craving the blade
Please I just need to release I need to think about something else
Your so ******* weak take the pain you pathetic soul
Where you just want to close your eyes and never wake up again
Whats enough you can't stop that tear sliding slowly down your cheek they overlap one after another
And ****
I'm so fragile it's embarassing
But I put on a smile for you all and then when I try with a real person
It is nothing
Because I don't know how to express them correctly
I'm so tired of this pain
The effort put towards happiness is there and then this occurs
And I'm so much farther down
Trying to find ways that this isn't the same exact thing as last time
But also realizing how in every way it's different
I just want to not hurt anymore
I just want to want to be here
I just want to not go to sleep thinking that I honestly don't want to be in this world
Because I'm so tired
Of me

He put the stars back into my sky
When i had forgotten the sky had stars
Out of nowhere
His foreign tongue replenished my  tired soul
And with a pop
It all went weary

I was tired of disappointing myself so I left
And when I tried to come back
There was no room for anything else
A monster had taken my place
Taken the name
Autumn
With the same hair and muscles
The bones were the same
But the smile was different
The eyes lacked the glimmer that once was
And I resigned
To the back seat
Of this fancy day dream

I want to live the lie I've been smiling at all of you

The mainstream media feeds us lies.
Our food companies feed us chemicals.
Schools conform to the government.
The government is run by corporations.
We are taught to obey, work and consume.
Are we free?
No.

Can we do something about it?
YES!

Question EVERYTHING.
If you don't know something
look it up because
knowledge is **power.

I read this poem and a line read "I love me."
And I was so proud of that author I had no idea who or what has made them who they are.
Because I myself cannot love me.
And this is one of my many faults because I can see the perfection in so many others yet my reflection is all but that.
So I applaud you.
For that is indeed a great acheivement to be thankful for.
Because for many out there loving yourself is one of the hardest things to do.