Sometimes it feels like my mind is racing
So many unexpressed emotions
I begin to sweat nervously
pushing myself to be more
Thoughts of anger and rage
Makes my eye twitch calm my nerves by breathing
My anxious side makes me want to unleash break something destroy all that ruins my day.
Use to hide a smile because other see it as weakness.
Turn my confidence into doubt
Feeling guilty because I don't share those emotions. They don't care to understand my feelings but impose their emotions like I have none.
My problem is I put others first but don't know, where to start with myself. Doing what I love just want it on a greater scale having fun.
Staying positive I don't want drama so I write and avoid fakes who talk and use people because they have hidden agenda.
My nerves calmed and soothing because I vent to my screen and write in my journal so I can be free of these crippling emotions that drain me and try to bring me down so I can bounce back stronger wiser.

I feel comfort in the familiarity
Of being lost
Peculiar in its irony
Its definition reversed by my falling in love
With the freedom of not being found
Sometimes it's more peaceful
Living quietly without the sound
Of homesickness in your ear
Eyes wistfully on the clouds
Thoughts pondering in head
Soft promises vowed
To a place not seen again
It feels to me like exciting exploration
Sights locked in mind
All these complex illustrations
Of trees, streams, crumbling walls
That otherwise would of went unseen
All these beautiful kingdoms
Adorned by the falling leaves
Of this year's autumn
How could I not fall for that?