tired and exhausted
both hard breathing
we've reached our limit
but there's no stopping

pushing each other to the wall
heating up with slapping
just waiting for someone to fall
down on the floor, her being pinned, sweating

not contented, I gripped both of her hands in one hand
then she wriggled, grunting, yelled each other's names.
pierced her with all my might; sliding it in one go.
She moaned but her eyes remains that i am the one to blame.

I pushed deeper and she moaned longer
leaving me with her final last breath.
from her and in my hands, i see blood
our fight finally ended, no more threat

I brushed my hair up; blood drips
a victory for a revengeful whip
from the window, heard the cop's siren
my face is nothing but a devil smiling

my shoulders are heavy
and so is my heart
my mind painfully aches
been thinking so hard

take a deep breath
and let it flow

i can't, i'm squeezed
it's like i'm drowning
let the sun set
help me have my peace

don't be afraid, do it
and take your first step

i close my eyes and open it again
but i'm still here rooted.
where are you exactly?
i don't want to be alone.

i'm here. don't be afraid.
take your first step

what have i been doing lately?
why do i feel so heavy?
why am i still standing?
how long have i been here?

come on. what are you waitng for?
move. take your first step.

why should i listen?
this is my life.
i know better than you.
what am i still doing here?

you asked for help. i'm here.
listen. move your feet.

sorry, i forgot.
i don't even recognize myself.
please be patient.
i have to find myself first.

i know i understand.
don't be afraid. please listen.

should i do it? should i trust you?
anyway, don't have anything to do here.
took a little step, shaking.
my heart's still pounding.

felt good?
now walk.

now, i'm really drowning.
so hard to breath.
i'm slowly sinking.
lend me your hand.

stop thinking. it's normal.
one step is not enough. walk!

i gasped for air.
shaking, shaking...
there's no physical help.
i feel so helpless.

relax. you can do it.
you already took a leap.

i surrender.
i have to listen.
it's easy to say
but it's hard to do.

another step is not going to hurt.
don't worry. i'm still here. trust me.

took another step
my heart still pounding
took another step
my knees are giving up.

yes. that's it.
come on. walk some more.

took another and another
my blood's circulating
took another and another
i can breath more air

let it flow...let it be...
'till you're cloud free

took another and anoter
i feel better
i looked back
i've gone not far enough

took another, it's not enough
i looked back again
i recall everything
recalling the burden

still walking...
sorting things out
i understand some things
some are still unanswered

still walking...
new questions brought up
they're piling up fast
need to have solution

still walking...
i come up with a solution, an experiment
i think it's not going to work
my pace is going slow

walking slowly...
what if it's all wrong?
i think i miss something.
I stopped, looking blank.

why did you stop?
You were doing okay.

I have to.
I have to go back.
I don't want to walk. It's useless.
There's no destination. I'm tired.

What? No. you have to fight.
For your own good, learn.

What's to learn?
Everything is a question.
Answer is always hard to find.
You don't understand me at all.

Going back is not the answer.
Pity. It's all you can do.

Then tell me what to do.
I tried to have an open mind.
You're so confident.
Please give me what I need.

Open mind? Please don't kid me.
I'm here to help and that's all.

I don't understand.
I'm in need of help.
I need answers.
You're not helping me.

I'm your friend, not a businessman.
You're not helping yourself.

Riddles, riddles
i'm not in school
I feel frustrated
I don't want to argue

come on, walk again
this time feel the soil.

I did just like you said
it's so rich; so relaxing
but it doesn't feel right.
I want to go back.

Don't you dare!
Chin up. Keep moving forward.

I kept my head down.
This is my simple revolt.
Though I keep moving.
I was still hoping to go back.

Come on, chin up.
Don't focus on your feet.

I have no choice.
This is really an insult.
I closed my eyes.
And held my head high.

Oh, please. Grow up.
You have to look.

I opened my eyes.
There is one path.
Along side with it
are the grass and trees.

Are we seeing the same thing?
Are you trying to look?

I'm not sure.
I don't see this everyday
and I don't still understand.
I still have to walk. Right?

Yes. Surely, time will come.
For now, just let it flow, let it be.

I know a very old art
that is close to my heart
those who don't get this are too smart

It's difficult from the start
but very easy to impart
like a careless whisper or a bogart

A beauty that rhymes with ****
To some, it's music of Mozart
sadly to most, it's ugly as a wart

but who cares, let them dart
it's way out of their charts
for you and I will never be afart

Time is guidance and never the limit.
Be endless possilities.

Dear diary,
all day with sweety
priceless treasure I carry.

Dear diary,
got home lazy
played games with room messy

Dear diary,
imagining myself tinkering
pushing myself but still dreamy

Dear diary,
wanting to do more.
Feeling sleepy, time crazy.

Dear diary,
ended the day disappointed
accomplishments are not meaty

Dear diary,
tomorrow
glass half empty
would it differ finally?