Covid
Covid
So morbid.
God forbid
eyes go dead.
Months laid in bed
like coffin bed.
Virus does not bleed.
It's words makes you fade.

No longer part of the lost boys.
Soon you will hear my voice.

Been long since we've settled our differences
and love has blanket us from darkness
Been peaceful ever since...
up to the core of my senses

right now i am fixing myself
doing very little baby steps
to become a better man
not for her but to myself

I am leaving.
Find my own adventure
and possibly never look back.
I don't care if they go looking for me
Or if they ever would...

Watch me.
It's your big lost.

I want to run away
I want to be someone else
I want to hide from love
I am scared of love

I was ok and doing fine.
I was on the top.
I was beautiful.
Now It's all worse and heavy.

I thought love is good.
It was ecstatic.
I thought I could do more with Love.
But I was badly hit and burnt.

Craving so much
So thirsty to taste it again
with this shaking in me
I will not last

Now I feel lost in a labyrinth
The feeling of being dragged back
to the feeling of losing someone
no escape; chained and marked

It's unbearable
like seeing Death
that ***** happiness
the anguish

please save me

sending a message to her
is like poking a snail
only after waiting in hours
it finally comes out of her shell
saying hi to dry a bit of her pores
then goes back to her sleeping spell

and here i am still on shore
staring at probably an empty shell

I put up my pride
Gave a cold shoulder; caging myself
I did my best to stay away
but it seems I could not stride

Foolishly waiting for a call
Checking from time to time
if you remember me at all

heavy and hard to breath
confused by longing, love and jealousy
as they tried to squeeze into my heart
weakens me as minute passes

adding the frustration i felt
for some of my messages and drawings
like a reflection in the mirror
just bounces back at me.

frustrated to feel
that my love and care
could not get through her
though she looked at me and smiled.

frustrated to long
for her touch and warm
in this cold winter
when there's a wall between us.

Now I came to understand
that feelings are hard to contain.
only one thing that hinders us
and it must be destroyed.

Determined enough
I punched the wall
she was surprised
then looked like disgusted.

could not understand. why?
i punched the wall again
seeing same eyes
but telling me to stop.

i punched the wall again
i could not feel her presence
i stopped in fear
my fist is still against the wall

my eyes sting
as my heart goes in pain
teeth clenched
as i tried to deny my thinking

could not stop my tears from falling
blurs my eyes to see hers
now i ask myself as i regret to think
how much do you care about me?

i felt alone
how i wish the rumor is true
how i wish i could break this wall
just like the boy in the rumor did

i cried so hard and loud
but no one heard of me
no one even her

it hurts to not know
if my existence still glows
it hurts to not know
if other's yearning for me still  grows
it hurts for the love i could not show
I wonder if they hear my sorrow

Been a while since I sang
Can't seem to wake myself up
Even with the loudest clang.

I'm dry. Imagination gone dry
Fingers, that are itching to tink,
seem too lazy to even try.

Days passed so fast.
Goals set and started
but none did last.

living like a doll
a nowhere man
lying all day, dull

my music suddenly empties
No more hums and melodies
Ever since you took the sun and left

Growing epidemic
No cure for the sick
I believe it's black magic
to make the world chaotic

very strategic but barbaric
watch the flowers bloom so dynamic
different harmonious cries are melodic
what can you do when the owner is psychotic

the world is crowded; need to extinct
count the apples rotting very quick
beg the unwavering fruitful tree to  shake
no blessing brought the mode to protect

Once a peaceful village
where hearts could sing in content
Attacked and abused by drones
beauty and order ***** and destroyed

take your guns and sabers
Today we **** the drones
Ring the bells, use the finger of brawns
Hope the force is with the admins

Witness the dark night sky of the bright sunny day.
See how the devil unearthened his kingdom to collect his pay.
Hear the creepy howling of the wind to make the soul sway.
It's a happy reaping where purpose is to left no living astray.

Announcing to the world of their great pain
Wailed for hours 'til how long their lungs could maintain.
They cry not for fear of death that took their sane.
The fear of dying alone filled their eyes with lover's tears to rain.

She's white and smooth as pearl
Sometimes tanned golden as the sun
She looks tough on the outside
But you'll learn she's soft when she's finally cracked
She's a match to everyone; sausage, ham you name it
Can't wait for morning to make her mine
Yummy!

While rolling, trolling, strolling
Found a round astounding gem
Pull one word like a cork in the gourd
Could not accept a poem worth a foam

I accept ten word poem structured in zen
Even I tried the challenge for a change
One word is so broad; meanings could not contain in a board
How would the giver deliver the message to receiver?

I got no humor and color for that poem
Sorry but this is only my opinion; Don't bring onions
Thank you for sharing and found something worth learning
Assonance is worth trying.

Borrowed world
Borrowed time
Borrowed life
Borrowed feelings
In this fantasy we shared
All are remembered
Not a promise
But something to remember

Wearing shiny black coat for a cat
Don't ever think I'm fat
Fur that nobody would want to pat
In streets, I tiptoe...tipititat

In cans, I search for food
Fish bones are heavenly good
Sometimes don't eat when not in mood
Facing this life without a hood

Danger is not in my dictionary
Though there are anxieties that couldn't release
Sleep is my only ticket to peace
Once up reality comes back with horror times three

I've watched the world on top of a post
Most people here are not a good host
They don't like cats, calling us filthy things
Yet there are other filthy things in their homes they bring

There's this man I know
Kindness from heaven on him bestow
The first man I bowed
A rule that was hard for me to grow

I was in an empty lot
Near a tree to have a quiet plot
He was near my spot
When he looked at me like I'm a dot

He suddenly stopped walking
I feel he looked at me as interesting
I hissed at him as a warning
Yet his lips started grinning

I heightened my alertness
He might give my fur a mess
Sudden movements from his vest
Brought me quickly to a bird's nest

At first he was shocked
Then came laughter for a mock
Broaden my shoulder like a ****
But he just walked away; looking at his clock

I climbed the tree the next day
He was again on his way
He looked at the tree top that sways
mimic of my language he played

The next day, I was on top of tree again
That time his modus was plain
Though the expected trust not gain
When he was gone, I ate his sardines like insane

The next day to that, the story is the same
20 days; he repeated his game
There was no day he missed his aim
That time the urging bond for him was on flames

On the 21st, he probably got tired
Not even a surrogate was hired
or maybe his persuasiveness got fired
Am I doomed to be forever in this tree a sire?

2nd day of his absence
I tried clearing my lens...
Watching out for twigs that click
He's probably playing hide and seek

Next day at last he came to visit
On the trunk, he sits
Not a light on his face a bit
I don't think he's fit

I went down with fear
Still brushed my scent on him to cheer
He grabbed me like I'm a beer
Gave him a purr on his ear

He suddenly said "Is this you?"
He chuckled "You're not yourself too."
Then he looked at my end saying "You're a boy too"
If he does that again, I am going to scratch him one and two

The next thing I know
He brought me home
Everywhere in his house glows
Hate it even to his gnome

I panicked.
I felt trapped like a mouse.
Couldn't stand it
Ran wildly around his house.

When got outside, I ran away
To the tree is only home I would lay
I felt sorry but never looked back
Courage is not what I have stocked

Funny, after what happened
We're still good as gold
It's like in each other we depend
Years passed, here we are same old same old

walking on stones
is like stepping on bones
no ringing on the phone
dusty air is blown

so high above is the sun
desert land is no fun
living but life's gone
wishing this journey be done

saw a happy man
a heart of colorful ocean
wonder what made him tan
wonder what is his plan

i went to him, holding a dove
i asked him and he looked above
he ticks because of love
sacrificed hands beneath those gloves

i walked away
my mind is still in grey
never believed his way
wanted to remodel his common clay

walking on stones
just stones and stones
no ringing on the phone
kept walking on stones

Born as Montague and you as Capulet.
Killed our love with doubts in the silhouette;
If only we dared not to rely our fate in roulette.
How I wish we fought for it like Romeo and Juliet.

Even though it lasted like matches that burned out so soon
And sadly, forever we are the sun and the moon.
Your sweet smile, your bubbly endearments and your voice of calming tune
Moments, will not dare to forget, that made my day light as balloon

Inviting everyone to join
In this poem of no point
Just for fun; Do not bring onions
let me hear your poem of opinions

Let's start and let me give you topic
if boring and not cool for lunatics
comment your suggestions; be poetic
We will create another session for it.

Topic: What do you think of the world today?

I find people here very interesting.
Watching and reading poems
lik a vulture waiting
Big wolves, lions, hyenas...
come on fight and feast
let me taste with excitement
Your imaginative and creative skills

Waking up with gentle touch of sunshine in my face
warm smell of coffee in the air that hugs tight in my waist
Hands that craves for your skin; so soft and smooth like lace
Sadly, only to find that you are not on your place

Went down to kitchen and finding you
wearing apron while holding a spoon
dancing, more like prancing, while singing in tune
I say, it's really a good view

Silently walk towards you; hearing your laughter
Like a menacing shadow following its master
Sniffed; touching my lips to your skin
Giggled; as you greet me good morning

You pushed me to table while preparing
"look made you breakfast" hear you saying
bread, eggs and bacon; hear my tummy crumbling
What's more to ask? all is in here I am loving

Juicy, crunchy, melting tastes
with coffee that fogs your glasses
smell of grass that wind breezes
then your dream suddenly lapses

Soon my love, this will be real
once ourselves and the church made deal
could not wait, you know how I feel
all I could do is keep dreaming 'til the seal

Little I was
I once dreamed
be smaller than glass
in a pool of sparkly goodness

Reminiscing how little I sip
to simulate that dream
funny how i forced myself to believe

Nakatingin sa kawalan
walang imik, walang galawan
wala naman ding tinititigan
basta wala lang

akala ng iba ako'y tamad
akala ng iba ako'y problemado
akala ng iba ako'y sawi
akala ng iba ako'y umiibig

pawang walang katotohanan
sana ako'y wag pangunahan
sakit na malalang kondisyon
utak na puno ng imahinasyon

puno ito ng mga pagpapantasya
puno ito ng mga gustong gawin
puno ito ng mga imbensyon
puno ito ng mga opinyon

isip lang ang gumagana
puso na ayaw gumawa
mga bagay na di ko alam kung pano simulan
kulang kasi sa sinop at katalinuhan

walang kinabukasan
walang patutunguhan
sa tulad ko na taong tanga
na puro pangarap lamang

Stands tall around me are walls I built.
A protection from thorny hands I seek.
Numbness and wittiness I picked.
To survive world of treachery and trick.

I jolt on the wall that loudly crackling.
They waggled in continuous pounding.
Crooked long veins sudden witnessing.
Having these walls crumpled is frightening.

Like every king's gate, I put faith in it.
Believing could make it strong a bit.
I prepare myself through fear I met.
Must face anything my fate would get.

Few monents passed, the pounding has stopped.
Leaves my mind with question why sudden nap.
Curiosity drove me to wall to tap.
Bricks fall down to earth with loud thundering clap.

Blinded by light, my eyes try to open.
Finds laying on ocean of buds a maiden.
Her tired blooded hands made my heart broken.
Tears fell out of my eyes, felt the pain.

I caress her while I moan.
Wishing the walls had never shown.
Looking back at my life I created and own.
Learning my life is like a stone.

The angels from the above cry,
making her body clean and spirit fly.
Having me touched, she doesn't deserve to die.
"Give us another chance!" my eyes won't dry.

When saying "I love you" in a call for his bae,
in public, loud but with endearment; awkward pathway.
He doesn't care what people beside him may say
but hey, he's smiling cause it made his day.

People have tried
To paint the garden of sky
But God remains best.

tired and exhausted
both hard breathing
we've reached our limit
but there's no stopping

pushing each other to the wall
heating up with slapping
just waiting for someone to fall
down on the floor, her being pinned, sweating

not contented, I gripped both of her hands in one hand
then she wriggled, grunting, yelled each other's names.
pierced her with all my might; sliding it in one go.
She moaned but her eyes remains that i am the one to blame.

I pushed deeper and she moaned longer
leaving me with her final last breath.
from her and in my hands, i see blood
our fight finally ended, no more threat

I brushed my hair up; blood drips
a victory for a revengeful whip
from the window, heard the cop's siren
my face is nothing but a devil smiling

my shoulders are heavy
and so is my heart
my mind painfully aches
been thinking so hard

take a deep breath
and let it flow

i can't, i'm squeezed
it's like i'm drowning
let the sun set
help me have my peace

don't be afraid, do it
and take your first step

i close my eyes and open it again
but i'm still here rooted.
where are you exactly?
i don't want to be alone.

i'm here. don't be afraid.
take your first step

what have i been doing lately?
why do i feel so heavy?
why am i still standing?
how long have i been here?

come on. what are you waitng for?
move. take your first step.

why should i listen?
this is my life.
i know better than you.
what am i still doing here?

you asked for help. i'm here.
listen. move your feet.

sorry, i forgot.
i don't even recognize myself.
please be patient.
i have to find myself first.

i know i understand.
don't be afraid. please listen.

should i do it? should i trust you?
anyway, don't have anything to do here.
took a little step, shaking.
my heart's still pounding.

felt good?
now walk.

now, i'm really drowning.
so hard to breath.
i'm slowly sinking.
lend me your hand.

stop thinking. it's normal.
one step is not enough. walk!

i gasped for air.
shaking, shaking...
there's no physical help.
i feel so helpless.

relax. you can do it.
you already took a leap.

i surrender.
i have to listen.
it's easy to say
but it's hard to do.

another step is not going to hurt.
don't worry. i'm still here. trust me.

took another step
my heart still pounding
took another step
my knees are giving up.

yes. that's it.
come on. walk some more.

took another and another
my blood's circulating
took another and another
i can breath more air

let it flow...let it be...
'till you're cloud free

took another and anoter
i feel better
i looked back
i've gone not far enough

took another, it's not enough
i looked back again
i recall everything
recalling the burden

still walking...
sorting things out
i understand some things
some are still unanswered

still walking...
new questions brought up
they're piling up fast
need to have solution

still walking...
i come up with a solution, an experiment
i think it's not going to work
my pace is going slow

walking slowly...
what if it's all wrong?
i think i miss something.
I stopped, looking blank.

why did you stop?
You were doing okay.

I have to.
I have to go back.
I don't want to walk. It's useless.
There's no destination. I'm tired.

What? No. you have to fight.
For your own good, learn.

What's to learn?
Everything is a question.
Answer is always hard to find.
You don't understand me at all.

Going back is not the answer.
Pity. It's all you can do.

Then tell me what to do.
I tried to have an open mind.
You're so confident.
Please give me what I need.

Open mind? Please don't kid me.
I'm here to help and that's all.

I don't understand.
I'm in need of help.
I need answers.
You're not helping me.

I'm your friend, not a businessman.
You're not helping yourself.

Riddles, riddles
i'm not in school
I feel frustrated
I don't want to argue

come on, walk again
this time feel the soil.

I did just like you said
it's so rich; so relaxing
but it doesn't feel right.
I want to go back.

Don't you dare!
Chin up. Keep moving forward.

I kept my head down.
This is my simple revolt.
Though I keep moving.
I was still hoping to go back.

Come on, chin up.
Don't focus on your feet.

I have no choice.
This is really an insult.
I closed my eyes.
And held my head high.

Oh, please. Grow up.
You have to look.

I opened my eyes.
There is one path.
Along side with it
are the grass and trees.

Are we seeing the same thing?
Are you trying to look?

I'm not sure.
I don't see this everyday
and I don't still understand.
I still have to walk. Right?

Yes. Surely, time will come.
For now, just let it flow, let it be.

I know a very old art
that is close to my heart
those who don't get this are too smart

It's difficult from the start
but very easy to impart
like a careless whisper or a bogart

A beauty that rhymes with ****
To some, it's music of Mozart
sadly to most, it's ugly as a wart

but who cares, let them dart
it's way out of their charts
for you and I will never be afart

Time is guidance and never the limit.
Be endless possilities.

Dear diary,
all day with sweety
priceless treasure I carry.

Dear diary,
got home lazy
played games with room messy

Dear diary,
imagining myself tinkering
pushing myself but still dreamy

Dear diary,
wanting to do more.
Feeling sleepy, time crazy.

Dear diary,
ended the day disappointed
accomplishments are not meaty

Dear diary,
tomorrow
glass half empty
would it differ finally?

Gather us in the spotlight.
Let them feel the heat of twilight
Let soothing music tickle your ears
Slowly touch your back with my fingers

Look at me in the eyes
You avoided me with a twist
Pulled you back; holding your wrist
I see you biting your red lips.

You naughtily swing your leg up in my thigh.
I lean forward and did the close embrace.
You pulled my hair and your grin is so sly.
Quickly stepping away; closely followed your trace

Trust me I said while cocking your eyes from mine.
Patiently checking how my heart is defined
as we sweep our toes, circling the great hall.
With every step, I could feel your heart is about to fall.

We are more confident with faster and longer strides.
We caressed and wrapped ourselves with our bodies and such.
I carried you around and tossed but we never lose touch.
Never get tired for our tango, our love and our pride.

Strongly rushing to me is the air
Silently brushing my soft long hair
This is the place where you left me
Detailed story of the past that I still see

Found myself in your caress
So soft, so warm, so securing
Decided to stay as I heard you breathing
Now, found myself holding on to your emptiness

Your absence made me weak
Couldn’t stand up for I’m still shaking
Couldn’t do much but let my eyes leak
Letting my emotions flow to feel at ease

I think I’ve gone mad
Still longing for you to come back
Told myself to end it
But my heart won’t stop

Strongly rushing to me is the air
Silently brushing my soft long hair
Wiping away all those tears
Emptied my mind as it whistles to my ear

I know this longing won’t last
But I’m not sure how fast
How I wish a spell is cast
Removing you from the picture is a must

My chest tightens again
But this time, I’m fighting it
I unconsciously grind my teeth
I shriek ‘til I’m out of breath

I will always visit this place
A torture that I should face
‘til I get tired looking for your trace
‘til my feelings for you is a space

I curse the sun, the sky and the wind
like a madman about to flip a bin.
No longer could bare this sickening humidity.
They are melting my sanity!
Rain, I beg of you. Please save me.

Through out the years of my deep slumber,
the flames, I once had, I could no longer remember
but now I am happy like a child in December
for a fool disturbed my chamber.

The waking life grows fast in my core.
Hands clenched as the burning will itches to soar.
Breathing in the scent of proclamation more.
I am back from the dead, feel my roar.