Is there no owner of these pains,
Who loaded them onto my back?
Why are they with me at night,
Why do they sit upon my eyelids?

Day by day, diminishing; my hopes, my faith, my love…
As they fade, they gnaw at my soul,
As they gnaw, my light diminishes,
As it darkens, my feelings grow dull.

One must take ownership;
Of love, affection, mistakes, achievements.
No one has the right to lie to another,
To drown one's mind in an ocean of doubt.

Sometimes, courage is needed to leave.
With the unresolved packed in your suitcase.
To take your jacket with honour,
With pride; without destroying, without burning, with a silent scream.

I no longer have faith in anything or anyone.
No hope, no expectation.
As if counting the hours to my departure forever.
All my poems are ownerless now,
All my endings are unsigned…

14.07.2025 01:30

Why did it have to come to this reality?
I wish I had melted with the rain.
While flowing in the circle of time,
I wish I hadn’t been tested with my humanity.

I don’t fit anywhere.
Nowhere is me
No time describes me
No one belongs to me

Why couldn’t we have the right to go,
To realities where we are happier.
I wish we hadn’t been this sad,
Hadn’t consumed our souls with the lies of hypocrites.

I am so lonely, my God.
So lonely that I understand you.
Power doesn’t come from unity,
One must fight absence alone.

Why couldn’t we see the rest of the film when we loved!
The continuity of the soul we embraced, of love.
Loyalty, I say, my God;
Why is there so little of it in your creations?

I wish, instead of our souls breaking,
Our arms and legs had broken.
The pain doesn’t subside,
The suffering doesn’t end.

Why, please tell me why?
Why didn’t you give us the key to the universe.
I wish we had the right,
To come and face you through a black hole…

14.07.2025 01:20

The darkness of morning, the pitch of night, the twilight of dawn;
Always under the same sky, always on the same planet.
In the silent whistles, in the proud gazes, defiance stood tall without a thigh.
The eyes I shared my night with, now filled with tears.

I wish your hands could touch my happiness;
You'd smile warmly, and I'd breathe in the scent of your skin streaming from your hair;
Never returning the pains I once took back;
I love you so fiercely, as if I might die!

You have a rebellion against this world!
Against our coincidences in the wrong times, in wrong lives.
Defying the entire galaxy, all parallel universes,
One day, our souls will make love in perfect synchrony.

God forbid, what if I can never kiss your gaze again!
What if my hands never touch in another timeline,
Or in the deepest REM of my sleep, I can't embrace you in my dreams!
Oh my God, please don’t withhold the most beloved piece of your soul from mine!

Perhaps we've arrived too late for each other in this cycle,
Perhaps our hands will never intertwine again.
I am indebted to existences,
Your visage etched into my soul, you are my evolution.
Never lose faith in us.
I’m coming, my love, to be your eternity, to be reborn…

20.04.2025 03:00