Everything keeps building up
it's reaching the point where it's going to spill over
like a *** of boiling water
I don't even know what to do anymore
I don't want this to keep going the way it is
I don't even bother checking my phone anymore because I know that there's going to be nothing there.
every day is so ******* dry
I keep thinking about doing it
more and more
they aren't working
they did at first
but I feel like they are starting to do what everybody else is doing
giving up on me
I guess it's time
For me to give up too.

Every day is the same thing.
Wake up
No friends
It's so dark
So quiet
So lonely
So numb.

I've stopped caring about what other people think.
I'm doing things that make me happy.
I'm thinking things that are making me happy.
I'm saying things that make me happy.
I'm tired of people telling me what should make me happy.
I know what I need to be happy.
So I'm going to follow through
And be selfish for once.

Im entering a new chapter in my life.
I finished High school and I dont know what im doing with my life.
I'm happy but at the same time im so scared
scared im going to fall back in the hole i was in 2 years ago.

hey look at that im lonely again

ive lost track of the time
the days
and the tears.
ive spent countless hours distracting myself by watching netflix and anime
and i always end up in bed and crying. not sure how.
its the only thing to make myself feel better.