And It happened.
One shot and everything fell apart.
Confusion turned into numbness
That would soon sum up
To sadness.

Just stopped doing anything.
Dropped everything at hand.
Sat back and closed my eyes.
I feel tired. That's all.
From life and all aspects of it.
Trying to divert my attention
I remembered a song
It made me realize
Feelings(tiredness) are temporary
Because being alive is temporary
Therefore this feeling is just temporary

Love is a mixture of colors that do not complement
A healthy combination of things that can possibly be
A fusion of attitudes that differ
A beautiful blend of features
That longs to be alive again

It is an artwork made up of broken pieces brought together to recreate
That feeling that was kept and frequently rejected.
Blended well enough to make it feel more alive than it ever was
Carefully. Gradually. Passionately.

It is a stated fact that when these individual attitudes and emotions are well blended, it'll yearn ends
Therefore you savor every moment while taking the roads with harmonious feelings
Trying to travel the path taken by many and hoping that you'll be out with the outmost success
So you walk with burning passion until the end

Yet like the others who've taken the path, you end up with the same plot twist
Someone faded so quick
Faster than the bolt of lightning
Leaving you in the middle of everything.
Leaving the other bright as before
Leaving the other to finish the road they started together
To finish that something harder than building that road's reputation

Why let colors once so bright fade
And leave the other to continue in such a dismay
And expect that you could be okay?

I didn't know what it was like to grow up
Like you have to make big decisions at times
And be responsible for everything you do.

I thought life would do it as it is destined to
But like every thought, it vanishes
Changing courses faster than lightning
Hard to cope 'cause we settle slower than when we're precipitating.

I didn't know what it was like to grow up
Like you'd have to think more mature now
And understand better than before

I thought life isn't as cruel as it seems
I managed to keep that in mind for the longest time
But it seems that I'm changing my mind
Cause the less I'd like to adjust the more I'll be left behind

I didn't know what it as like to grow up
Like you need to be open-minded now
And justify that sometimes you just have to forget about stuff

I thought life would be easy if you just go with the current
For I knew that there would be lesser drama, lesser stress
But it was just to see who stand their ground and who doesn't
Who would stay and who wouldn't
Standing against the current isn't as easy as you see
But it's fulfilling when it's done finally

I didn't know what it was like to grow up
Like you have to stand your ground and speak up
Cause it will be for the best, I guess
Sometimes, circumstances just forces you up

I thought life isn't as crazy as it seems
That everything about it was just to fulfill what you need
But I guess there's always a flaw in the system
Cause it's not always what you needed.
Something that is too much is not nice
But that's what you always get, I bet

I didn't know what it was like to grow up
Until now that I summed it all up
I think I'm drunk while writing this down
Drunk on thoughts ready to be spoken out

This isn't poetry, I believe
But I guess that's just the way life can be

This poem is of sadness
Of all of life's disappointments
Much like water continuously poured
Until you can no longer breathe.  
Until you would want to break free.
Until you want to give up and break down
Until you reach a point where you just want to end it all
How cruel should life be?
When you did not do anything to deserve this.

This poem is of sadness
Of the lack of happy endings
Life only have happy endings for the fortunate ones
So little that many go out disappointed
So much more wanting it to happen

This poem is of sadness
It is of all those things kept and almost forgotten.
****** and broken but is not to be put away.
Always kept away but is still dreaded
For seeing those broken pieces that once was whole and functional hurts.  
In every level.  
In every aspect it has.  
But it is kept to keep you company in those drunken nights.  
When you can't feel the pain  
If a cut reaps your flesh.  

This poem is of sadness
Of that sadness kept in for the longest time.
Of that sadness who never saw the right
The key to light it all up.  
To keep it all away and erase it from the mind.  
To replace it with that much wanted happiness.  
To live a life better than what is right now.  
But think it over, see my dear, isn't too late to actually wish for it to happen right now
When life already took its toll  

This poem is of sadness
Of relationships broken and wounds that take too long to heal
Surely no one is to blame
But the self, the mind, and the heart
Three which is in constant battle
With nothing ever settled
The mind thinks; but doesn't see
The heart dictates; but dosen't feel
The self doesn't follow; but will give in too soon

This poem is of sadness
To the person  
Who has been looking for answers  
Constantly
In every place the feet drags  
Looking for peace
But everywhere
Was too hostile to stay

This poem is of sadness
To the two who hasn't been honest
Been there forever to conceal
Everything that needs to be revealed
An explanation isn't too hard to give
To at least relieve what has been breached

This poem is of sadness
To the support group of madness
Not knowing which ones to see
Didn't know what else to believe
Too torn of what's happening
Human caught in the middle
Silently apologizing for the damage that's too big

This poem is of sadness
Of forgiveness hard to let go
'Cause once you've been told
Not everything you see is so
Now tell me which is right and which is wrong
So at least, even in the deepest of thought,
There it is seen
The peace that took too long to see

Won't you dare
Step in the storm?
Won't you dare
Cup the hand of fate in yours?

Lead on the way
Amidst corridors of blazing sands
Won't you let the friction carve?
Your hands, your sight and heart?

Brushing against your face,
Peeling off your gentle fate
My friend; won't you dare?
And step in the roaring lair?

For ashes and dust
Is this greyish world
So burn the flame
And light in fumes

Hear the tapping of your feet
And feel your sole melt away
On strange wooden lands
Sprinkled with blazing sand

Catch the pebbles
Struck at you
Let it burden till you grieve,
Or build the castle of your dream

Set ablaze, set ablaze
Set yourself ablaze;
Let yourself combust and scarred
And become the blazing star