Some rowing with the current
I'm rowing against it

All in same river

A blanket of snow covers ground
Heart is coated in frost
Pieces of memory are scattered all around
Little reminders of what I have lost

Fold me like paper cranes
I'm teetering on the edge
Inside chest is origami heart
Youï're tearing it to shreds
Emotions weighing down sleeve
"I love you" explicitly displayed
Typed in boldfacefont nonetheless
Permanent ink refusing to fade
My intentions retain their golden hue
Still in place and intact
Not tarnished by savagery of life
Despite good nature being attacked
You hold my hope within hands
Whether realizing or not
Acknowledge presence when convenient
I am simply an afterthought
No happy ending waits in future
It took me way too long to admit
Finally given up on all efforts
To force into a mold we'll never fit
I believed we'd grow old together before
Us to start a family was my dream
Beneath the romantic surface
Story wasn't as meant to be as it seemed
Potential traded for rush of getting high
For the thrill of fortune and speed
If only had known promises of grandeur
Lies and not a chance to succeed
I told myself problems soon would better
Waited patiently for more than awhile
I reached the point eventually
Where could I no longer continue in denial
I lost control of feelings long suppressed
Succumbed to chaos of my mind
Watching our relationship disentegrate helplessly
Crumbling pieces of what once was so perfectly aligned
Despair took ahold of body
No choice but to accept what we became
After eternity in your absence
Still haunted by your name
Skin cold to touch from loneliness
Destined forever to stay incomplete
I am close enough to bathe in your shadow
Yet still too far to ever bask in your heat