It's silly to think that you loved me,
It's silly to think that you cared.
Cause' even when I swore I loved you,
You told me you were scared,
An ill still dream of you some times,
I'll even hear your voice say my name again...

i used to write poems
about the colour of your eyes
with a stomach full of butterflies

but now i write words
about the voices in my head
and how i wish i was dead


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self harm is a misguided concept
where people think that if you don't drag a blade across your skin
that you are not in pain
but they believe that if you choose to do so
that you are seeking for attention
whether you are the holder of the blade or the skin beneath it
you are the wrong no matter what the right
but the symptom from depression is not just cutting and leaving scars
it's about destroying your body whether that's your physical being
or the helpless voice inside your mind

self harm is not just cutting
it's not just leaving a tally of pain across each wrist
or carving insults into your thighs in hopes that no one would see them
self harm is not just opening your skin to release the pain
self harm can be opening your legs to guy who said he loved you
self harm can be extinguishing the flame from your cigarette on you skin
self harm can be intoxicating your mind with fluid or substance
self harm can be pulling strands of your hair from your scalp
self harm can be chewing your nails until you bleed from your fingertips
self harm can be using those fingertips as erasers
to delete the calories you count daily
self harm can be starving your precious body
to count each rib because that's what they say is beauty

but that isn't what defines beauty
whether you have scars on your skin or scars in your mind
whether those scars are stretch marks or harsh words
whether they have healed or are still in that process
you are beautiful

you are beautiful


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i miss you
like today misses yesterday
like autumn misses summer
like the trees miss the leaves
that f
      a
         l
     l
slowly
drifting
through the days
you are not by my side

i miss you
like you will never believe


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life is not perfect
because you believe
you are not perfect

no matter how many times you look into the mirror
and see a beautiful girl staring back at you
those voices
will

creep back and say hello
you're fat
you're ugly
silly pathetic girl
cut deeper

who do you think you are


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your black
  may be my white
    your dark
      may be my light
       your ****
         may be my flower
           your sweet
          may be my sour
         your wet
       may be my dry
    your smile
may be my cry


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dance with me in the moonlight
kiss me below the stars
embrace me with your presence
let's create memories
not scars


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